"Jungkook - ah!"

I turn around grinning. My friends eyes widen and their mouths drop open. "What happened to your hair?" Jin exclaims surprised.

"So I tried something new! You guys dye your hair all the time and I tried it. How does it look? I mostly did it for Valentine's Day! Happy valentines by the way. Do you think Taehyung will like it? See I dyed it red for hearts."

They both stare at me without saying anything.

Suddenly, my self esteem drops below the negatives. "Is it that bad?" I ask disappointed. "No - it's just the haircut." Jimin says shyly.

"What about it?"

"It's too short. That's not your style, Kookie." Jimin adds. "I - I think it's great." Jin says with a smile.

"You're lying to me, Jin!" I say covering my face. "Oh my gah! Now Taehyung will see me with this awful hair!"

"I love the red hair!" Jimin says trying to make me feel better. "No, no, oh gosh. Oh gosh. Why? Why? Why did I do this? Nooooo! NO!"

"Kookie calm the fuck down okay? Get your shit together it's okay!" Jin screams shaking me. "Okay. Okay. It's okay." I say breathing heavy.

"Woah. You got momma Jin to cuss." Jimin giggles. "This is serious, Jimin." Jin says. "Its so bad though. I can't go to school now." I say panicking.

"Your parents won't let you skip." Jin replies. "My parents don't have to know!" I say. "You have to go."

"I'm not going." I say crossing my arms.

"We have fifteen minutes to get to school. Let's go." Jin says grabbing my hand. "I don't wanna!" I whine.

"It doesn't look that bad." Jimin says grabbing my other hand.

"Hey stop it!" I try to fight out of it, unfortunately they're stronger than me. "Come on stop being a brat."

"I'm not being a brat!"

"You are too! Act mature. Aren't you going to be fourteen in a few months? Act like it."

"Jin you don't understand! Kim Taehyung-!"

"Kim Taehyung won't say anything." Jimin says.

"I bump into him during class exchange. When he sees me like his he's going to - I don't even want to think about it."

"Just go around school. He won't see you then."

"Agh!"

They just don't understand how much Taehyung's option matters to me.

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When the bell rings for lunch, I feel relieved. I have managed to avoid Taehyung for half of the day.

Not because I don't want to see him.

But because I don't  want him to see me with this awful haircut.

Luckily, our high school is pretty big and I've been taking different ways to avoid bumping into him. I'm walking out of the class when I see a paper that catches my attention.

"Declare your love to your valentine! Buy a paper heart and a rose for your love!"

"Would you like to buy a paper heart and a rose? Only five dollars!" A student council girl squeals.

Five dollars for a paper heart and a rose?

"It's to raise money for our school! It's for a good cause." She says.

"Uh."

"Come on! Don't you want to surprise your love with something sweet?" She says wiggling her eyebrows.

"Well-"

"Come on this way then!" She walks to a table and pulls out a red paper heart from an envelope and a red rose from a bundle.

"Only five dollars!"

I feel the pressure to take them so I do. I give her five dollars and she grins. "Thank you so much for your donations! I'm sure your girlfriend will love it."

Eek, girlfriend.

I turn around and walk down the hall. Everyone is on the way to lunch and I'm about to throw the paper heart and rose away when I spot Taehyung walk to the bathroom.

I look at the paper heart and the rose.

Maybe he will like it.

I wanted to avoid him, but it's Valentine's Day and he's the person I want to see the most. So I walk behind him in the bathroom.

He's about to pull his zipper down when he sees me through the corner of his eye. "Dude! What the fuck?"

"I'm sorry! I didn't mean to.." I say embarrassed. "Stop following me." He says annoyed.

"I just ... I wanted to give you something."

He rolls his eyes and tries to walk out. "No! Please. I just want to give you something."

"I want nothing from you."

"It's just a gift."

He stops and stares at me. I pull out the paper heart and rose from behind me and hand it to him.

He looks at it and then at me. I smile at him, "Would you be my valentine?"

My heart starts beating fast and loud. Every part of me knows he will say no, but the hope inside me won't die.

"I'm not gay." He says flatly. My smile slowly fades, "Could you please lie to me?" I whisper.
"What?"

"Just please say you will be my valentine." I whisper quietly. "No! That's creepy. If you don't stop following me and harassing me I will tell the principle. Stay away from me. I'm. Not. Gay. So stay the hell away creep."

He walks by me and smacks the rose and paper heart from my hand. My heart shatters right then and there.

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14/2/12

I asked Taehyung to be my valentine.

He said no.