Two Days Later...

De'Shawn's POV:

It 8:30pm and my love still hasn't came home. It's my bedtime and also Maria's. Nia won't leave until he comes home because that's her job. He must have forgot that she has a life too. I'll pay her extra just for even thinking about staying way pass her time. I'm impatient and is missing him very dearly. He's usually home by now and its kinda worrying me.

Nia and I are chilling on the couch just talking and waiting for D to come home. She's a really nice girl, she reminds me of my little sister. I miss my little sister, I haven't seen her in like 12 years. She's my only sister, half sister at that. But I raised her like my own. Everyone says we're twins, it's just that Im lightskinned and shes darkskinned. Im only a year older than her though.

Me: "Damn, If this nigga don't hurry his ass up and come home." I sighed and complained.

Nia: "You shouldn't stress yourself, he'll be home soon." She smiled.

Me: "I know.." I trailed off into deep thought. I need to stop stressing myself out. Thats one thing I don't need right now. "Let's change the subject. What do you do when you're not Babysitting Maria?"

Nia: 'Umm," She started. "I take care of my mother and go to school."

Me: "That's what's up, is your mother ill?" I asked.

Nia: "Yeah, Lukemia." She sighed and looked down.

Me: "Wow, Im sorry to hear that." I looked shock but I was sincere.Now, I feel bad for bringing up this conversation.

Nia: "It's fine," She smiled slightly. "Watching Maria has helped keep me sane and its paying for her Medical Bills." She admitted.

Me: "Do we really pay you that much?" I asked changing the sad subject.

Nia: "Yeah," She laughed. "What employer you know pays a hundred dollars an hour?"

Me: "That's true."I laughed. "But, we do it for Maria. Since you're doing a great job with her, I might as well pay you good. I hope you didn't think were paying you that much because we had the money to just so we can flaunt it. You've earned the pay. Otherwise, you wouldn't be here." We laughed. "Everyone in this house is equal. Right now, you're part of the family. So, therefore you get treated like everyone else. You do your job, you get something in return that you worked for. In your case, it's a hundred dollars an hour." I smiled.

Nia: "This is a very wealthy household, I would love to own a mansion." She smiled.

Me: "Yeah, this is what I always wanted." I looked around. "So, I worked for it, and I got it. Funny thing is, having everything you want doesn't necessarily make you happy. Nor does having everything you need. With that being said, all of this don't mean shit."

Nia: "You don't like being rich?" She asked.

Me: "I didn't say that, I don't think you were listening correctly. I'd be happy to live in a regular home and buy regular clothes, and eat regular food. I don't like the power that money has over people because they wouldn't know how to function without it, or they'll forget. That's kind of what happened to me when I left D." I explained.

Nia: "What happened?" She asked curiously.

Me: "I wasn't getting the money that I did before and had to convert quickly. I was behind on bills and everything. So, After hours of debating, I became a stripper." I said embarrassingly.

Nia: "Woah, a stripper?" She said with a surprised expression.

Me: "Mhmm," I nodded. "That was until I got caught by D."

Nia: "That is so embarrassing," She laughed and joined her.

Me: "Girl, he flipped da fuck out." I nodded.

Nia: "I would have too, what were you thinking?"

Me: "Well, I had medical school bills weighing me down, gas, electric, cable, phone, Dance studio, salon, recording srudio oh and Medical school again. That's why I quit dancing, music, and started doing hair at home for a while." I explained.

Nia: "Damn, that's alot of bills to be paying." She shook her head.

Me: "Exactly, you make more money, you pay more money. That's the catch that no one will tell you."

Nia: "I heard that." She nodded.

He phone went off and she jumped before hurrying to answer it.

"Hello?" She answered. "Hey, mama... Umm, I'm sorry I didn't realize how late it was because my boss hasn't come home yet... Mom, I can't-..." She sighed and looked at me. "Okay, mom... Shawny my mother needs me at home, I can't stay longer than 9. It's 8:45."

Me: "It's fine boo, go ahead and be with your mother. I ain't mad at cha. You be careful getting home, it's kinda dark outside."

Nia: "Thank you, Shawny." She hugged me and went to go say bye Maria.

After she left, I was stuck with the worry. Where the hell could my husband be right now? I know he's not working this damn long, he's been gone since he took Maria to school. Not once did he check up on me or even called. Not even a simple text. I slipped off the couch and waddled into the kitchen. I guess Im cooking dinner tonight.

10:12pm... I went to sleep without D by my side and he still hasn't came home. I had to cook dinner because Maria had to eat, I wasn't about to let me being pregnant and her Dad not being here make her starve. So I cooked for her. She gone be tired in the morning, though. She went to bed late because of D not letting anybody know he was coming home late. I swear that man is a man. However you take that, that's what it's supposed to be. I sent him a text like ten times and called but it went straight to voicemail. We turning off phones in this bitch now? He got a damn hour to be here. Or I know something.

11:25pm... Okay, its been over an hour and this nigga still aint came home or turned on that damn phone. If Maria wasnt here and I wasnt pregnant, I would be out looking for his dumbass. I dialed Eric number, cause I know he know just a little bit.

Mia: "Hello?" She answered.

Me: "Put Eric on the phone." I demanded.

Mia: "Why?" She asked with an attitude.

Me: "Just put him on the goddamn phone!" I shouted.

The bitch hung up on me. This bitch just hung up on me. Im finna blow some shit up. This bitch just hung up on me. On James, Im finna go off. I get up and climbed out of bed. I slowly walked myself down the stairs and waddled around to calm my nerves. I called Junior and he answered right away.

Jr: "Wassup Sis?" He answered with a groggy voice.

Me: "I'm sorry to wake you Bro, I just wanted to know If you knew where D was. He hasn't came home yet." I said tearing up. Honestly, Im lowkey scared and frustrated. Mia really pissed me off and D got me worried. It makes it even worse that I physically can't go and find him.

Jr: "Nah, I ain't hear from him today. I'll try calling him though." He said in a sleepy voice.

Me: "It's fine," I sniffled. "His phone is off anyway."

Jr: "Sis, you okay?" He asked in a concerned tone.

Me: "Yeah," I sniffled. "Just scared."

12:37am... I gave up with all the crying and worrying, I waddled my ass upstairs and went to go grabbed my 9mm. I turned off all the lights and grabbed me something to drink before sliding a small couch chair to face the door. I sat there drinking my Thai Tea and waiting next to my phone with the gun in my hand.

1:10am... I woke up and realized that I dosed off but nothing changed. I checked my phone and no notifications. I checked the gun and it's still exactly how I had it. The lights are still off and that door is still unentered.

2:56am... Just when I was about to give up and go upstairs to fall asleep, I heard someone fiddling their keys in the door. Knowing that It's D, I take the safety of the gun and placed my finger over the trigger while I point it at the ground next to the door. One the door finally opened slowly, just as I expected D crept in. I shot the bullet I had in here just to scared him and he froze.

Me: "Don't you fucking move." I said startling him cause he can't see me. Maria woke up and ran out to the top of the stairs.

Maria: "Daddy?" She said in a scared tone.

Me: "Go back to bed, Maria." I demanded. She then did as I said.

D: "Shawny are you fucking crazy?!" He semiyelled. He was breathing heavy and I could tell that he was scared. He didn't want to move, I wasn't going to even shoot him. The gun is not even pointed at him, never was.

Me: "Did you really have to ask?" I smirked. "Who is it?"

D: "Who?" He asked in a confused tone.

Me: "Don't play stupid, you know what the fuck Im talking about D." I sighed and realized that my eyes are starting to water.

D: "Shawny," He sighed.

Me: "Can you not lie to me, I Honestly don't want to hear it." A tear ran down me face. "Where were you?'

D: "I was on a mission..." He trailed. I know this nigga did not just say he was on a mission. "I had to handle some business that needed to be done, I didn't mean for it to take that long but it did."

Me: "So, Whatever I say doesn't matter because you're going to what you want regardless?" I scoffed. "You scared the shit out of me because I thought something was wrong. You could've been killed and I wouldn't even know because you didn't tell me! The way You walked in had me thinking you were with some female."

D: "I'm sorry, Bae. But, I had to do it." He stood there in the dark.

Me: "Whatever, Im going to bed." I sighed and got up. I waddled to the steps and he attempted to help me. "Please, don't touch me." I said irritated and walked upstairs. I entered my room and walked into the bathroom. D followed behind me and this weirdo watched me pee. I think he was waiting on me to look at him in the light because I sure was avoiding to.

D: "You don't believe me, do you?" He asked. "I wasn't with another female."

Me: "It's whatever, D. I don't care anymore. Just do what you want, I'm going to bed." I flushed and wiped. I glanced at him as I got up and almost had an heart attack. He had on all black and you can tell he had blood on him, it was even on his face. I washed my hands and took deep breaths. "Please don't tell me you been out killing people all damn day."

D: "It's just business." He said nonchalantly with a shrug. Now, that just pissed me off. This is coming from the nigga who told me I couldn't make a video with my friend and got mad cause I said it was Just business.

Me: "Right, just business. You know what, Im not even gone say nothing. Cause, you sound real stupid right now. I hope you have fun doing business. Just be mindful that youre putting your family in danger too. If Maria or any of the kids get hurt because of your bullshit, I am leaving and taking them with me. " I semiyelled. I brushed pass him and went into the room.

D: "This is what helping pay for shit in this house, more now than ever. So, I don't see how you could be complaining about anything." He hissed.

Me: "Nigga, how about you go wash that shit off yo face and stop trying to convince me that your money means shit. Cause it doesn't." I sat on the bed and pulled the covers over myself as I layed down.

D: "That's not what you was saying when you ain't have shit." He spat.

Me: "Fuck outta here with that shit man, go hop yo funky ass in the shower." I turn my back towards him and attempted to rock myself to sleep. He slammed the bathroom door and I soon heard the shower start.

By the time D made it out the shower, my fat ass was still rocking. I was pissed and still trying to cool myself down. Our arguments always keep me heated to a point that I can't calm down unless I cry my self to sleep. This time, I ain't crying because I had already cried earlier. D opened the bathroom door and a relaxing warm wave of air covered the room and it smelled so good. I slightly was falling asleep because of it. He walked over to my side of the bed and opened the first drawer. He pulled out his phone that I blew up while he was gone and turned it on as he to the other side of the bed. He sat on the edge and listened to every voicemail I sent him out loud and every message.

D: "You called over Forty times and even text. You have every one else try me too just in case but not once did you accuse me of cheating until I got home?" He stopped and set his phone down. "Baby, You were really scared? "

Me: "Of course I was scared, no one knew where you were and you didn't tell me." I began rocking again. He climbed in bed next to me and cuddle with me from behind under the covers. He didn't have anything clothes on and he's still warm from the shower, his scent covers me as he snuggles his face into the crook of my neck.

D: "Im sorry, Babygirl. I didn't tell you cause I knew you'd get upset." He kissed my neck.

Me: "Did you know I was stressed the fuck out all night cause I thought something happened?" He rubbed my belly and turned me onto my back. He reach over to turn on the lamp and caressed my cheek as he looked into my eyes.

D: "Baby, I'm not going no where. I told you, you ain't gone lose me." He said with so much confidence as If life doesn't have a mind of it's own. I placed my hand over his. Deep down inside I doubt that life will even alllow me happy. I run into deep thought when I think about what happened last time he was in the game.

Me: "Do you remember what happened last time?" I said with tears in my eyes. He wiped away my tears and sighed.

D: "Yeah, I remember what happened but-"

Me: "No buts. D, I almost lost you." I said softly. "Twice, and I can't be there everytime to save you. Especially If you're putting yourself in a position where I can't even get to you." I said with a shaky voice.

D: "I know..." He rolled over onto his back and put his hands behind his head.

Me: "Then why do you keep going back?" I asked.

D: "Because, I can't leave. I don't even have a choice, I was born into it. Every where I go, there's an enemy and a fan or both that won't die in peace unless I am six feet under. I know that the day I die will be by a gun and Im not afraid because that's just the way it is. Im glad I made it this far, but I ain't made it far enough yet. I'll go when my time comes and don't you be sad because it's inevitable. Just like I can't get control when you're going to pass or when Maria passes. It's just the way of life. Blood in, Blood out. I can't do nothing about my lifestyle. I can hire as much people I want to take over the trap but it'll still be my trap and they'll all still answer to me. I will always be O.G. D Smith. I can go anywhere and all the niggas in the game will know who I am. Period." He sighed and shook his head. I rubbed his chest and kissed his cheek.

Me: "You lucky I signed up for this shit," I laughed to brighten the mood.

D: "I'm glad you did." He rubbed my back. "I need you more than anything."

Me: "I love you." I sighed and continued to rubbed his packs.

D: "I love you too." He kissed me sweetly. "Don't you go anywhere either. I almost lost you too, remember?"

Me: "Where imma go? You know my ass gone end up right here next to you, every single time. Never fails." We shared a laughed because it's true.

I rested my head on his chest and wrapped my arm around him. It was Nice for about two seconds and then I had to find a new position. I tried tou put my leg up but I realized that D didn't have any clothes on. He play too much because he know how I am right now.

D: "Good night, Beautiful ," He kissed my nose. He turned me around and cuddled next to me."I got Chu tomorrow."

Me: "You better," I giggled.

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