I got up from my bed and walked over to the door. Then, I walked downstairs. 

"Hey," Daniel said. 

"Are you okay?" Max asked. 

I nodded. "Yeah, I'm just going to go for a walk," I sighed. 

"Alright," Jack said. 

"Okay, be safe," Noah said. 

I nodded and gave them a fake smile. 

Then, I walked out of the front door, hoping that everything will go according to plan this time. 

Maybe I could make friends with the demons...would they like me? 

No, they'd probably just hate me like everyone else. 

I ran two neighborhoods away from mine. 

Then, I took a small break. I thought about getting something to eat, but then again it wouldn't matter. 

So, I continued running. 

I stopped near a road. 

There were some cars but it wasn't super busy...unfortunately. 

I felt warm water, fall down my face. 

Teardrops. 

I've cried so many tears for the past couple of months that it would be enough to fill up lots of jars. 

My vision started to blur. So, I wiped away some of the tears. 

My vision soon was back to normal. 

The air smelled nice. The cars were driving past me fast. 

I can't wait any longer. 

I took out my phone and sent a text to my friends...

To Liam: If I hadn't bumped into you, I don't know what I would've done for 3 hours in California. I just want to say that my life is coming to an end, as of right now. I don't expect you to reply, but if you do I'm sorry. I'm sorry for causing any trouble between your sister and you. I'm sorry for bumping into you. I'm just sorry. Thank you for listening to me go on and on about my personal problems. Thank you for being there for me. And thank you for being, my friend. Goodbye. 

To Ashley: Ashley, I know we barely met. But, thank you for listening to my personal problems and showing me some sympathy. Today, my life will be coming to an end. I just wanted to say goodbye. Try your best to be nice to your brother, which I know can be difficult, believe me, I would know. And I'm sorry for bumping into you. I was just in a rush and I was having a really bad day. Thanks again. Goodbye. 

To Sophia: Thank you for everything, back in California. You are such a nice person. I don't know what I would've done without you. You calmed me down, and you boosted my mood when I almost drowned. That's something that even I couldn't do for myself. Thank you, for being there for me, and listening to me. That just means so much to me. Because a lot of people don't want to listen to me going on and on about my problems. Thanks again, Goodbye. 

To Kyle: Kyle, I know we've had our good times and bad times. Thank you for all of the good times. I will try my best to forget the bad ones, but it's not that easy. Thank you for telling people that the whole 'little miss suicide' thing was just a joke. Thank you for following me all the way to Los Angeles, California. I don't know anyone else who would've followed me three hours on a skateboard to Los Angeles. Thank you for telling Alexa the truth. I am about to text Austin the truth as well. Thanks for being there for me. 

To Austin: Thank you, for telling me the truth about how you feel. I'm sorry I was so worthless. I'm sorry for acting like trash. I'm sorry for everything. Thank you for all of the good times that we had together. And thank you for saving my life multiple times. You're the reason that I kept holding on. But, I guess...that's done. And soon, I'll be done too. Goodbye, I love you. 

To Alexa: Alexa, I'm sorry but today is the last time that you will probably hear from me. I just can't hold on any longer. Austin told me to go kill myself over text, so I'm doing it. Obviously, my own boyfriend never liked me. He hated me, just like everyone else. Thank you for talking to me about what happened back at the warehouse. Thank you for being so honest with me about things. And thank you for being so nice to me. You were someone that I could really count on, and talk to about my personal life. I appreciate that so much. Thank you again, Goodbye. 

To Anna: Anna, thank you so much for being there for me. You were my second real friend. I can't describe how amazing that feeling was when we became friends. Thank you, for warning me about Austin when I first "met" him in the school hallway. And thank you for being so supportive of my brothers and my family. I appreciate everything you've done for me. I love you so much, as a friend. Take care of yourself. Try not to miss me too much. Goodbye. 

To Zach: Zach, thank you so much for caring. Thank you for talking to me in the park. Thank you for not walking away when I needed you the most. You were someone that I could truly count on. I don't get that all the time. I'm sorry things didn't work out between us during the relationship, but one day I promise you will find that special someone. You are one of the nicest people I have ever met. I promise I will remember our good times together and I will cherish them forever. I love you, as a friend. Goodbye. 

Then, I decided to text in my family group chat. 

I decided to send a text to every person in the family. 

To Mom and Dad: I'm sorry. I'm sorry I was never good enough. I'm sorry for being a failure. Mom, Dad, I know how much you tried. But, you still never asked me what was wrong, or what happened. I know this isn't what you guys thought that I'd do, but I just can't keep living with memories that I never shared with you guys. But, you never asked. You never asked your daughter, how she is. This is for the best. I promise I will never forget you and our good times. Goodbye, I love you.

To Daniel: Daniel, I will never forget the times when you would stand up for me, or ask me if I was okay. But, I will also never forget the times when you abused me. I know how hard you tried to fix your mistakes, and you did. But, I can't forget the past and what happened. I will never ever forget you and I want you to know that. And Daniel, continue to try to get a girlfriend, I'm sure one day you'll find the perfect one. Goodbye. I love you. 

To Max: Max, I want you to know that this isn't your fault. You are not the reason that I'm doing this. Yes, the abuse is part of the reason, but it's not because of you. I know what it's like to be sad all the time. Depression kind of grew in our family. I'm sorry for being such a brat. I will never forget you. Thank you for all of the good times that we had, when I was younger. Goodbye, I love you. 

To Noah: Noah, I love you so much. You're the one who took pretty good care of me, besides for the times you abused me. I'm sorry things didn't work out between us sometimes. My favorite memory of us, was when I was younger and you took me to the zoo. I promise that I will try my best to only think about the good times, but it's really not that easy. I will never forget you. Thank you for all of our good times together. Goodbye, I love you. 

To Jack: Jack, thank you for showing some sympathy for me. I appreciate how much you care for me. You're a great brother. I promise that I will never forget you. I want you to know how much you truly mean to me. I love you so much. I loved our memories. I guess I surrender in the prank war. So, you and Daniel win. I guess, I also surrender in life. Please don't think that it's your fault. It's mine. I was never good enough. Thank you again, for our good memories. I will try my best to block out the bad ones, but it's difficult. Goodbye, I love you. 

To my whole family: I'm sorry. I'm sorry I'm useless. For years, I've been trying to hold on and be strong. But, there's only so much that a 14-year-old girl can do. I tried to be brave, but I couldn't. I tried to escape all of the dark thoughts that kept reaching my mind, but it was too difficult. I tried to push past the darkness, but they pulled me in. And now I'm stuck in the black hole. I can't get out. I can't escape. I'm trapped. I'm surrounded. I want to be let free. So, today I will. Hopefully, I'll be in the clouds watching down on you guys. But, it might not end up that way. I might end up stuck in the darkness forever. I know it's a huge risk. But, it's a risk that I'm willing to take, if it means that I don't have to go to school just to see words like 'Idiot, ugly, fat, annoying, obnoxious, or stupid' written and engraved on my desk or locker. It's a risk that I'm willing to take if it means that I won't be attempting suicide every couple of days. I can't keep living with the fact that I'm suicidal, because if I do, then it will start to define me. I'm sorry again. I never wanted it to end this way, but I've been strong for too long. I need to let go. I love you all so much, I promise I will never forget you guys. No matter where I end up, we're family. Love you, Goodbye. 

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I sent the messages and powered my phone off so that I wouldn't have to look at all of the sad messages that would change my mind. Then, put my phone back into my pocket, but I know that it wouldn't matter where I put my phone. 

I wiped more tears off of my face and took a few deep breaths. 

Then, I noticed that there were no cars on the road. 

I took a few steps into the street and just stood there. 

And there I was, a 14-year-old girl, who was standing in the middle of the road, with tears streaming down her face. 

I saw lights. 

A car. 

A car was speeding in my direction. 

It looked like a maroon Cherokee. But, it was difficult to see because of my tears. My vision was still blurry. 

The car was not far ahead of me. 

The driver slammed on the breaks and stopped a few feet in front of me. 

I broke down crying. 

The driver quickly got out of the car. 

"Oh my gosh, are you okay?" 

No, I'm not okay, I just attempted suicide for the... 5th time. 

I can't keep going through this. 

"Wait, Ellie?!" The driver asked. 

Their voice sounded familiar. 

I looked up at the driver and saw Will. 

I could barely talk. 

"Will?" I managed to get out. 

"Yeah?"

"Why did you stop?" I asked. 

"What do you mean?" He asked. 

"Why did you stop the car?"

He looked confused. 

"You didn't want me to stop the car?" Will asked. 

I just shook my head. 

Then, before I knew it, I stood up and went over to the other side of the road. I faced the other way and saw a car speeding in my direction. The driver slammed on the breaks. The last thing I heard was the screeching of the car on the road. Then, everything went black.

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Authors Note: 

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