i remember snippets,
of you and me and us and them

[for c.x.]
dandelions tucked behind an ear
and a sketchbook over your face
rolling pebbles on the concrete beneath my fingertips

long calls make for long nights,
your drawings and my laughs
cheesy pick-up lines and fandom jokes
future plans of Grayson the Rock and our cactus plant
awkward confessions and long glances

but then one-word answers, messages left on read
sad texts of why? and messages saying you have been blocked
but then Halloween horror movies play
and you can't watch the gory scenes, don't eat my food
you're in my house and you won't even speak to me
i just look at you and want to cry and scream and ask why? again
it was fun, but that made it harder
because we were friends and you left me
but i close my eyes and look away

[for e.p.]
our first fight was just chains tangled on basketball hoops
and my shoes dangling off a tree branch
us pulling each other's hair and screaming
torn socks and flushed faces
but we made up as little kids do,
quickly and happily

then it's all trying to balance on the ropes like Legolas,
climbing on monkey bars and playground roofs
confessions and revelations during honest talks
staying out until sunset,
watching the clouds turn to candy floss

later, you had butterfly clips and short hair and long hair again
it fascinated me, because we really had grown, and wasn't that a marvel?

we watch time pass over texts and our pubic phases,
we're discovering ourselves over and over and over again
i get bad grades and good grades,
we start pretending school is Gandalf, but we are the Balrog, for we shall pass

there is no end to the memories because
i think we will be friends forever,
for all i need to do is remember, and you make me happy

hello :)
i wrote this late at night. the [for yada yada] bits are just the initials of ppl that section is abt, if you weren't sure. i'm aware i overused italics and it's lowkey confusing. i definitely messed up with the tenses of it all, but i don't want to proofread this. it kind of sucks, tbh, but here you go. (also: i'm weirdly proud of the line "long calls make for long nights," pls comment if you find a bit of this that isn't terrible.)
thank you for reading, and goodnight <3