8th of September,2007

I thing I broke a world record.

Get laughed at the first day of middle school.

I just wanted to make friends.

Why is it so hard?

Teachers suck.Just for some white nails.

It's not a big deal,Honk it!

And why all the class had to be involved?

Because I 'm Jacobs the freak ,of course.The Old hag could just have asked me to remove it ,without telling me that "I'm ugly "with it. I'm don't look good,no matter what .

I don't like saying to anyone mean stuff

Because I know that I am talking to humans with feelings that I don't have to hurt! I am a human too.

Right?

Their laughs still ringing in my ears ,I Left school,heading directly to my secret spot where I take refuge.It feels safe.It feels home up there .Disconnected from the word. I felt tears streaming down my face as I climbed the giant Tree.I couldn't wipe them and I was even more upset now.When I judged I was high enough,I sat on the branch and wiped my face .But as soon as I dried my cheeks,more tears would wet them. I gave up,and let everything out.

I don't care if mom is worried . I don't care if I'm a freak.I won't get down of that tree alive.And to be honest,dying right now doesn't seem that horrible after all what happened.

People lie ,and lie and lie. I'm sick of them.They say wishing on a shooting star realises whatever you want to become true.

I wished to be a different person in a different body,so I could do all what I like without getting honked up and judged .Lies

Mom told me that when people grow up,they change . Lies

DAD TOLD ME I WOULD BE HAPPY .LIES AND LIES

PEOPLE ARE LIARS AND MONSTERS.

WHY CAN'T ANYONE TREAT ME LIKE WHO I AM ? A HUMAN?