4kuj1 woke up from the noise of whining animals around him, all in someway broken or mutated. He lifted his head and looked around at the familiar dark gray walls with red stains all over them. 4kuj1 wished he didn't know what those stains were. He started to get dizzy from the thought of all of his friends being abused and sometimes even killed. 4kuj1 heard a loud screech from down the hall to the left of him. His ears flattened as it echoed through the whole lab. 4kuj1 got up and slowly and quietly walked closer to get a better look. He peered over to see what it was. Just a few moments after, he let out a gasp of horror. There was a tiny barn owl on the ground, her neck was snapped in two, foam was slowly dripping from her wide open beak, her eyes were rolled back and there was blood everywhere, along the walls, dripping to the ground, there was a lake of thick, scarlet red blood. A small feather made its way to 4kuj1, blowing around from impact. 4kuji caught the feather with his snout before it flew away. He ran over to the slaughtered barn animal and sat close to it. He was used to the smell of dead animals, from all the other deaths that happen regularly. He gently put down the   feather. "This poor owl... It didn't deserve to go like this... It should of been me..." 4kuj1 whimpered.
He felt a shadow loom over him. He turned his head only to see Dr. Farlow. "Today is a big day, 4kuj1. Be in the boiler room in 5 minutes." Farlow instructed happily. 4kuj1 nodded, picked up the feather and started walking to the room where he stayed. "Oh, and one more thing..." Farlow added threateningly. 4kuj1 stopped. "I will be killing off that bunny you used to hang out with. She is of no use anymore." Farlow explained. 4kuj1 pretended he didn't care but he did, that was his first friend even though it often scared the crap out of him. 4kuj1 could feel his heart sink as Dr. Farlow walked to the room where the rabbit stayed. 4kuj1 hid in the room he woke up in to try to hide from his friends death. Not realizing it is only breaking him more.

I just want it to stop

I want to be normal

I want to see the sun

I don't want to be this monster

        This vile monster.

Even if I see the sun, I will still have my body and my brain to tell myself I am a monster. It's not fair. It's not like anyone would even care. Have I ever felt love? 

What is love?

Is it a word to make others happy?

Is it something only found in dreams?

Is it just a weapon to all insanity in this cruel Earth!?

S a v e    m e

Can all of this be reversed?

Can I be fixed?

Why do I ask myself so many questions?

Pathetic.

That's the answer.

I am pathetic.

I can't comprehend death no matter how much I face

I can't stop getting freaked out by the red that blinds my hopes.

Do I deserve this?

End of chapter thingy:
Bonjour lil spirits!
I hope you liked this book so far. I'm sorry for the short chapter. Soon I'll be making longer ones :/

Tell me what you think so far, in my opinion I'm not great but, pre teen self esteem issues. (Hng wai me God)

Bye french fried potatoes!
(Ghost out)
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