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the tip of his nose was a rosy red color by the time he reached the building. it was still early morning, not many people awake just yet except for those opening their shops or grabbing an early coffee. taehyung rubbed the palms of his hands together to gather some warmth before heading inside.

there was only one hint he got, but it was enough. maybe it was the fact that jungkook was high or drunk, or both, but it definitely made it easier for taehyung to find out where he was since words seemed to slip easier.

his footsteps echoed against the floor, the warmth of being inside feeling nice against his face and hands. he knew his way around, passing doors and looking for the one he needed.

what surprised him was how it sat ajar already, a little crack that wasn't meant to be there. taehyung pushed open the door slowly and peeked around. "jungkook?" he called out, getting nothing in response. everything looked normal, nothing out of place or seeming like something was wrong.

he shut the door behind himself and called for the younger again. "hey, jungkook. im here baby." he said.

there was still no response, but there was no way he got it wrong. not with that hint ⏤ and not with that hint coming rolling in his ball and knocking against taehyungs boot. " hi toast." he said, the small pet only backing up a little to hit his shoe again. "wheres dad?"

toast started to roll away again, down the hall and taehyung followed. jungkooks office door was open too, the led lights on and fading in and out to different colors. he was sitting there on the floor with a can of beer balancing on his knee. "traitor." he said to his hamster as he rolled by and around the room.

"had enough?" taehyung asked. he poked the boys leg and made the beer can wobble. jungkook didnt try to save it, not when it could crash to the floor and clatter like a bad song. jungkook patted the spot beside him with a shake of his head. "i barely had any." he claimed.

"is that so?" taehyung didnt sit where he was asked, but he did kneel in front of the boy, leaving his hands in his lap.

"your turn to hide?" jungkook asked.

taehyung shook his head. "i dont want to play any games."

that had jungkook tilting his head, a little twitch to the corner of his thin lips. "i dont want to play games either." he said. the way his eyes seemed to shine brightly, despite the dimness to the room. he looked so pretty.

it made the older smile too, "so what do you want?" taehyung asked.

"i want you," jungkook said, "to be my best friend."

"i think i can make that happen for you." taehyung said. now he moved to sit beside the younger, pushing aside the beer cans and leaning against the desk the way jungkook did. it was silent for a few moments, only the sound of toast the hamster bumping into things occasionally and jungkooks soft breathing.

jungkook was the first to speak, at some point his head landing on taehyungs shoulder. "im sorry." he said, "for being mean."

taehyung hushed him. he reached up and started to push back the boys hair, twisting the ends and tucking it behind his ears. "stop." was all taehyung said. "you did nothing wrong." he didnt stop playing with jungkooks hair.

"mhm i did." jungkook hummed.

"yeah and whats that?" taehyung chuckled softly, voice sounding deeper as he kept his voice quiet like a whisper. to jungkook is sounded pretty, sending shivers down his spine and nearly lulling him to sleep. "i didnt talk to you sooner." jungkook said, a soft pout on his lips thinking of the time they lost.

its really only been a few days, but when you miss someone it feels like longer. it was a lesson he didnt like learning, but right now he didnt care.

"so did you actually drive around that long?" taehyung had a playful smile on his lips, tilting his head down to see the boy better. jungkook was smiling too, reaching up with his hands to cover his face. he mumbled someone incoherent, a whine that taehyung couldnt hear, but he giggled at the younger anyways.

"ive never been high." taehyung randomly said. "i mean, i tasted an edible like one time but it didnt really do anything so it doesnt count. ive never smoked." he explained.

jungkook sat up and looked at the older. "do you want to?" he asked. he wasnt teasing or being playful, not making fun of the other for never doing something. instead he looked genuinely curious about what taehyung would say. "uh," taehyung seemed unsure, but jungkook somehow made him feel better. it was just those eyes, and that small smile that told him it was okay.

"i have an idea." jungkook said. he took the olders hand, a gentle grip that neither let go of as the two boys stood up and left the office. jungkook tugged him along to his bedroom, not letting go of taehyungs hand until he needed to grab something from his bedside drawer.

taehyung sat down on the bed and crossed his legs, watching as jungkook dug around until he too joined the older on the bed. it was a lighter, one with gummy bears decorating it, and a blunt that jungkook held between his fingers. "say no if you want." jungkook said, but the other stayed quiet and watched.

jungkook stuck the blunt loosely between his lips, holding the lighter up to the end and taking quick drags for the flame to set. he clearly knew what he was doing, taehyung could tell that much for sure. the ravenette leaned back against his pillows, eyes never leaving to brunette as he mumbled with the blunt still hanging between his lips, "come here." he said.

taehyung didnt need to be told again, not when jungkook was sitting there with legs spread slightly and looking so handsome. he didnt waste another second crawling into the youngers lap, facing him and watching as jungkook reached up to pinch the blunt between his thumb and index finger. their eye contact didnt break as their the handsome ravenette inhaled, his other hand loosely wrapping around taehyungs slim waist.

taehyung felt like he was holding his breath, arms tentatively going around the youngers neck. he felt like he wasnt even there, like he was watching himself do this and be so close to someone that he just agreed to be friends with. jungkook took the blunt away from his mouth, a little smirk sitting on his lips.

he leaned in closer, but only a little. he needed taehyung to do something, to give him permission to keep going.

that permission came when taehyungs eyes fluttered shut, lips parting and coming closer as jungkook exhaled the smoke into the olders mouth. there was a heat that came with feeling his lips brush jungkooks, the way his hands held onto his waist to keep him close. it was such a conflict with the chills that ran down taehyungs spine ⏤ such strong emotions blurring his thoughts and making him see stars, ones that shone in jungkooks pretty eyes.

no one was speaking, but it seemed to be anything but silent between the two. jungkooks mind was screaming at him, some cheers for being bold and some scoldings for not putting a leash on himself and his emotions. it seemed impossible to listen to any one thing.

but then taehyung spoke, and jungkook couldnt focus on anything other than his lips moving to make the words.

"we should get some sleep." he whispered, "you had an eventful last several hours."

"will you stay?" jungkook asked. he was whispering too, voice raspy and eyes never wavering. his hands didnt leave either, not from their gentle hold on either side of the olders waist.

taehyung nodded, feeling the swirl in his tummy once again. "if thats what you want." he said.

jungkook only nodded, and the exhaustion finally seemed to hit him. it showed in his eyes first, the way he kept trying to blink to keep them open. taehyung giggled and tucked some dark hair behind the boys ears, "come on, bedtime." he said.

"okay, thank you for staying." jungkook mumbled, his accent slipping through and decorating his words in a way that made taehyung melt. if that wasnt enough, then it was the light kiss that jungkook left to the corner of his mouth, not really realizing what he just did.

taehyungs eyes widened, blinking and feeling his cheeks warm. he watched as jungkook barely reacted to kissing the older male, simply pushing the covers away so he could tuck his legs underneath. "come on baby." jungkook said, the sleep already evident in his voice as he laid down, but sill held up the covers for taehyung to crawl underneath with him.

they didnt cuddle, jungkook didnt act selfish and hold the boy no matter how much he wanted to. it could have been the self control or the exhaustion that helped him keep his hands to himself. either way, taehyung laid down too, facing the younger and watching as his eyes fluttered shut and his chest seemed to rise slower with each steady breath.

it was like a lullaby, his soft breathing and barely parted lips that they escaped from. he was a dream in reality, laying there so close but yet so far. taehyung almost didnt want to close his eyes, as if hed wake up and realize this was all a dream. he couldnt be this lucky.

but maybe he would be. maybe theyd both be lucky enough to find the things in life they really wanted. its all any of us could hope for.

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