*Soleil*
It takes me all day searching the shore for a branch that are usable for my staff. Tjalfe had told me I would know, that it would stand out from the rest. Problem is, none of them are standing out to me. In the end I give up and start helping the vaetter clean up. Even if Gudrun has told me about other beings than trolls and elves, I almost fall on my but when little beings with big shimmering wings introduces themself as fairies.

"We are the spirits of the trees and we protect the forest, the animals and the plants. You can call for us by sitting under a tree". One of the fairies say.

"I am really sorry to have disturbed the balance like this". I apologise, as I drag a heavy branch away to the stack.

"Well you have made sure there are fire wood for a long time and lots to repair the cabin. It Can use it". The fairy explains. "As you see we are turning the destruction into something good. The trolls is collecting the dead fish, laying them out for the bears and wolves".

I might look a bit confused.

"The real wolves". The fairy laughs, it sounds like tiny silver bells. "They get an easy meal and more might survive the winter this year".

The fairy doesn't sound like she blames me at all and it helps my mood a bit. Actually none of the vaetter is as much as sending me a glare, while I help them houl the wood away. But I still feel guilty though.

"It is still horrible what I did. So many animals and trees are dead because of me". I glance at the fairy.

The tiny female form with the shiny wings sits down on a branch next to me. "Oh I feel how upset you are sister. You are helping with the clean up; that shows remorse. And you have received Your punishment, so no one expects more from you".

"What punishment is that ? I haven't really been punished honestly". I say confused.

"You were destined for something big. You had been given unfathomable powers, but they have been taken away again. After all, you are only human". The fairy say.

"Only human; what do you mean ?" I scrunch up my forehead.

The fairy just smiles and fly away to pick up more twigs.

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Late in the afternoon I sink down on the porch chair, feeling utterly exhausted. On my way back from the lake I had grabbed a branch from a birch and I have found an old rusty hacksaw in the shack, that has to be usable for cutting slices of the branch. When I have caught my breath, I grab the hacksaw and start sliding the branch into 1 cm pieces. Half an hour later I have 24 pieces on the table. Or actually 30, but they were not all usable. When I am done I grab some sandpaper and start making them smooth. It takes forever, but I enjoy doing something quiet and focused on my own. I am not used to always having people around me. At home my mom often work late and it isn't every day I see Davina.

Davina !

With a pang of guilt i fish out my phone. I had totally forgot to answer her.

'Yeah it is hard going into the clinic every morning and see that the line of sick people are longer than the day before. It is like we only scrap the top of the iceberg. So what are you spending Your time on ?'

It rips at me every time I have to lie about what I am doing and were I am. I have no idea if the things I write about Ghana is even true, I only have tv spots from different organisations to go on.

There is a small beep from my phone.

'I feel you so much sweetie. It is so cool what you are doing, but it's so lame here without you. Casper is driving me insane. He asks about you all the time'.

I sigh.. you have no idea how cool this really is !

'Well say hello from me then. He he ! Miss you too. Here isn't much time for anything but working. We are all totally busted every evening. Well Got to get back to work. Huuugs'.

It isn't really a lie. Rewriting the truth is not really lying, is it ?

Yes it is Your hypocrite ! I grind my teeth and stuff my phone in my pocket walking back inside. I sit down at the dining table, trying to be invisible. I suddenly feel how tired I am. My muscles are sore and I just can't face having to do more today.

"How is the clean up coming along ?" Siri asks.

"Fine". I answer a bit to up beat. "I think we are almost done. I had no idea  there was this many helping spirits at one place".

"We are in a big forest and this is a safe place for our brothers and sisters". Siri looks me over for a moment. "I think you should take the rest of the day of. I Think you have worked enough for one day".

"Thank you, that sound great honestly. I am going to grab a shower then". I send her a warm smile, as I get up and her for the bathroom.

I am standing under the warm water, wondering what to do when I get back home. I honestly can't imagine just going back to school, trying to focus on an education I have never taken serious. Having to leave for at least every full moon. But my mom wants me to have the education she didn't have, so I know she will be a hard nut to break.

The water starts to turn cold, so I turn it of. I dry myself of carefully. My stomach has a pretty blue rosette where Gudrun's staff had hit me. My arms and legs has bruises in all the colours of the rainbow and I whimper every time I touch one of them.

After dinner I go directly to my room and throw myself on the bed. I check my phone, finding a message from Davina. 'Okay then. Hope you at least have some hot eye candy to oogle'.

I can't helping smiling at the idea. Well yeah I do have eye candy, but only elves and a fantasy being created from my mind. Not sure that really count. Thinking about him makes me go to the open window and call. "Tjalfe ?"

A moment later he steps out from the forest a couple of meter in front of me. "What's up pipsqueak ?" He crosses his arms and wiggles his eyebrows. "Sitting her dreaming about me ? Eye candy Huh ?"

I know I blush badly, regretting I called for him.

"Come on kin". He laughs. "Just making fun, trying to get a smile back on Your face".

"Why do you think I need that ? I am perfectly fine". I say.

He jumps up to sit in the open window. "Your vibes you know. They are all send on to me. I am supposed to kind of be Your Davina from now on. Well when I Don't have a hurricane to manage".

"Is that meaning that you will only come if you are not in the middle of some weather stuff ?" I ask nervously.

"Relax, I'll be here with bells on every time you call". He laughs. "Damn you really are a bit slow sometimes sweetie".

"But what about the hurricane ?" I ask, ignoring the insult.

For a moment he just sits there, looking over the dark forest, like he is looking for an answer.

"Uhh hello, earth to Tjalfe". I try getting his attention.

"Just had to check in and ask how much you need to know, little miss no patience". He turns his head to look at me.

I shrug. "Sorry you just looked totally in Your own World".

"I got a summer monsoon going in Asia right now and I an building up to a couple of tornadoes in the American midwest. Just to mention a few things. I know how to multitask; actually it is one of my many talents". He smiles a bit over confident.

"Colossal cosmic powers". I mumble.

"And miniscule living conditions". He say, pointing to his body.

We both laugh. And I am reminded about the connection that had tied me to him the first moment our hands had touched on the mountain. It fills me with an inner peace, knowing I have someone who knows my as deeply as he does.

"What did it mean.. what the fairy said ? About me getting punished and having been destined for something big ?" I ask him.

"I told you on the bridge. I had to pull a big bite of the powers you had been granted back. It was a management decision, that it was to much power for a meatsuit to handle. You saw yourself how grumpy it made you. You like 40% left". He shrugs.

"What was I destined to do with it ?"

"Tell me, are you not getting any of this ? If the dark one makes one wrong move with the balance, it is my job to stop him". Tjalfe wrinkles his nose.

I stare at him. "But you don't need me for that, do you ?"

"Let's just say that as long as you and me are stuck with each other, then my problem is Your problem". He says hesitantly. "And the other way around".

"I am not getting a word you are saying, you know that right ?" I sigh.

"And it is best like that, believe me. You are about to collapse from stress as it is over all this shit. You need to sleep and power up. Tomorrow we are giving it a notch up. You got a little less than three weeks to get Your game right before next full moon". Tjalfe looks almost serious. "So be a good little girl and get into bed now". He gives me long hug before jumping down on the ground. "See you tomorrow pipsqueak". And then he is gone.

I get into bed, but I am just lying there, staring at the ceiling, trying to make heads and tails of what Tjalfe just told me. If he knows who the dark one is why doesn't he just tell me ? I would make it easier for me to defend myself right ?

I jump and gasp as my phone makes a sound.

'Hey Sol. I am back from Scotland. I hope you will allow me to see you ?'

My heart starts pounding like crazy and I close my eyes. Please no, not again.

I haven't thought much about him since getting here. He can't keep showing up in my life only to disappear again. Decisively I put down my phone. It has to wait till tomorrow; it is a bad idea to let him distract me now. But I can't stop staring at the phone, feeling tempted to write him and with a sigh I grab it.

"Hi Davina. Work is done and I am so busted, so going to bed early today. Zac has texted me, he wants to see me again. I don't know what to do". I send the text.

At least I can still share this with Davina and I get an answer almost immediately. 'I should tell you to forget him. But fuck it ! Follow Your heart sweetie. Close Your eyes and let destiny lead you".

What the hell ! What kind of message is that ? I mean you can say a lot about Davina, but she has always been cynical when it came to love. Where does all the romantic nonsens come from ? 'Who are you ? Please give Davina her phone".

'It's me LOL. What can I say, sometimes you just have to take a chance'. She answers back.

I stare at the phone. What is going on ? 'Why do I get a feeling that we are talking about you here ?'

'Me no say ! Wink wink'.

'Okay then ! I am too tired to play guessing games, so going to bed. Night night'. I small stab of jealousy hits me. Of course I want Davina to be happy, but what is to become of me then ?

It isn't easy to admit, but I envy my friend the life she can live with crushes, dates, junk food and movies. I life I have to give up. It is egotistical, but right now I,just want to be normal.