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Phoenix's Pov

Newt comes back with Avery and Alby I wonder where Minho is Newt said he was going to get him too.

"Hey Phoenix so what did you see out in the Maze?" Newt asks fear lacing his voice.

"Bodies were hanging off the walls 2 bodies a girl and a boy ,the girl has long black hair light blue eyes pale skin she actually reminded me of Minho with her looks while the boy was different he had light brown hair his eyes were closed so I didn't see them I only noticed him by slipping on his blood I inspected him and I feel like I knew him once he has been dead for a long time cause his skin was rotting it was gross. I would have to show you for you to be sure if you knew either of them or not but that's the best I can do with details." I tell them.

"I feel like by the way described the girl that I knew her by the way what happened to your eye?" Avery questions.

"I'm sorry I can't tell you all the details of the night but a griever got my eye that's all you need to know." I answer.

"How did you survive you must have gotten close enough to have your eye cut." Ably says clearly wanting to know everything.

"Yeah you should be bloody dead going anywhere near a griever is a bad idea but you got close enough to have your eye sliced." Newt is worried about me it's clear in his voice.

"I was backed into a corner okay. I couldn't get away without injury I just got lucky not to have been killed like those people on the walls." I'm trying to pull the conversation away from me and my 'close call' I can't be even slightly considered weak I have to get out of here for a while.

"Well I'm leaving bye." Avery walked away.

"Can I go for a walk I want some fresh air." I ask even though fresh air isn't what I want.

"Sure." Newt said kindly.

"Thanks just so you know I feel fine I just got a few cuts." 

"Well go on." Alby says.

I walk out my legs are sore but I head off to the Deadheads knife in my pocket well boot actually.

I climb a tree and pull out my knife I look at it before pressing it against my wrist on my left arm it stings at first but then it I start to like the feeling my blood dripped down on to the ground after I left several more cuts I slid off the branch and walked deeper into the Deadheads I grabbed a piece of cloth and wrapped it around my bleeding wrist the blood doesn't stain through all the way.

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A week later 

I've been cutting all week today I'm going back into the Maze but I got a job training Avery that snobby kid who has a way about her that makes Minho believe that she should be a runner.

I feel like I'm the one that has to train Avery because everyone is scared that I'm gonna go hug a griever which I probably would do if it saves my daughter that I can't remember.

No one else is up yet I still ran off to the cover of the Deadheads to cut I've started going after my ankles no one has noticed my problems yet I don't sleep I cut I hardly eat I'm super self conscious my body isn't good enough I should die but I must hold on for the time being don't let anyone know I've considered telling Newt but I don't want to worry him.

I see someone walk into the Deadheads from my tree it's Avery.

She walked quite close to my tree I just watched her I see her sit down she's crying I want to ask her what's wrong but she will realize I have problems too, against my better judgement I walk over to her but she doesn't notice me until I sit next to her she turns her head in my direction.

"What do you want?" Still hostile.

"I just thought you might want some company from someone who can't sleep." I say it makes me feel stupid.

"I just want to get out of here go to my real home even though I know better by the way how could you stand being the only girl until I got here?"

"My first night I spent here was in the Maze I got scared and ran in and when the doors closed I used survival senses when I got back I passed out from blood loss see I hit my head off one of corners while being chased by a griever. Now I am different I don't enjoy this place as much I have considered killing myself several times never acted just thought about it I could stop covering my cuts I could eat again I could sleep again I could like my body, but I don't." I say so much about my life that I get nervous that she'll tell Alby I cut myself and don't eat.

"I'm glad you told me can we start over and be friends?" I can't believe Avery wants to be my friend.

I pull her into a hug while nodding I start to cry when I realize that I haven't cried in a long time.

"I hope you enjoy your first day in the Maze it's hard but you'll get used to it." I say sitting up and leaning against the tree again.

I hear someone coming this way and pull the knife out of my combat boots I wait with Avery until we see a head pok out from behind the tree that we were leaning against I through the knife just missing Minho's neck I punch him in the face before I know it's him.

"Ow ,Phoenix it's me Minho I came to find Avery cause today is her first day in the Maze looks like you 2 won't kill each other cause from today on your running partners unless Avery isn't good enough."

"Sorry Minho I ran into Avery and we talked now we're ready to go into the Maze and not try to kill each other." I laugh.

"You 2 go get ready I'll meet you at the south door in 15 see you 2 then." And with that Minho walked away.

I feel scared Avery could tell the whole Glade about my problems.

We walk over to the south door as Minho throws an apple to me I thank him as he's tossing Avery her apple then the doors begin to rumble telling us that the Maze is open again.

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Word count 1140 I hope that you enjoyed this chapter well bye for now 

-Autumn and Phoenix 🍁🔥