I didn't think hanging out with the others would be awkward after ending it with Elliot but it did. They didn't hate me but they did take Elliot side. So I didn't hang out with them much since it seem best to just aviod each other. I walked into the office to hand in my permission slip I had to get filled for this amusement park trip for seniors. It was the school way of celebrating us for graduating.

After handing it I left the office and the school building. I brought my jacket closer around me. I wasn't cold but the sudden feeling of being trap hit me around the mess of students. I just badly wanted to go home and hide in my bed so I hurried away.

"She so strange." I heard some girl whisper say. "Look at those bags under her eyes. Makes her look depressed." another said. I quicken my pace feeling a bunch of pressure on me until I was far enough away.

Someone grabbed my arm and pulled me around. Not expecting it, I took in a sharp breath and looked up with wide eyes. Ulric familiar blues looked down at me and my arm stiff.

"Hope your not running from me." he said.

I pulled away hard as if he burnt me, "Maybe I was." I said as I looked away from those blue sparkingly eyes. "I need to get home so-"

"I understand." he said. He voice was soft, not rushed or anything but it still cut me off. "I would want to run away from myself. I'm a horrible person."

"Thanks for admiting that finally. Why are you here Ulric?" I coldly asked.

He lowered his head for a moment before looking up at me, "You know why, Aeriela. I can't talk to you at your house because then Clyde would step in. I can't at Alpha Matilda because she'll do the same thing. You always go home after school so this is the only place I seem to be able to talk to you where someone won't bother us."

I fixed my bag strap on my shoulder, "I doubt I wanna hear it."

"Please Aeriela." he said, those blue eyes seem to beg me. I stared at him, my heart squeezing up. My head was screaming to walk away and remind me that he was a bad guy. I huffed heavily as I crossed my arms over my chest and arched my eyebrow. He held his hand out to his truck and I hesitated before we both got in.

I awkwardly sat in the passenger seat, "So what do you want to say?"

"I made such a huge mistake." he said, making me roll my eyes. My pain for what he done has turned to hatred for him. He done something that left surprisingly a huge scar on me. "I knew if it gave you enough space maybe we could talk but I knew this time I really screwed things up. It's hard fixing something that's broke in a bunch of tiny pieces."

I shrugged, "So just leave the mess alone-"

"But I don't wanna." he said, making me squeeze my eyes tightly in frustration. "I so badly want to fix what I broke. Before someone else comes in and does it."

Confused, I opened my eyes and turned to look at him, "Huh?"

He looked right back at me, "I don't want to have to watch you with someone else. It's hard, I still wanna be with you Aeriela."

I scoffed and turned to the door but he locked it before I could open it. Glaring at the door I hit it, "You don't wanna watch? Imagine how I felt. Throw fire on yourself and you'll know the feeling."

"I know Aeriela, I was such an idiot to do something that risked losing you. I would give anything to go back to the night and hit me before making that mistake." he said. My nails clawed at the door as I pressed my lips firmly together. "Raynah-that was a rebound. I thought maybe I could move on but I clearly can't."

"We're not getting back together, Ulric." I said. I forced my eyes opened, "You left a big mark on me, it'll be there forever."

He was quiet for a moment. I heard him move on the seat and when his hands touched my shoulders I jerked roughly. I froze though as my eyes widen and I kept telling myself to move away. His grip on me wasnt hard, it was soft acne gentle. "I'm sorry." he said as I felt his chest go against my back as his arms went around me. "I'm still in love with you. I know I made a mistake Aeriela but everytime I see you, you make my heart race. Don't let my stupid immature old self stop you from seeing how I different I am. I know I said I wasn't ready but I am now."

I was staring out the window but I wasn't really looking. I was to busy trying to control how my heart raced in my chest. I didn't wanna follow it, knowing it was a big risk. "Ulric, unlock this door before I smash the window. You have done nothing to prove to me your different. Now."

He didn't move for a moment but his arms finally unlocked. I heard the locks move and I quickly opened the door. I jumped out of the truck and slammed the door shut.

Mat.

Aydin was in serious pain. I felt no pity for him as he laid on the floor of room he was in. I look at him behind the bullet proof window where he wouldn't be able to see me but I can see him. His face was scrunched up in pain as he held a hand against his chest. The drugs were taking so long to leave his body since he was a wolf. He must have taken allot of them.

A few moment gone by before he finally stopped and laid on the floor breathing heavily.

"My pack, my pack needs me." he whispered as he stared up at the ceiling. The wolf guards told me he always talking to himself, mumbling the same thing over and over. "Find Aeriela, bring her pack, have pups, and make the pack happy again. Take care of the pack, that's your role as leader. This powder stuff will help ease the heavy duty for awhile."

I shook my head at him since he was a mess. He was crazy before but these drugs makes him delusional. He truly believes having a female and having children will make everything better. When will wild wolves realize times are seriously changing and they won't survive anymore? They need to get civilized already.

Someone got to get them. I think that person might be me.

Aeriela.

I brought my cardigan closer around me as I walked to the store. I didn't wanna go home because that's the last place I wanna be since everyone should be home by now. I just wanna be alone, walking around alone, and think.

I walked into the gorcey store where I saw some young pack wolves near the eating area. They looked at me like they saying 'oh great, she's here.' I hurried away then since I didn't want to see their judgement eyes. Even though I became foster sister with the Alpha, some still see me as the red hair wild wolf. Dumping Elliot Hound didn't do the reputation good either who grandfather was a high elder in the pack.

I hadn't been paying attention for a moment so I didn't see the person coming around the isle. I bumped into someone hard chest, meaning a wolf.

I stumbled back a little, "Ahh-"

A hand grabbed my shoulder to steady me and I looked up to the dark hair light blue eye wolf who was Mat high guest.

"Are you alright?" Alpha Tamaz asked, removing his hand.

"Yes." I said, stepping back and nod my head. "Thank you for asking. Sorry I bump into you, I didn't mean any disrespect."

He laughed softly, "Such a well manner wolf you are. Especially a former wild wolf."

I shrugged, "They tamed me well."

"Ah, Aeriela you can never really be tamed. You are just trying, your own free will." he said and I lowered my head since I wanted him to say yes I was tame. I wasn't a wild beast anymore. He put his hand under my chin and lift my head before moving his hand, "It's such a bad thing, coming from the wild. It makes you unique. Never forget that. You know," he said, walking away with a basket in his hand with food in it. "You would really fit in back home. European wolves have kept much closer to some old traditions where you American wolves believe in unity and peace."

"Maybe I should just move to Europe." I saw some other wolves near the hot food stands and they gave me the usual stares. "Maybe I would fit in mucn better."

Alpha Tamaz looked at them for a moment before looking at me, "Lift your head up high and show them who you are. You are the Alpha sister, you shouldn't be looking down. Show them where your place is."

"I'm only Mat foster sister, we don't share the same blood." I told him.

"I seen Alpha Matilda is with you. No matter what, you are her sister now. Blood make you relative, loyalty makes you family." he said. He put his hand under my chin and lifted it up high, "So are you going to let them belittle you? Use your strength."

I looked away from them and sighed heavily, forcing him a big smile, "Thank you, Alpha Tamaz. I should take your advice and be confident."

He nodded, "You should, Red Wolf." he began walking and my feet made me follow him. But the thing is, Alpha Tamaz didn't understand how it was like for me and how hard it is to gain respect here for me. "You know, my brother talked about you. He said you have a hard soul." he said.

"Hard soul?" I questioned. "I didn't mean to be rude to him, I just been having some rough times-"

"Don't worry, he didn't think you were rude. Hard soul in Gerogian is a sad soul. Mean you gone through many hardships to make your soul hard. Makes you as you say build a wall up to protect yourself. He also thinks your beautiful." he said, looking down at me and my face heated up. He stopped in front of some rice, "Ah, found it. Being a stubborn man, I don't believe I beed directions to find something. I thought about instead of order food, I should cook since the guest home Alpha Matilda letting us use has a stove why not cook?" he said, chuckling. "But yes, Zakaria likes you. Admitingly, I thought my brother was smitten with men for a moment since he doesn't be around the ladies back home. He sure lights up when you come around."

I awkwardly brought my hand up to my head, "Oh." I said as I turned my head away a little since I hadn't expected to talk about Zakaria. The crazy guy, trying to ask me to prom and he doesn't even know me. He clearly must have been joking.

"You are not talking about me again are you, Tamaz?" I heard behind me and I jerked roughly but I didn't turn my head around to look at him.

"I should be going." I said quickly as I looked up at Alpha Tamaz. "Goodbye Alpha Tamaz-"

"Join us for dinner." he said quickly with a smile. "Your sister and her husband will be there. Join us, the more the better. Trust me, I can cook. Something my mother made sure of is taking care of myself. I won't accept no as an answer."

Crap. I forced a small smile, "Okay, Alpha Tamaz. Thank you."

"Good. Tonight at 8 o'clock."

*

Jeez, I should have never came in here to grab a snack. I placed the sandwhich, chips, and drink on the counter. The lady at the cash register scanned my food.

"I don't know why Alpha Matilda kept her. Give her a bath and nice clothes doesn't mean she changed." a pack girl said. I rolled my eyes since they didn't me. The pack kids I went to school with know me but the older ones don't very much. I know I'm not wild anymore, it would be nice if they realized it to.

I gave the lady the money and grabbed my bag. I started to walk away until one of the wolves in his early twenties stepped in front of me. I looked up at him and arched my eyebrow.

"You know, my cousin was pretty crushed when you didn't accept his proposal." he said. I huffed heavily as I turned my head. "What? Is he not good enough for you?"

I looked up at him, "That not it." I coldly. said. I tried to walk away but he stepped in my place. "Please move."

"Elliot a good kid, he was a good guy. Be with him, you could have proved your adjusting much more to pack life." he said, making me breathe heavily out my nose as my anger rised in frusteration.

"Elliot is a good guy but it's wasn't for us. He can find a much better girl, a girl who you wouldn't be looking down your nose at like you are now." I coldly said.

He looked turned amused as he snorted, "Is it because he's no Ulric Arkwright?" he asked, making my eyes wide since I hadn't expected that. It's been awhile since someone brought up our old relationship. It just after awhile people realized we weren't getting back together they stopped talking.

"Move." I growled as I lowered my head but looked up at up him through my lashes. "Now." My hands balled into a right fist when he didn't move. He knew he hit a rough spot.

"Ulric is the reason why you choosed to not accept Elliot." he said, shaking his head.

I felt someone come up behind me, "Is that how you American wolves talk to your ladies?" I heard Zakaria, making my back stiffen. He stepped beside me, "With no respect? You are lucky the ladies from home weren't here, they'll attack."

"And who are you?" the guy asked, snorting. "The brother of Alpha Matilda guest aren't you?"

"Yes." he said. "I think you should apologize to her, it was very rude to treat her like this. You both are in the same pack."

"She doesn't deserve it." he said. "She was brought into the pack, didn't even get the right traditional way of getting in. She need to be marked to prove it but she hasnt. Alpha Matilda did it to prove it, why not her?"

Aeriela, calm down. Don't let him get to you, don't let him upset you because that's what he wanted.

He shrugged, "Alpha Matilda does things differently then." he said. "Apologize."

"You are here in my Alpha pack, you can't tell me what to do." he said, snorting. He brought his hand up and pushed Zakaria away roughly. My eyes widen but Zakaria looked unfazed.

Zakaria stepped foward, "I'm gonna ask you again to aplogize."

The guy brought his fist out this time but Zakaria grabbed it and brought his fist out the guy stomach. The guy and I both took in sharp breath. Zakaria brought his foot up, kicking the guy in the face. I gasped as the guy fell back with a bleeding nose. He went on his side, holding his gushing nose.

"Apologize-"

I grabbed Zakaria arm, pulling him away, "Stop that! Come on you big idiot!" I dragged him outside, "Are you crazy or something? You can't just start a fight like that."

"It was not much of a fight though. He made the first push. You saw him swinging his fist, I was defending myself." he said.

I scoffed, "I didn't need an apology in the first place. Maybe if you hadn't tried to make him give me one, he wouldn't have tried."

"Oh so this is my fault?" he asked quickly that I almost didn't understand from his thick accent. "Sorry I tried to help you. He was harrassing you, was I just suppose to watch?"

"Yes!" I yelled, confusing him. "You don't even know me! You don't try to help someone you don't even know. Stay out of my business."

The doors slide open and Alpha Tamaz stepped out with some bags, "Excitment over now. Zakaria, come on. Aeriela, see you at dinner tonight."

I looked at Zakaria who shook his head as he looke down at me before following his brother muttering in his own language.