I am the oldest,
There's seven below.
Yet I feel the weakest,
How can it be so?

I know Ryan is down,
His eyes show as much.
But he can make someone's day,
With a smile or touch.

Blake and Sky too,
They sit and they dream.
But if our family is happy,
Blake's smile beams.

Sky is different again,
Always alone,
But I see a slight spark
Inside her that's grown.

My situation is different,
It's simpler at any rate.
I feel I need more control,
'Cause I am the oldest of eight.

But I can never do it,
I'm not with them enough.
I want to tell them I'll be there
Through good times and rough.

I try to make Sky smile,
She sits and looks away.
I try to make Blake talk,
And not a word he says.

I try to make Ryan happy,
To look at himself and smile.
But only Emberly can do that.
I feel distanced by a mile.

Even with Farren it's hard,
He adventures through the day.
He's hardly ever home,
I hope he's okay.

Now Juliette and Rachanna,
They're a fun pair.
Rachanna's always happy,
Just like Dad's best friend.

Juliette gets sad sometimes,
But then Rachanna appears.
They hug and jump together
Till they smile from ear to ear.

It's good they have each other,
But I wish they had me too.
The older brother I want to be,
To stop them feeling blue.

Now Malia, my sister,
She was my best friend,
Before you left us, Mother,
We stuck together till the end.

But now everything is different,
And we hardly even talk.
I'm lucky if I see her,
Pass by me as she walks.

I wish I was there more often,
Even to stand by her side.
But we have drifted apart now
And Sapphire is her light.

I notice what they go through,
I notice who they're with,
I want to help them, Mother,
That's my only wish.