it's been pouring since morning
and i don't know why,
but i miss the sun.
sometimes, the way it softly illuminates my bedroom is the only thing that makes the world worth it.

just, sunshine.

i'm listening to the sound of my raspy breathing,
and the quiet rises to a whistle in my ear
my heartache gets worse, and a headache comes with it.

suddenly, i realise the rain has stopped, the trees have stilled, the lightning gone.
but i feel a loss, like the storm was what kept my thoughts at bay,
instead of rushing to me like a tidal wave.

but the storm is gone, and it's not coming back
so i lay down and cry for a bit before i fall asleep

it was storming when i wrote this (four or five days ago), and i was not feeling great. also ngl, it bothers me when ppl only read NOSTALGIA and small bc i feel like i'm v different from back when i wrote those (she says as it's been less than a year). they're fine and all, and they are decent ig, but they're not that personal. i just don't think they represent my best poems.

but n e way, lmk what u think in a comment and vote if u feel like it. have a nice day/evening/night!! <33