- After school - 

Zach and I are walking back to my house. 

Zach is going to be hanging out with me. 

We just got back to my house. 

We put our backpacks in the living room and walk into the kitchen. 

"So, what do you wanna do?" I asked. 

"I have one idea..." he said. 

"Go on..." I said. 

"What if we kiss?" he asked. 

"Sure," I said. 

He took my hand and we walked into the living room. 

We sat down on the couch. 

I put my hands around his neck. He had his hands on my waist. 

He was so cute. 

He had fluffy brown hair, and blue eyes. 

I looked into his blue eyes and he looked into mine.

Then, we started leaning in. 

His lips touched mine. We kissed. Now... we were making out. 

"El...I...like you." He said through breaths. His lips still against mine. 

"Me...too." I said. 

We continued kissing. 

I was so focused on Zach that I didn't even notice the front door open. 

I don't think Zach noticed either. 

But, we still continued to kiss.

"What the fudge?" Jack said. Ugh! This time, it's Jack said. Not jackass. :(

We quickly pulled away, I wiped my mouth. 

"Uhhhh...." I said. 

"We, um.." Zach said. 

We were speechless. 

We looked at each other. 

Then, I bit my lip. 

"Pathetic little Ellie finally marked her territory," Noah said. 

"Just leave me alone. For once!" 

"No, I don't think so. You're so irritating. How about you do us all a favor and just go kill yourself" Daniel said.

 "Mom and dad hate you. We hate you. I hate you. Everyone does." Max added. 

"Fine, you want me to kill myself?" I asked, while standing up. I stared crying. All of my brothers nodded. "Then, I will." I continued.

I ran out of the house as fast as I could. I could hear Zach yelling out for me, but I didn't listen. 

I ran as fast as I could. 

I finally arrived at my destination. 7 Eleven. 

I walked inside. I found a lighter, and a pack of cigarettes. 

Then I walked up to the cashier. 

"Hi, I'd like to buy these please." I said while handing the lighter and cigarettes to the cashier. 

"How old are you?" He asked. 

"14," I replied. 

"You're too young," he said. 

"Please, I won't tell anyone." I said. 

"Fine," he said, as he rang up my purchases and put them in a bag. I paid him. 

"Thank you, have a good day." I said as I grabbed the bag and walked out of 7 Eleven. 

Once, I saw on the news that some people who worked at 7 Eleven were selling cigarettes to kids. 

"I'll make bad choices if I want to." I said to myself. 

I walked down the street and hid behind a tree. I didn't want anyone to see me. Then, I opened the box of cigarettes, and took out the lighter. I lit one of the cigarettes and then I began smoking. 

I watched as smoke came out of my mouth and then lingered in the air. It was pretty cool. 

Then, I hid them both in my pocket and threw out the 7 Eleven bag and the receipt.

Then, I went back to 7 Eleven. 

I saw some pills. I didn't know they sold pills here. Maybe...

I decided to buy them. I don't care what the pill is for, I just need them. And I need to buy some painkillers for when I cut myself, and for when my brothers hurt me. 

I went back to the same cashier from earlier. 

He didn't ask questions, and he rang up my purchases. I paid him and took the bag. 

I threw out the receipt. 

Then, I went home. 

When I walked in, I noticed that Zach was still there. He was sitting in the living room with my brothers. Jack was in the kitchen...probably snacking. Like, usually. 

I walked in through the front door. I ignored everyone and walked to the kitchen, I grabbed a cup and then walked upstairs. I locked the bedroom door. 

I got a text from Zach: 

Zach: Hey, are you okay? Where did you go?

Me: I'm fine. I just went to 7 Eleven and got a snack and some Gatorade. 

Zach: Oh, okay. I should probably go home, unless you need me to stay.

Me: No, it's all good! You can go home. I'll see you at school!

Zach: Okay, bye. See you at school!

Me: Bye.

I took the lighter and pack of cigarettes out of my pocket and put them on my bed. Then, I took out the painkillers and other pills out of the 7 Eleven bag and placed them on the bed as well. 

I took the cup and filled it with some water from the sink. Then, I opened the package of the unknown medicine. I took out one of the pills. 

I decided not to overthink it. Because if I overthink it, then I won't do it. Alright, here we go... 3, 2, 1! 

I popped the pill into my mouth and had some water, then I swallowed. Done! 

That was barely anything. So, I had another pill. And then, another. And then four more. 

I hid the medicine, painkillers, lighter and cigarettes in the drawer in my desk.

I'm so tired all of a sudden. 

But, I need a snack first. 

So, I walked down stairs. 

I decided to have some crackers and milk. 

I grabbed the crackers and placed them on the counter, then I grabbed a cup from the cabinet and then placed that on the counter as well. Then, I reached for the handle on the fridge so I could have some milk. But, I failed. I fell to the ground, and fainted. Then, I blacked out.