*Soleil*
When we enter the club, the atmosphere is exactly like I remember from the first time. I notice how the dominating black colour, makes the few dark colours much more dramatic. The contrast of colours in the girls dresses, stripes in the hair, the lining in jackets. The lipstick, mostly on girls but also on some boys makes a fantastic change when the eyes are tired of black.

It is like being in a film noir time machine, were the grand dresses of the romance, fetish leather, burlesque lace and punky piercings had all come together in one mixing machine and had been spit out here. There is no judgement here, everyone talks to and accepts everyone else, together in being outcasts from the normal world. Well except for the royals upstairs. There were still an elite in this subculture and the border was harshly drawn at the stairs.

I notice how people cast longing glances at the balcony, and I can't stop myself from looking too. There was a couple of them, looking down at the guest , but there was no sign that HE was there. For a second I felt disappointed, before the memory of Zac drives it away making me feel bad. Annoyed I stand a little straighter. I have to forget Zac, at least for tonight and have fun. And what if Tom is here ? It doesn't hurt looking at him.

They Can go fuck themself, both of them ! I have done perfectly without men so far.

"Wow you look amazing". The voice makes me turn around fast. ""It was Soleil right ?"

"Yeah, and thanks". I say, giving him a friendly smile.

"Hi Casper, where are the others ?" Davina interrupts.

"They are somewhere, discussion something for a change". He say with a small laugh, but he keeps his eyes on me.

Davina grabs my hand, pulling me with her before Casper can object. "Excuse us, but this is such a great song, we just have to go dance to it".

"No Davina". I try pulling my hand from hers. "I can't dance to this kind of music, I don't know how to do it".

"Well it is dancing with me or staying here with Casper and he wants you badly". Davina say with a laugh, pulling me along.

Shit ! Davina is right. No more guys for me. Definitely no more.

I glance at the people dancing around me, then I look at Davina with big eyes. "Just do like me". Davina starts dancing.

I try following her a bit stiffly. But when I realise that no one seem to care, they are more interested in their own dancing, than in laughing at me, I start loosening up and dance a bit more relaxed and enticing.

"Cheers doll, that didn't go half bad". Davina lets out a giggle and hands me a drink as we return to the bar.

"Yeah that wasn't as bad as I thought it would be". I say laughing. I feel all elated after having broken down a big barrier. But then I realise I totally forgot to keep an eye on the dress.

"Hey there are Mark". Davina say pointing to the end of the bar. "So bows the time for talking with him about you know what".

I nod, taking a big sip of my wine. "Well there is actually some things I really want to ask him".

"Okay then go talk to him. I'll leave the two of you alone. I am gonna take a round then to see if here is anyone worth talking to. Is that cool ?" She says.

I smile. "Yeah That's totally okay".

Davina gives me a quick hug before disappearing in the crowd.

"Well Hello again". Mark say as he reaches me. "So you did come back. Hey where did Davina disappear to ?"

"Hi Mark". I say with a small smile. "She is just taking a round, or what she called it".

Mark shakes his head with a big smile. "She is uncontrollable the young lady. You look like you are having more fun this time".

"Yeah you are not so dangerous anymore". I laugh shyly. "I kind of like this place, I can relax here".

"Watch out it can end up being a habit". He says with a wink.

I take a deep breath, finding my courage. "There is actually something I would like to ask you about. Davina say you know a lot about wicca ?"

He arches his eyebrows. "Well I know a fair bit". He say a bit hesitant, looking like he is trying to read my face.

"It's because I have read quite a lot about it". I continue. "And I hoped I could ask you some things if it is okay ?"

"Most stuff on the net is bullshit". He huffs. "Sorry, but don't believe a word of that shit".  A bit surprised by his passionate outburst I take a step back. "Sorry I just hate it. But we better go to the lounge and talk. Much less noise".

I nod. "Cool, I'll just find Davina and tell her that we are up there.

I make my Way through the crowd in the direction Davina disappeared. But when I reach the DJ in the other end, I still haven't found her. I start feeling nervous and walk back towards the bar, to see if she had gone the other way around the dancefloor. She hasn't left without me has she ? My eyes glide over the balcony.

I freeze..

There he is - Tom !

Almost like he actually heard me gasp, he turns to look at me. Like last time his eyes draw me in like a magnet and sending electricity into every fiber of my body. I am once again shocked by my own bodies response, when a throbbing heat spread deep inside me and I realise the burning desire for him, his lips, his hands and his body right here and now.

Tom must have been able to see or feel the effect he has on me, because he cocks his head slightly, like he is studying me closer. I know he is looking directly at me and he isn't trying to hide it at all. His gaze is like needles against my skin and I am quivering with desire. The heat is sending small pulses through me. An inner thirst after him has been awakened and his eyes tells me that he knows exactly how to quench that thirst.

Like last time he breaks the contact. It feels almost like a physical break, like he cut the strings holding me up and I have to grab hold of a chair. I suddenly feel alone and short of breath, with a burning unsatisfied desire. Slowly the Music and the talking returns and I stand up straight, blinking confused. I quickly look around. Spotting Davina at the bar.

A last look at the balcony confirmed that Tom is gone. But I hesitate and walk the other way back to the bar. I am avoiding the stairs, I do not want to come face to face with him.

"Where have you been ?" My question comes of as a bit harsh, it wasn't my intention, but the stress affects me.

"I was in the bathroom and then a ran into Simon here". Davina looks at me very confused. "I was only gone for like 10 min. Are you okay doll ?"

"I just wanted to tell you that I am going to the lounge to talk to Mark". I say. "Could you get me a glass of wine and a tequila ?"

Davina looks at me with surprise. "Wow ! What are we celebrating".

"Nothing, I just need a bit of liquid courage before going up there to talk about this". There is no reason to tell about Tom. I am Way too shocked and appalled by my own reaction and I don't need Davina's psychoanalysis right now. No a shot of something strong is what I need and then up and talk to Mark. This heat will surely disappear then.

"It's okay doll, he isn't going to bite you, I promise". She turns towards the bar to order the drinks.

"This one is on me". It suddenly sounds from Casper, who had sneakers up from behind without any of us hearing him. He looks down at me, giving me one of those charming smiles.

Like the last time, there is something about his gaze that I can't quite put my finger on, but I can't deny that he is rather attractive. I can't stop myself put break down laughing making Casper and Davina look at me.

"Sorry, just me being really weird". I say with another laugh.

Like all guys want you ! You are not that exciting Soleil. I shake my head, then throw it back emptying the shot. I Got to get in the game here.

"You promised me a dance the last time". Casper say leaning on the bar and ordering a beer.

"Did I ? I think I got a bit drunk". I say.

I arches one eyebrow, looking at me. "Oh, does that mean you promised to much or that you can't remember ?"

"No I just don't remember. I would like to dance". I say.

Davina grabs my arm, pulling at me. "Weren't you on Your way to talk to Mark ? Excuse us Casper". She pulls me away. "What the fuck are you doing ? I told you he is a total player. You are Way to good for someone like him".

"He asked me to dance. That's not illegal is it ?"

"Oh come on doll. It always starts with a dance and then the perfect song comes on and the. Everything goes wrong". She say.

"Just because of a dance ?" I look sceptical at her. "Come on aren't you Reading to much into it ?" I laugh nervously, but when she just look at me I sigh. "Fine ! I'll see if I can control myself and not throw myself at him. Can I dance one dance then, after I have talked to Mark ? Please mom". I wink at her.

"Okay, you are on Your own". Davina laugh and gives me a hug, pushing me back towards the bar.

I smile at Casper, as I walk past him. "I'll just have to go talk to Mark about something. After that I would love to dance. But only one dance".

"Cool, catch you later then". He sends me a lopsided grin, grabs his beer and walks away.

I giggle looking after him, that was a loaded comment if ever I heard one. Oh stop Soleil. Even if he should turn out to be interested, you can say no, you promised him one dance nothing more..