every second that happens is a second that was always going to happen—even if what happens during those moments changes in the alternate universes we wonder about at night

but if soulmates meet in every life, do we ever really change? or are we always compatible, ready to fall further into each other's love no matter what we're like?
do we need to stay stagnant to stay in love? what if you can love me when i'm a different person, when i've grown into myself and beyond what i thought i could be? are you still loving the same person then?

we look at the england's 1800 sky and find stars that'll die by the time we come back to see them, 200 years later
and i wonder if it will be this easy in five years, when we've gotten—seemingly impossibly—together
i'll see you and it'll be beautiful, but will we still have this?

we're a long distance relationship in reverse, i've never truly seen you
everyone else at least knows how they act in person,
but all we have to work from are giggly phone calls and audio messages that're too long for instagram and 3 hour long conversations through text

then i listen to a song and look up the lyrics because it intrigues me, and that's what i usually do when i'm into a melody
it reminds me of my love for you, and somehow the meaning becomes irrelevant after that
i don't think i need to know exactly why i love you, at least not anymore
i exit the tab because
not everything needs to be known, even if it can be, and that's okay with me
after all, the future will always be a mystery

so maybe i lied when i said i haven't written anything good so far (altho if y'all end up thinking this is shit then technically i didn't lmao). this is the best i've got and i'm trying to make up for the long asf gap so pls forgive me.

n e gays, i'm currently in an online relationship and it's kinda nerve-inducing, but the feels from it gave me inspo for this poem (and the best partner ever) so i can't complain. this is dedicated to them bc i'm a lovesick mess <3 have a nice day/evening/night y'all !!

edit: there was a lil typo but the lovely amaya (accidentally) pointed it out so it's gone now !! for future reference, i love it when ppl correct me <3 it's encouraged so don't hold back if u have smth to say (just don't be mean for the sake of it obv)