He used to meet me on the East side

"We can get away, you know? From all of this, everything that's keeping us apart and breaking us." His eyes were sad, and his hands shook as he gripped on my jacket.

I breathed in deeply, blinking back the tears. Somehow, my heart felt colder than the freezing air in Riverdale, empty and painful.

I wanted to nod my head, say yes, tell him we could go tonight, disappear. But I couldn't find the words. My throat was dry, and I swallowed.

"Come on, Betty. I know you want it." His voice was desperate now, and he leaned in, so I could count all his imperfections, the way his lips curled into a sad smile and how he sounded so hopeful but we both knew the truth, that no one was going anywhere.

I kicked the rocks, digging my shoe into the damp grass and dirt.

"What about Polly? Her babies? My mum? And your dad? Aren't you terrified, Jug?" My voice trembled, and I looked away as I spoke.

I didn't want to see his reaction. Because it would kill me on the inside, that he was falling apart and I couldn't fix him back together.

He sighed and shook his head,"Why? Why wouldn't you just say yes? Don't you want to escape, run away from all this fucked up shit?"

I knew I was living in denial, believing things would get better. That maybe tomorrow, the blood that stained my hands would be gone, that when I woke up, my pillow would be dry from tears, and I could be free. From Blackhood, from the Blue and Gold, from problems.

They needed me.

Jughead needed me.

And good girl Betty Cooper would always come through, for her family and friends.

She would never be a good lover.

"Why can't you give me your heart, Betty? I'm not going to break it."

But I had already sold my soul to what I thought would be nothing without me. Polly and mum, and Veronica and Archie.

I should have known, when the next day the sheriff found Jughead's body in the woods, that he was the one who needed me the most.

My love is yours, if you're willing to take it

Give me your heart, because I ain't gonna break it

A/n:

Thank you so much for reading! First line and last are lyrics from East Side (IT'S SO BEAUTIFUL AMMIRIGHT?) and sorry for the slow updates! I promise I'll be updating more frequently from now :)

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