Adam Yilmaz POV

"Sure, when?"

You know that feeling when someone throws a bucket of iced water on your head when you're the least expecting it? That's how I felt right now. Why would she be so easy? She was gorgeous and smart, why go out with the first guy that asks? I couldn't wrap my head around it. And I had lost my appetite.

I walked away from them all not wanting anyone to notice how her decision affected me badly. Johnny D came after me though, knowing too well I was having internal conflicts with myself.

"How about we hit the ring?"

I didn't say anything, just head to the car knowing he was following me. He knew how Zachary had helped me through my anger when I was a kid, and he knew that I needed to let out some steam. But what I also needed was talk it out with Zachary. I had to tell him everything because I couldn't keep it in anymore.

I dialed his number while driving out of campus. He answered on the first ring meaning he wasn't that busy.

"Adam, are you okay?"

I smiled at how concerned he was, I had spoken to him this morning about starting my internship tomorrow, so calling him now meant only one thing. Troubles.

"Dad are you free?"

"I can free myself. What did you have in mind?"

"Can you meet me at the Davis ring?"

He paused but only for a few seconds "I understand. Sure son, I'll be there in twenty"

"See you soon" I ended the call feeling Johnny's gaze on me. I ignored it not wanting to talk about it. He seemed to get the message and turned the radio on.

We got there just as my dad was getting out of his car. He waited us at the entrance, and didn't say anything knowing I was on the verge of exploding. Once changed and ready, we got in the ring while Johnny D stayed aside watching us fight. I loved that about Zachary, he wouldn't ask questions, he would only help me get the frustration out and wait for me to tell him what was up. If I wasn't ready to talk he wouldn't push knowing I'd come back later to rant.

Elise, him and Johnny D were the only people who truly knew what was going on in my head, most of the time I would just build up walls around myself no one could break. But those three didn't need to break them, they could just walk through them.

I threw a hard punch but he blocked it, and blocked every other punches I threw at him until he noticed what I needed right now was a punching bag. He pressed a button and the punching bag was lowered from the ceiling.

Zachary held it tightly "Punch"

And I started throwing punch after the other, each one with more force than the one before. It was helping, I was feeling the bad energy leaving my body. And surprisingly, I felt like talking, I didn't want to wait until we were off the ring. I wanted to let it out now.

"She fucking hates me!" I punched again "I fucking lost her for good this time!" another punch "It's like she knows how to get to me! And she fucking does it!" another strong punch that made Zachary lose his balance.

I wasn't sure he knew who I was talking about, but he didn't want to interrupt, he kept holding the bag for me while I punched it with all I got. I kept ranting, saying random things or feelings. I let out frustrated cry and kicked the bag so hard it fell off from the ceiling. Zachary was thankfully quick to move away.

"I'm sorry" I frowned looking at the cracked bag in the middle of the ring.

"Don't worry about it, no one was injured. Come with me" he lead me out of the ring and took me to the back of the building, where the owner had set up tables and chairs if any of the members needed a rest.

He pulled a chair out for me and waited until I was seated to sit across from me.

"Alright, I'm listening"

"I think I'm in love"

"You think? It can't be grey Adam. It's either white, or black. So do you love her or not?"

"I don't know, I'm having these weird feelings, I'm very attracted to her, I worry about her, I always want to protect her, I hate it when she goes out with jerks, and by the looks of it it's the only kind she's attracted to, she's wild, a wildfire."

Zachary's features changed. Maybe now he knew who I was talking about. But still he said nothing waiting me to finish.

"Today my friend asked her out after I had many times told him to back off. He asked her out in front of me. She looked me straight in the eyes and said yes. I don't know how I felt... I think I was jealous"

"That my son is called love. You obviously love this girl so why not speak up? Tell her how you feel, you'd be surprised"

"Dad, it's complicated. It can never work out between us"

"Why?"

"She hates me."

"Hate is a very strong feeling. You need to care for the person in the first place to hate him so much. Maybe deep down, she has the same feelings. Never back out remember? A challenge only becomes an obstacle when you bow to it. So don't Adam, you're strong enough to overcome this."

"Dad, even if she has feelings for me. It will be weird, it can't work out, maybe I just need to move on, not fight on this time"

"And why would it be weird? Because you were raised in the same house? By the same people? That's bullshit Adam and I won't take it"

I looked up at him surprised "You know?"

"Of course I know I'm not blind. And that is exactly why I asked you to keep an eye on her. I know you love her and you'll take great care of her"

"But how? I didn't know until now"

"It was obvious, Elise and I talked about it many times. You were just in denial. Trust me son, Helena doesn't hate you. Maybe she thinks she can't have you for the same reasons you thought it was weird. It's not. Now that it's all out in the open, I want you to really think this through, don't act on your anger. Let your brain and your heart process everything and then decide what you'll do about it. I know you'll do the right thing."

"You really don't mind?"

"Stop being stupid Adam" he chuckled getting up glancing at his watch "Of course I don't mind. I know you, it's all the guarantees I need. Now if you'll excuse me I have a very important meeting in an hour so I better run".

We said our goodbyes and I met Johnny D in the locker room to grab our things and head off. I was feeling lighter, happier and more relaxed.

"I'm glad you called him, I would have if you didn't"

"Thanks Johnny D." I was driving him back to campus where his car was parked. I knew he wanted to know what we talked about and I told him everything on our way to campus. He was grinning from ear to ear.

"What's with the grin?"

"It's about time you admitted your feelings"

"You noticed too?"

"Hell yeah! I'm your brother of course I noticed"

I dropped him at school and drove to the penthouse. I didn't know what to do about my feelings yet, but something was sure, I wasn't going to tell her anything for now. I unlocked the door and went in smiling to myself ready to see her angelical face.

Instead I saw her straddling Damon on the couch and making out with him. I stood there for a second assessing my options. Kicking his ass and throw him out, bleeding him to death or just ignore them and going to my room. I opted for option number three, not wanting to end up in jail because of a trashy guy.

They heard me coming in though and both looked up at me. I noticed Helena blushing while Damon was smirking. I just turned on my heels and went inside.

In the next seven months I went into a routine of leaving the house in the early morning, finish my classes for the day and work with dad as an intern in the office and even helping the constructors out sometimes, and only coming back home very late. I was becoming a master at avoiding Lena. I didn't want to at first, but seeing her constantly with Damon made feel like I completely lost her this time. To avoid getting hurt again, I started this plan to avoid her at all costs.

Since Lizzy, I hadn't brought any other girl home, I didn't even feel like it. No other girl was good enough. It was like I was always looking for someone who looked like Lena.

I wasn't seeing much of her, but I knew when she was home by the music playing in her bedroom or by hearing her moans when Damon was there. Sometimes I just felt like she left the door ajar on purpose for me to hear them. When it happened, which was very often, I would go out to the balcony put my earphones on and listen to Metallica at a maximum volume blocking them out. She didn't get herself in trouble anymore, she was either home with Damon, or out with Serena who started her own Jewelry Company and needed to keep a good image.

We still had a few days of exams for the first year to come to an end. And I was more than happy about it, planning on going to Istanbul to visit my family.

I was studying for tomorrow's exam when I received a call from Serena. Which was odd. I was friends with her brother Jason Harris, but not with her.

"Serena?"

-Adam, hi, I'm sorry I called you this late but I didn't know who else to call-

"What's going on? Are you okay?"

-Look I'm at the police station with Jason, he got into a fight with Damon. Damon pressed charges-

"Okay I'm on my way"

-No! I mean, don't come to the station, go to the Raven and get Helena. Adam it's bad. Damon forced himself on her, that's why Jason got into a fight with him. Damon is in the hospital-

I was on my feet and dressed in seconds "You left her alone?"

-She wouldn't come with me, she said she was fine. I always thought... I didn't know she was a virgin Adam. I'm sorry I couldn't protect her-

"I'll talk to you later"

Parking my car in front of the 'Raven' club I groaned as I saw Helena typing away on her phone with tears streaks evident on her cheeks. She was wearing a black little dress that dad would kill her if he saw her in.

I hated doing this, but I had to. I climbed out of the car and stood right in front of her.

She looked up at me her eyes lighting up a little with hope before it faded immediately as she scowled at me probably not aware I knew what happened.

"What do you want?" she snapped glaring at me.

"I'm here to get you. Get in the car"

"Like hell I'm getting in your car. I'm not going anywhere with you"

"I'm taking you home Helena" I opened the car's door showing her I wouldn't leave without her.

"I said leave me alone!"

"Hey is there a problem Miss?"

"I'm her brother, beat it dude" The guy left without asking more questions.

She closed the distance between us gritting her teeth together "You are not my brother, when are you going to get it through you thick skull?"

"Don't you fucking test me Helena! Get in the fucking car before I call dad!"

"He is not your dad!" she screamed at me and got in the car.

I was satisfied she got in and I drove home like a mad man. She kept glancing at me every now and then aware of how furious I was. But she didn't know the reason.

I was going to kill Damon for what he did to her. I knew he was a pervert but I never took him for a rapist. I cursed under my breath, I cursed the day I brought him to our home.

I parked the car and helped her out, she didn't object as I held her by the waist and let her lean on me for support. She seemed broken, as fragile as a Russian doll made out of porcelain.

As we entered the flat, I turned the lights on and lead her to the bathroom.

"Take a shower, wash him off of you and then come find me" I was about to walk away when she stopped me. I turned to look at her forcing my tears back, I hated seeing her like that.

"Thank you" she sniffled before starting to take her clothes off.

I walked away without saying a word. I made her some hot coco knowing she loved it and put it on her bedside table. I was about to leave her bedroom when she came in, wrapped in a towel, bruises on her shoulders and collarbone evident. Her eyes were puffy and red. She obviously had been crying which was very normal in such situations.

I bit my lower lip impatiently, wanting to go to the station and just kill him for what he did to her. I shook my head looking away, unable to look at her bruised body and staying sane. My eyes darted to the door and just when I was about to step outside I heard her shattered voice.

"Adam stay, please don't leave me"

"I just don't get! Why force himself on you when you gave it to him every time he came over! I could hear you moan Lena, so why would he do that to you?"

"Because we always did oral stuff. I wasn't ready to give him that. Tonight he just was uncontrollable, thankfully Jason was with us. So I dialed his number and he heard me screaming" she hid her face, "He took me to one of those private rooms in the VIP section, and he just wouldn't stop"

"Did he...?"

"No. Jason made it in time."

I sighed in relief "Good. But I'm still killing the bastard!"

She said nothing, instead she dropped her towel and walked slowly to me. She took my right hand and placed it on her heart.

"Make me forget he ever touched me".