"It's not a date."

"It technically is!" Jin says rolling up my sleeves. He smiles in approval when he's done.

"It's not a date. Baekhyun invited his friends too."

"So? He invited you though!" Jimin squeals. They're more excited about this "date" than I am. They claim Baekhyun will help me get over Taehyung.

My thought is how? If he literally looks like him. I decide to shake those thoughts away and try to focus on this ... date or whatever it is.

"Is he going to pick you up?"

"No, Jin. He's not picking me up. We're meeting at the theatre."

"How rude. He should've picked you up because that's cute."

"Jimin he's not picking me up because this is not a date."

"You better tell us how everything goes okay?" Jin asks as he brushes my hair. "That's not how I style my hair, Jin."

"I'm just trying to make you prettier than you already are."

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When I arrive at the theatre my heart starts beating like crazy. There's sweat already forming under my arms.

Throughout the whole ride here I mentally prepared myself to not act like a fool. The last thing I want is to make a bad impression with Baekhyun.

I didn't admit it to my friends, but I'm actually quite excited for this. It might be a way to distract myself and have fun.

Not to mention Baekhyun is so nice to me. He's very kind and sweet. Something I've never experienced before. Not unless it comes from my friends or family.

It's nice to get someone else's attention like that.

Jungkook:
im here :D

Baebae:
yayyy! im running a bit late jungkookie be there in about ten minutes

Jungkook:
okayyy. i'll wait here

After putting my phone away I stand by the door. I think about buying my ticket before he gets here, but I don't even know what movie we're going to watch.

His friends aren't even here yet.

"Tae! Wait for me."

My eyes immediately travel to the door as I hear the familiar high pitch voice. It's Chanmi whining.

That's when I notice Taehyung is already by the ticket booth. "Taehyung!" She whisper screams.

I quickly turn around and pretend to be on my phone. Why is he here? Why today out of all the days?

I'm waiting and watching from the corner of my eyes to see if they're gone. Chanmi walks away down a hall which is the bathroom.

Taehyung walks towards me and I hide my face. My cheeks start getting hot and as I try to walk away he pulls me behind.

"Stalking me again?"

"N-no."

"That's what it looks like." He replies letting go of my shirt. Jin would be mad because he messed it all up.

"I - I wasn't."

"Then what are you doing here? Alone?" He raises his eyebrows and it makes me heart skip a beat.

Dammit. Why does he do this to me?

"I'm waiting for Baekhyun."

Taehyung suddenly frowns. He looks pretty angry as I say his name. "Baekhyun?" He repeats.

"Yes."

"Baekhyun invited you to the movies?"

"Y- yeah."

"No way."

"Way."

"Why would he invite you?"

"I don't know."

"Is it a date?"

Even though it isn't I nod my head. His eyes widen. "Why would he want to date a loser like you?"

"I - I don't know." I mumble.

"Well I'm here with Chanmi." He adds. "You know the pretty girl?" My heart throbs at this, but I nod my head anyways. "Yeah. I know her."

"Jungkookie!"

I turn around smiling. My smile fades in a matter of seconds when I see Baekhyun with a girl.

Whys he holding her hand?

The girl is smiling. Her hair is blonde and curly at the tips. She's got a cute face with beautiful brown eyes.

"Oh hey Taehyung! Want to join us for a movie? A couple of my friends are on the way." He let's go of her hand and wraps it around her tiny, tiny, waist.

I'll never have a tiny waist like her. I'll never have a cute face like her. I'll never have breasts and be like her. Because I'll never be a girl.

"Uh. No thanks I'm watching another movie with uh someone." Taehyung replies looking at me.

"Ahh bummer. By the way this is my girlfriend Taeyeon. She goes to a different school."

The girl smiles and waves her hand. To say that I'm embarrassed is nothing. I'm beyond embarrassed.

Of course Baekhyun is not gay. Of course he wasn't hitting on me. He was just being nice to me.

My face starts feeling on fire and I can't even dare to look up. I just literally blabbed to Taehyung about being on a date with Baekhyun.

"Are you okay Jungkook?" Baekhyun asks. "I - I - I have to go. I ... forgot I had to do something."

I turn around and walk fast out of the theatre. Baekhyun calls my name, but I only walk faster.

I go by my car not knowing where I'm heading. The embarrassment I feel in me is so much it makes me want to cry.

Finally, I sit by a tree that's far from the parking lot. I pull my knees close to my chest and lay my head on them.

Why did I think Baekhyun would like me?

The heat on my face won't go down. I'm never going to be able to face anyone ever again especially Taehyung and Baekhyun himself. I just feel so stupid.

A sudden flop beside me makes me look up. Taehyung is beside me, his eyes fixed on me. The moonlight is shining bright so I can see his face perfectly.

I look down at the darkness unable to keep eye contact with him. "Are you going to laugh at me?" I whisper my heart aching.

"Probably."

The aching is soon replaced with anger and I scoot away from him. "Just leave Taehyung. I don't want to deal with your hurtful comments right now. Please leave-"

"Its okay."

His words make me look him in the eyes. "It's okay." He repeats. I cover my face and he scoots closer to me.

"Shouldn't you be with Chanmi?" I mumble against my hands. "Yeah." He replies. He doesn't give an explanation and I don't ask him either.

I just stay there covering my face. "He's an asshole." Taehyung then says. This makes me uncover my heating face.

"What?"

"He's an asshole."

"He's not." I whisper.

"He is. Why would he invite you on a date and then come with a girl?"

"He ... he didn't invite me on a date." I sheepishly reply. "But you said..." he doesn't even finish his sentence.

"I lied. He simply invited me to watch a movie with his friends. I thought it was a date. I thought he liked me. I just - I wanted to make you jealous. It all came to slap me on the face though."

"Fuck, Jungkook." He curses angrily.

"Fuck, why? Why do you do this to me?"

"I - I don't know what you're talking about." I reply.

"I'm starting to really hate you." Ouch.

"I'm sorry." I breathe.

"See this is what I mean. I hate you because you're so damn nice to me. I hate you because you fucking adore me and worship me like I'm a fucking king. Why can't you just get over me so I can ignore you?"

I press my lips together and slightly shrug. He groans in annoyance and pulls me in closer. Our faces are centimeters away and his warm breath is hitting my cheek.

He gulps and pulls my head down on his shoulder, wrapping his arms around me. It feels just like I thought it would.

Like heaven.

"Don't ... don't say anything." He whispers. It's not like I was going to anyways.

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10/3/15

loving you is the only thing im good at.