Aeriela

Mat cleared her throat, catching everyone attention. Alpha Nathan was with her with a bottle in the middle of them. "I know how terrible it's been staying here." she said. "With the help of the Alpha of Texas and my cousin Nathan, he has loaned up some camera and other security to make sure to keep us safe." she placed her hand on top of the box. "We also have other taken over to where our camp site is. In the meantime, he only asks for the help of our men work at the construction sights still. We can head over there right now and start working on it."

Everyone started packing their belongings. They were happy to be getting out of the homeless shelter and back to their own tents. At least in the woods, there was wide open space and a lake. I walked over to Mat and she felt me coming.

"Nothing bad going to happen this time." she said, wrapping an arm around me.

I reached into my back pocket and pulled out the envelope, "Sofia wrote again. Devin gotten his already from Clyde but I can't fully understand it."

"Killian, will you?" she asked her mate.

Killian nodded, taking the envelope and took the letter how, "Matilda and Aeriela, I can't say how happy we get to hear from you two. I'm very proud of you Mat, you're so strong and brave. I'm very proud to call you my daughter. You and Nathan are working hard to bring the Redblood name back to honor and I know our ancestors are watching proudly on you two. I know it's hard and some days you feel like you don't deserve the role as Alpha but trust me when I say I knew you were born to lead since the day you were born. You can't forget that you are you young and you have allot of things to learn still. You need to stop doubting yourself when so many wolves believe in you already. Yes, the food in here is terrible and I miss your father dearly but knowing I have wonderful children out there like you and Devin make it worth everything we all been through. Aeriela, I was glad to see the picture of you but I will like to see you smile in another. Even if you don't think she doesn't understand best believe Mat does. She had to grew use to pack life just as you have you. You're such a beautiful girl and understand you are going to make mistakes in life. Don't let that stop you from heading straight just because of a few bumps in the road. You two are sisters now and you have to stick together. I send all my love to the both of you."

I looked at Mat for a moment and she was quiet and she breathed in hard like she was trying to control her emotions, "I don't want her to know about what's happening. She'll just worry."

*

Frustrated, I threw down the tent and kicked it away, "I hate this." I said.

Will sighed heavily as he picked up the new tent I was giving, "Because you're putting way to much overthinking it. The pictures aren't very helpful, you need to actually read them."

"I don't want to." I protest stubbornly. "They have such big words."

He picked up the paper with instructions on it and held it out to me, "I'll help you. You need to be able to read things on your own." he said. "Come on, give it a try. Mat will be proud if she hears you."

I frowned for a moment before lifting the paper up and cleared my throat, "Pla-ace wire thr-through the hole in the tent hole." I slowly read the first instruction clumsy and kept saying something wrongs.

"Not bad. See, you didn't die." he said. He started the tent for me, "You know Aeriela, you are learning this stuff very quickly. I'm sure if you went to regular school, you would be on honor roles. You're actually very smart."

My nose scrunched up, "Schools? I would have to go with humans and I rather pluck my own eyes out before I go somewhere with humans."

"Schools aren't for hanging out, it's for learning." he said.

Killian started to walk past, "Say that guy who was always getting in trouble in school and barley passed. If you met him a year before Aeriela, he has completely changed from who he used to be."

I smiled, "Well I am happy I know this William."

Will scoffed as Killian walked away over towards Mat. Will turned back to me, "You really should consider it. In schools, the pack members don't really hang out with humans. Yes we are in the same buildings but we all barley talk. If you guy, you will have wolves there with you to help you."

"I'm sure they wouldn't like me either." I said, frowning at the thought since I'm sure no matter where I go they will learn I was once wild and treat me differently. Will and I continued to work on my tent. I was happy to have him helping me and I couldn't stop complimenting him. Maybe Will is finally starting to like me and shares the same feeling.

I heard a squeal. I turned my head to see Ulric behind Harley and lifted her up a little. Harley giggled as he set her down on her feet and whispered something in her ear. Ian wasn't around to see his sister flirting with Ulric. Harley asked Luna something and Luna looked annoyed but nodded. Ulric took her hand and pulled Harley away.

I hadn't realized I been staring until Will cleared my throat. I quickly looked away and pushed my hair back with my fingers. This bad wave wash through me, something called jealousy and I hated the feeling.

"You know Aeriela, I use to be like Ulric when I was his age." he said. "Always charming ladies and doing trouble making things."

"I could hardly care." I coldly mumbled.

"Ulric is your first crush, it's hard to move on from those. I use to have a crush on my babysitter when I was eleven." he said.

I scoffed, "I never liked Ulric, he's mean and cold. I don't know how him and Killian are cousins. I can see you two being cousins but not him and Ulric."

"Ulric isn't a relative of mine. He's from Killian father side and his mother is my aunt." he said. "Killian always had been a good boy his whole life. Then you have the black sheep in the family like Ulric who causes trouble to get attention. He's young and going to do allot of stupid things. Like fooling around with Harley who big brother going to end up beating Ulric ass one day. You don't need drama Ulric is giving you. You need to focus on other things. You don't need boys right now."

I started to reach up towards him, "And you're not a boy-" I frowned when he pulled away a little and I lowered my head.

"Aeriela, you're a beautiful girl. Really, you already have allot of boys looking at you. Like I said, you should focus on adjusting to pack life and your books. It's the best thing to do right now." he said. So it wasn't much of a rejection since he wants to me to adjust to pack life. Maybe once I adapt more to my new setting, he will want to be with me. I can do it, I will work hard and prove myself to Will I can live this new life.

"Tell me more about school, I might start to consider it." I said. "If it's something you think is best, I want to hear more about it."

He started to talk about school as we went near the lake and his experience until his cell phone went off. He pulled his phone out of his pocket and look down at the screen, "Oh can you give me a moment? It's an important call."

I nodded and he turned the other away. He answered the call and I turned to face the water. Minutes have passed and will hadn't returned. I bit my lower lip, wondering how important this call was. I started my way in the direction where he left in the woods.

I asked one of the men name Gavin and he think he seen him go south. I went towards the direction deeper into the woods and I soon found Harley and Ulric. They didn't see me as they kissed. Harley back against the tree and Ulric hands were on her waist. The other one was leaning against the tree as Harley hands were around his neck.

Knowing watching them was never a good idea, I turned around and left as pain filled my heart. I thought back to when Ulric had kissed me back in the shelter. I had made myself believe it was nothing important but seeing it still doing it with Harley hurt me. I have never felt this much hurt in my life before. I rather be hurt on the outside then hurt on the inside. It much worse to be hurt on the inside.

Mat

I ran into a tree and I groaned, hitting it with frustration, "I'm sick of this!" I yelled. I brought my hands up to my hair, running my fingers through my curly hair, and wanted to pull out chunks. I started to hit the tree roughly and my hands started to hurt but I was releasing stress.

"Mat, Mat!" Devin said, pulling me away. "Calm down, you're stressing yourself out. Great, your knuckles are bleeding."

I smelt Elijah come near, "Alpha Matilda, go back to the camp site. Don't worry, we can handle these ourselves. My wife can band aid your hands up."

"No." I coldly said. "I'm not going to sit down on my ass and make you guys do everything. I'm going to help set things up. I'm not going to be an Alpha who makes you all into my slaves."

"We knows your lazy." Ian said. "Your vision isn't working and your under allot of stress. Don't worry about it, we can handle this simple task."

I frowned since I felt so useless. I couldn't even help my own pack members set up cameras and I know they're feel bad for me. I didn't want that, I wanted them to forget I was their Alpha and just let me help them. Everything felt like it was crumble to pieces like a puzzle and I didn't know where to start to repair everything.

Devin put his hands on my shoulders, "Here, I'll help you back-"

I pulled away, "I can handle myself." I coldly said without meaning to. I wasn't angry at him or the guys. I was angry with myself since feeling useless was the last thing I hated to feel. I held my hands out and tried my best around things. I could see thankfully the fuzzy looking trees. I just had to make sure I don't trip over anything.

Like I said, I found my way back to my own pack. I found it pointless to find Elijah wife Lucia since my hands were already healing on their own. I found my own tent and went in, laying down on my back. I brought my hands up to my ears, trying to block out my pack whispering how they feel bad for me. Saying I was so young and having so many problems. I thought most of my problems were gone but new ones just seem to find their way back.

*

I hadn't realized I fallen asleep until I heard people. It was night time and everyone had settled the camp fire up with dinner. It was weird since everyone was so calm, like not long ago our camp was raided. It felt like old times but I knew things were different.

"Mat just having a rough time." I heard Killian voice. He wasn't outside the tent but he wasn't too far away. My ears perked as I listen. "I have already asked her but she said no."

"She spent many years on her own, it's hard for her to be with someone." I heard Devin voice. "I'm not saying she doesn't love you because I see how much she is. It's just-Mat is one of those girls who don't believe in marriage. Mat spent so much time alone when she was in the group home, she's still use to being alone. She's like an onion that you have to peel allot of layers off. You are a romantic guy, you want the whole picket fence with some kids and a pet dog. You both are very different."

"Opposite do attract." Killian said.

"I know, you both balance each other out." Devin said.

"I just really want to be married. I grew up my whole life waiting to have a wife I could take care of. Mat doesn't need to be taken care of, she doesn't need me." he said, his voice getting low. "I love her so much and I'm going to support her. I just feel like after everything is settle and I ask a hundred times she'll still say no to me. What if we never get married and have kids?"

I got up and left the tent. I walked over to Killian and I pushed him, "Wanna make me look even more like the bad guy?" I asked. I could hardly see him but I knew he was in front of me. "Here's the thing Killian, you don't know the pressure I am under."

"Mat, I do know." he said. "Look, just calm down. Everyone looking-"

"Let them!" I yelled. "You're talking about me. The pack deserves to know that you probably do deserve better than me. I'm a crappy mate and a crappy Alpha. I'm sorry that right now I can become a housewife and give you a bunch of kids right now when I have to think about Hunters, Scientists, and a pack I have no homes for yet! I'm going to tell you one thing Killian, I'm tired about hearing about a marriage and kids. You need to move on from the idea, it's not going to happen any time soon." I said before I turned and went back to my tent.