over the next few days, seokjin had done a lot of thinking and was avoiding namjoon, due to those thoughts. he was sorting his feelings out, trying to decide whether or not he should give it a chance. either namjoon could mend his heart, and chase away the voices, or he could break seokjin even more. the boy was terrified of the second option, and so was namjoon. but in the end, seokjin had made his decision. the decision to try.

but namjoon had been thinking as well.

so after school, seokjin finds namjoon sitting on their usual bench, just like he always is.

"i want to tell you something." he says, a nervous smile on his lips, as he plays with his fingers.

"i have something to say, as well. i'm going to stop bothering you. i know that i'm only making everything worse, and i apologize for that. so from now on, i'll pretend like i don't know you." with that, namjoon stands up and walks away, trying his hardest to keep his tears from falling.

seokjin's smile fades when he realizes what had just been said, feeling his own eyes beginning to sting, before the tears begin to fall.

they both cry themselves to sleep that night. namjoon regretting everything he said, even though he knows it's for the best. and seokjin truly giving up on love, and any hope of ever fixing himself.