I'm eleven days clean woohoo 🎉 yeah tryna not die so imma write in here I made a promise me and my friend if Monday didn't go well we'd kill our selves but she didn't come in and Monday went not too bad cause we had no lessons and guess what I found out me her and guy our friend make such a nice trio since her mum and dad had to flee cause they were in a gang and one tried to get her your parents routinely beat you up and nearly break your bones and his dad touches him inappropriately while his mum ignores it all too exhausted and miserable to care #happyfamilylife so that's nice

My life's been actually a little bring we had half term super shitty one of my friends went rome tho so lucky her my book recommendation for the day is either the sea of trolls trilogy by Nancy farmer or in the shadow of heroes by Nicholas Bowling both are children books ish kinda and are super duper good I'm reading Babel currently and I'm going to a library trip to a workshop in the British library cause I'm a top borrower at my school and used to be a junior librarian my friend is going she got a last minute invite which is nice cause it means I don't have to spend my whole day speaking to this semi weird year seven I know who is super light like scary light I know cause I pushed him down the stairs one of my friends thought he was my cousin gross.

Song of the post is she likes a boy by Nxdia so good also I found out my friend might be bi she goes to an all girls school and some girl there set the fire alarm like set a fire not just pulled it

And I have line up after school now I hate it cause it means my form leaves fifteen minutes late and I miss my bus which only comes every fifteen minutes I'm bored byeeeeeeee

Updateeee: not clean I have in relapsed all that jazz so misery also I thought of something funny relating to my life rn

Hating yourself and feeling unloved and that you're disgusting and useless
Finding out someone has a crush on you Ben if you don't like them back🥹😍🥰
They like you for your personality💔🙃😭😭😭😭
Going back to hating yourself and regretting your existence