먼저┆firsts
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taehyung climbed the stairs quickly. he had been fidgeting all day waiting to go over and film with the other youtuber. it got to the point where the nerves had him tweeting the younger, and now he was standing outside the guys apartment and freezing with his knuckles raised about to knock.

"oh my god." taehyung didn't knock. he didn't prepare for this and had no idea what to say to the guy. last time jimin was doing most of the talking and taehyung could build off that.

he really hoped they could start filming right away, he did his best when he could talk to a camera.

taehyung adjusted the backpack on his shoulders full of art supplies and brushes for tonight. he finally knocked, and the door swung open a second later.

"i was wondering how long it would take you to knock." jungkook said.

the way the boys mouth fell open was nearly comical, especially added to how he looked between the ravenette and his raised fist still. "how did you even-" taehyung started to say.

jungkook knew what he was gonna ask, jutting a thumb up to the corner where a lens sat. of course he had some wired security system. taehyung hummed and then the two went inside the apartment. "i already set up in my office." jungkook said, "do you want anything? there's drinks in the fridge and i think some leftover takeout." he said.

"no i'm okay, i just ate." it was a lie, taehyung didn't trust his stomach right now with all the nerves. thinking of putting any food in there right now was only making it worse.

jungkook shrugged and grabbed a carton for himself, nodding his head down the hall and kicking open the door with his boot. it was the office room, where his desk and hamster was. "hi toast." taehyung said, wiggling his finger at the enclosure and only seeing a small nose poke its way through the bedding.

"it's still kinda early so he might not get up for another hour." jungkook said, sitting in one of the chairs and opening the top of the takeout container. the smell of pork fried rice filled the room and taehyung was starting to reconsider.

it's like jungkook could read his mind, because without even looking up from the meal he spoke, "there's one with noodles and dumplings." he said.

"oh thank you!" taehyung barely finished saying it before running back down the hall to the kitchen. he made himself comfortable, opening drawers to find chopsticks and getting acquainted where things were at. the boy even grabbed some hot sauce paste to mix in with the noodles before heading back to the other.

taehyung was kind of glad they were eating, because it made things less awkward. instead of starting to film right away they could sit and just get comfortable with each other first.

"so what are we doing for your channel?" taehyung asked, having already mixed the spicy addition to the noodles and eating a few bits to stain his lips a faint red color. jungkook shrugged, "i was torn between playing a game, and then watching each of our first videos." he said, pausing for a some rice, "but i'd kill it in one of those options and then want to be killed in the other."

taehyung giggled a little at that and wiped the corner of his lips, "let's watch the old videos." he said, scooting forward to get close to the desk. he couldn't lie that he was a little excited to see where this ravenette started from.

taehyung knew what his first few videos were and he loved them, he'd never be embarrassed about them. clearly that wasn't the same for the other, who was quick to say, "i changed my mind."

"start recording." taehyung pointed at the camera. everything was already set up but he didn't want to touch the other's stuff, except for the computer which he gladly started typing away on. "we can watch mine first." he said, already knowing the title to search.

jungkook grumbled but he didn't argue, not as he pulled out his phone and started to type. "i tweeted that im going live." he said. "do you know how to start a stream on twitch." he asked the other boy.

"uh," taehyung sat back in the gamer chair, more comfy than he expected it to be, and now it was his turn to be confused and nervous. "you go live?" he basically repeated the ravenette. he's never done any lives, not considering his chaotic ass running around filming and needing to cut most of that out for editing. 

"always," jungkook bumped the boys chair to nudge him over gently. he typed instead, hoodies sleeves going all the way to his knuckles as he worked on opening twitch and getting all that ready.

taehyung chewed on the bottom of his lip and swayed back and forth a bit in the chair. it was the little light on the camera changing that had him paying attention again, looking at the screen and seeing a bunch of stuff on twitch that he didn't understand. jungkook clicked around so quick since he was used to it, knowing what to do and soon a little screen showed up in the corner of the two males. "alright, we got a good one today." jungkook said.

the numbers started to rise as people joined the stream and started to talk in the chat. there was a little smile that appeared on the ravenettes face as his dark eyes scanned the many messages zooming past. it was the first time taehyung thinks he saw a look like that on his face. it made taehyung want to smile too.

there were a lot of messages asking about taehyung, who he was or others freaking out because they knew. it was very uncommon for the ravenette to have a guest on his channel that wasn't his hamster or jimin.

"yeah, over night toast just had this crazy growth spurt and this is what i have to deal with now." jungkook said, looking over at the other male with that same little grin.

it made taehyungs stomach swirl and he covered it up by smacking the guys arm. "shut up. i would love to be toast, he has his own crib with no roommates." taehyung looked behind them at the large enclosure, little sticky lettering on the glass that spelled out his name and some lights going around the bottom on the outside to make it glow a light blue.

the other night jungkook had told taehyung about the colors and what they had to be so they didn't damage hamsters eyes. it was kind of cute to see this quiet and dark guy be all soft and knowing about his pet. 

"no on a serious note this is taehyung," jungkook introduced the boy, "he's jimins friend and roommate and we met the other day." he explained.

"yeah and jungkook seemed cool so we decided to do a video together." taehyung smiled at the camera and felt a little better seeing lots of positivity coming in through the chat.

"i'm doing it for the views."

jungkook got smacked on the arm again. "tonight we're going to be watching our old videos." taehyung said. he was easily getting more comfortable, and he would be more so if the one beside him didn't keep glancing over every few seconds.

"stop looking at me just press play." taehyung could feel his face getting warm and he bumped his chair against jungkooks to steer his focus away. the other simply chuckled and looked down at his lap while shaking his head, right before looking back at one of the monitors and finding the video from some years ago. "hi?" jungkook said reading the word underneath the video, "that's what you decided to title your first video ever on the platform you hoped to build a sustaining career on?"

"you probably titled yours like asscheeks or something dumb and provocative like that, so shut up." taehyung shot back.

jungkook chuckled again and it sounded pretty, again.

the video started and taehyung felt a flutter in his stomach, maybe from the nerves or wondering what the other male would think. it was a dumb video, filmed on his old phone and propped up against a tissue box. "hello youtube." his baby voice came through the multiple speakers in jungkooks office.

it was the maximum level of cringe on full volume. "oh god." taehyung said, looking at his bangs falling forward so dull as past him sat there in his old bedroom dressed in his school uniform. present taehyung thanked his old self for at least ditching the preppy looking tie for the video.

"hello youtube!" jimins voice screamed from somewhere in the back, and then his face appeared with big cheeks and smiling eyes.

the twitch chat blew up with everyone talking in caps about how cute jimin was, which made sense since the boy really was.

"you guys were friends back then?" jungkook asked, looking over seeming so comfortable, like they were just talking and not even filming. it made taehyung feel more comfortable too, and he nodded, "yeah we went to high school together and we really thought we were funny. so i just picked up my phone and told him that we're starting a channel." he smiled thinking back to those times, thankful he had his friend and now all his viewers that supported him too.

"i'm assuming he ended up making his own eventually." jungkook said, glancing back at the chat and seeing if any questions or remakes caught his eye. he ignored the ones more imaginative, complimenting the two males and assuming other things.

taehyung nodded, "yeah once he met his boyfriend they started doing dance together on a channel." he said, thinking about hoseok and how well things turned out for the two of them.

jungkook nodded too and continued on, he talked to the chat and made sure to include taehyung of course, making the boy feel comfortable and welcomed on a channel that wasn't his own. they continued to watch the video and taehyung would freak about how awkward he seemed talking about literally nothing of importance, only for jungkook to call him cute and then read something off the twitch chat to cover up the subtle compliment.

it was weird, to see the two of them displaying such opposite behavioral patterns. neither had filmed with the other before, and neither have even hung out alone together. taehyung clearly wasn't as loud and chaotic as he would be in his own videos doing crafts or cooking meals, and jungkook seemed to talk more as he got more nervous and wanted to seem like he was still all calm and comfortable.

none of it went unnoticed, not by the chat and not by the two who would read certain replies and then glance sideways at the other male. the fluttering in his stomach didn't stop, and taehyung really couldn't decipher if it was a good feeling or not — the want to stay longer fighting with the need to run out of there, disappearing down the stairs and wishing to feel the cold city air on his face.

for now he only felt jungkooks eyes staring, burning holes in his face, and that he was sure he liked.

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