Lara's POV:

Paralyzed.

Lost Sensation.

May Never Regain Feeling.

Paralyzed.

Wheelchair.

Surgery.

Treatment.

Over time.

Years.

I was possibly paralyzed, maybe for the rest of my life, because of one stupid accident my whole career could be over. Maya walked away with a few scratches and cuts, a dislocated wrist, I had a dislocated knee and shoulder, broken ribs, epilepsy, possible parapilegia, I had been impaled. It's not fair, so I broke down, now Shay's coming down even though I said no.

Somethings happening, something always goes wrong, nothing can be good for me, I'll always hurt and hate myself. Now everything is rushing together through my head together, mumbled into one, Shay probably had bad news. Her face said, you're not going to like this and shit I have to tell her. It's always hurting me, life always bites me in the ass, I try so hard just to get hurt.

"So what's the point in even trying anymore?"

"Why should I try just to get rewarded with more pain and hurt and hatred?"

"Shut up me."

I can't just give up and leave everybody, even though I'm hurting and crying I can't just let them all down so easily. It's not fair to them or myself, I have to try harder even though it is breaking me into a million tiny pieces. For Shay, For Asher, For Niko, For Chase, For Travis, For Vic, For Maya, For Jack, For Dean, For Ben, For Jo, For Dad and For Mum's memory.

My phone buzzed with a text from Asher, 'You sure you don't want me to come as well. Please. I miss you.' I smiled, 'I'm the only exciting one and your favourite that's why. :). I'm fine.' Then it buzzed again, 'I just landed, Shay xx.' anxiety creeped up on me again, something was wrong, it isn't right, she's acting weird.

'Grabbing luggage, I've got an uber waiting be about an hour tops. Shay xx.' Whoever she messaged she always put her name at the end, it said who it was from but still does it. An annoying habbit of hers, I never found out why she did it. Travis and Vic walked back in with Dr Shepherd and another Doctor, causing me to groaned.

"Good morning to you too, Lara." Amelia smiled laughing slightly, Travis glared at me playfully, to which I returned to him straight back. "We want to try to get you to stand up today, I'll be right here and so will your friends, Travis will hold you from under the arms and we'll try to get you to take some steps. It sometimes triggers the nerve memory if we move you." She instructed.

"So we want you to move your legs even a little bit, we'll do this everyday, it's your first set of treatment." Doctor DeLuca walked me through it slowly and carefully, my brain tried to slowly work through what I was told. Travis pulled me up by the armpits and stepped behind me with Vic infront with either doctor beside. Amelia pulled my legs to and through.

Backwards and forwards till I felt some tinglings in my legs again, "It feels tingling and fizzy in my legs." I whispered, pulling my leg forward slowly, I took one step forward, "That's it, I've got you." Travis smiled at me, whispering support in my ear. Taking another step, I fumbled as my leg gave way and I landed on the floor, my knee tingling with my shoulder fuzzing.

"Dammit!" I screamed giving up, collapsing on the floor as Travis tried to catch me, slamming my hands on the floor in anger, immediately regretting it as pain shot up my shoulder. "Fucking Shit!" Sobbing in Travis's arms, while he attempted to sooth me and calm me down, Vic took my hand as they tried to stand me back up.

"Umm... What's going on here?" Shay asked as she stood in the doorway with a look of unimpression and sadness. "Oh uh, umm. Hey sis." I smiled from on the floor, I couldn't resist bursting into laughter like a maniac, which then caused Shay to smile. "I see you're having fun." Laughing slightly, Shay shut the door and came and helped me up.

"I struggled in my physical therapy. I am fine. I made a few steps though." I explained as Shay nodded, a look of preocupation on her face. "I need to talk to you, alone sis." She muttered quietly so I barely heard what she said, I knew something was up. "Whatever you have to say you can say infront of Travis and Vic. They are my best friends. They know everything." I dodged.

"Lara Alisha Courtney Emily Robin Avery Tessa Elina Dean! I will talk to you alone. Me and you. Not anyone else. Sorry but it is important!" She bellowed getting angry, she always uses my full name when she is pissed off or upset about something. "That is one long name." Vic laughed before being dragged out by Travis.

"We'll wait outside." He sighed giving me a hug as I sat on the edge of my bed, I nodded smiling as Shay sat down in a chair. "There, you get what you want, as always. What is so fucking important you had to kick them out!?" I explained frustrated with life, the pain, people, the whole entire world, I hate pain and I'm stuck in it.

"When I tell you this, I need you to promise not to be mad and to try to understand that it was in your best interests and considered for your own good." She began nervously coughing at the end, now I was very confused. "Dad's dying, he has testicular cancer stage 4. They ended his sentence, he's in a pallutive care facility in hospital." She explained tears forming.

"How long? How long have you known? How-How long has he g-got?" I choked out the tears threatening to spill, as I tried to pinch myself, it's just a dream, a horrible dream, wake up. "2 months. They think he has a week or so, we've said our goodbyes to him just incase but the doctors estimated the day he dies to be next week, the 3rd of May." She whispered.

"I hate you!" I screamed, she looked hurt and shocked, "Lara... plea-" She began but I cut her off, "NO! I will not! YOU KEPT THE FACT THAT MY DAD! MY FATHER! HE IS DYING IN HOSPITAL! HE WAS IN PRISON BECAUSE OF ME! IT WAS MY FAULT! AND NOW HE'S GOING?! JUST LIKE MUM!? YOU'RE AS BAD AS HE WAS WHEN HE REFUSED TO TELL ME MY MUM WAS ILL!" I hollered.

Taking a deep breath, I continued, "HE DIDN'T TELL ME MY MUM DIED FOR 2 WEEKS! HE JUST SAID SHE WAS WORSE! I FOUND OUT FROM YOU AND ASH! NOT HIM! I DIDN'T GET TO SAY A PROPER GOODBYE! I SAID GOODNIGHT THE NIGHT BEFORE BUT I THOUGHT I WOULD SEE HER AGAIN! I NEVER SAID HOW MUCH I LOVED HER!" Sobbing now.

"So yes I hate you! And Niko! And Chase! And Asher! And him! FOR NOT TELLING ME! SCREW YOU! GET OUT! NOW! I DON'T WANNA SEE YOU!" Just wanting to be alone. "Fine. I'll come back, I'm sending your friends in." She replied sadly storming out. Minutes later I felt arms wrap around me, strong muscular arms. "Baby..." He whispered in my ear.

"Jack." I replied the tears beginning to fall down my cheeks, my chest heaved with the sobs causing more pain in my chest. "He-He's d-dying." I choked out between sobs and he nodded stroking my nose gently and running his hands up and down my arms. "I want to go to LA, they think he won't last much longer. 3rd of May." Sobbing into his shoulder.

"They can't discharge you until you can walk on your own without falling and we have given your wounds a chance to heal. It's only been 6 days. Let your body take it's time to recover." He told me kissing my forehead as I squeezed his hands, I heard the door open and close again, Travis and Vic came back in. "I told her I hated them all." I whispered.

"She'll understand, they just told you that your father, the one who's protected you for all your life, is going to die soon and they kept it from you." Vic comforted me as Jack laid next to me on the bed, my muscles started to twitch in my legs and my head felt full. "T.... J..... V...... Diz..." I slurred as it became difficult to talk as I felt tired and achy.

Jack's POV:

All of a sudden, Lara started to change quickly, she became confused, tired, her speech slurred and she seemed preoccupied. "Lara can you hear me?" I asked stroking her softly, there was no reply, I shared a worried look with Travis and Vic, something was wrong. "T.... J..... V...... Diz..." She slurred her eyes glazing over and her muscles twitching.

"Is she-?" I trailed off realizing what was coming as I got off the bed and rolled her onto her side taking the pillow away. "She's going into a seizure." Travis finished as she started seizing, the alarm sounded as her heart rate dropped then picked up again. "What happened?" DeLuca asked running into the room. "Started seizing out of nowhere." I grunted.

Trying to restrain Lara as much as I could, so she didn't fall off the bed, her seizure looked more violent than normal. "Grand mal seizing. Push 2 mgs of diazepam now!" DeLuca bellowed instructing a nurse, who pushed the medications. The seizure didn't slow down, it only progressively got worse, it stopped and then started again.

"Someone page Doctor Amelia Shepherd 911 now!" The doctor yelled as people ran in and out, "It's cluster grand mal seizures." At that moment, Amelia burst in the room out of breath, "What happened?" She questioned us as Andrew replied. "Started grand mal seizing for 25 minutes then stopped and began again, cluster seizures." Amelia nodded.

Pulling her gloves on, she started to assess Lara as best as she could, while she was seizing. "We need to let the seizure pass, push another 2mgs of diazepam. Give her some time, she might be out for a few hours after this." She explained to us before binning her gloves and leaving the room because of a page coming through for her.

It keeps getting worse for her, she can't catch a break, she's always hurt one way or another, and now she's losing her father. The man who had been there for her since everything, he got himself arrested to try and protect his youngest daughter. Her seizure began to subside and eventually stopped, she lay asleep on the bed with me, Travis and Vic by her side.

(Sexy Time Skip)

(4 Days Later)

Lara had began improving greatly, she had been doing her physical therapy, she could walk across the room without assistance. Her new meds were working and she hadn't had a seizure in 4 days. She kept trying to convince us to let her go LA, "Please, Shay will be there." Lara kept on, "I'll fly there with her and I'll even fly back with her just so you know she's okay" Shay smiled.

The doctors were considering letting her go, and so were we, we just wanted her to be safe. "Lara, you can go to L.A, but please just let me come with you, so Shay doesn't have to fly back for no reason." I begged her, she nodded, we booked the flights for 4 days away, so on the 1st of May. "Thank you Jack, for offering to come with me." She smiled.

"No problem. Lara, I.. I love you." I blurted out, instantly regretting it, she looked shocked. "I'm sorry, Lara, I- Forget about it plea-" I rambled before being interrupted by her kissing me, "Shut up and kiss me. I love you too, it's hard for me to say it but I do." She told me, before kissing me passionately again, it grew heated, before Vic walked in.

"Get a room." She laughed causing us to spring apart. "We had one, till you came in and interrupted our moment." Lara pouted causing all three of us to laugh.