"And if I could, I would tell the world that I belong to you," he said, letting it all out with a reasonable expression.

"But I don't need you anymore. You're free, okay. I know I can't control you. I'm Not Your Pri-o-ri-ty."
You scoffed and shook his hand off.

"You're not the only victim here, Jiyan. Do you really think it was easy for me to do that? I love you and you know that. But you know what, it actually hurts when my own girlfriend doesn't trust me," he said with a shaky voice.

"Don't. Cry. Please. Or I won't talk to you," you looked away, despite your argument, the last thing you want him to do was cry.

You looked back at him and there was a tear forming around his eye.

"Okay, bye," you walked away fast, half of you furious and half of it secretly worried.

He just answered a question in an interview. And you knew to yourself that it was so immature to argue about it.

"Do you have a girlfriend?" Taehyung surprisingly said yes.

"Aniyo, Bangtan and my family are my priorities," Jin smiled confidently.

Honestly, it hurts. But all you could do is watch and try to lift yourself up.

You were losing confidence about being his girlfriend.

You felt someone grab your wrist.

"I'm sorry, okay.." he was crying, and you couldn't even look at him in the eye.

You quickly turned to him and wiped his tears with your thumb. You yourself was almost tearing up for making him cry.

He hugged you like a kid even though he was so much taller than you.
You melted into his embrace and rubbed circles in his broad back, trying to soothe him.

"It's alright. I'm sorry, it's my fault for being immature. Don't cry," you said with a cold voice.

"I j-just don't w-want to cause you t-trouble if I revealed you... you know Taehyung and Mika are already revealed, but we aren't yet.. a-and I don't want you to be unsafe.. they might give you harsh comments and..."
He stopped to look at you.

"And take you away from me," his voice was barely audible.

You cupped his cheeks, wiping the last tears away.

"It's alright. I'm already lucky to be the girlfriend of Mr. Worldwide Handsome," you smiled up at him, causing him to grin back at you.

"Don't cry okay, and let's go home. I don't want sasaengs to find you," you pulled away and intertwined your hands, pulling him to the direction of your apartment.

"Hi jagi, what's up?", he answered your call.

You were still sobbing and you knew that if you spoke, he wouldn't even understand you.

"Jin...." you cried out.

"Omo, why is my baby crying?" He said with a teasing voice.

"Th-They're..t-taking me to... Osaka," you tried to pull your words together.

"I can't understand you, jagi. Do you want me to come over so we can talk?" he said with a soft voice.

"D-do you h-have time?"
All he understood was time.

"Time? Yes, for you. We're leaving for Hawaii tomorrow," he said with a calming voice.

"Okay.." you calmed down a little after hanging up.

It took half an hour until someone knocked on your apartment door.

You opened the door and quickly hugged Jin.

He looked at your dried-out puffy eyes, and cupped your cheeks.

You closed the door behind you.

"What's wrong, jagiya?" he said, slightly frowning.

You both plopped down on the couch, close to each other as you layed your head on his broad chest, hugging him with his arm over your shoulder.

"Jiyan.. tell me." he pressed his lips to the top of your head.

"They're taking me to Osaka.."

He swallowed a lump in his throat, and became motionless for a while.

But he eventually smiled. You were frowning up at him, but your face also changed into a puzzled one.

"It's okay, we can still be together, we can still talk, right?" he gave you a hopeful smile.

You pursed your lips, and relucantly nodded. Honestly, you weren't so sure about what he said.

But you thought of one thing.

Maybe this is a good thing for him.
Maybe he could focus on his career, without you.

But really, you're his inspiration.

Your parents were already in Osaka two months ago. You received a call from them, demanding you to stay there for three whole years.

Maybe it was okay to take a break.

You packed your things after Jin left. Your parents already bought you a ticket two days ago and the flight was tomorrow.

After packing all of your clothes in a huge bag, you rested on your bed, staring at the ceiling, thinking about how you're gonna miss him.

Your eyes wandered around your room, landing on a picture frame on your desk.

A picture of you and Jin under cherry blossoms.

You're gonna miss his jokes.

But definitely how he cooks for you.

You walked around the airport, trying to find your gate. You found a group of seven boys standing on a corner.

And there he was, in a perfect outfit for a hot place. Floral polo and some shorts with huge bags.

[ bon voyage, eh? ]

You wanted to hug him one last time but you knew you couldn't.

"I'm sorry, my love. Please don't wait for me" you muttered under your breath before taking a turn to your gate, Gate 21.

Maybe it was the best for the both of you.

Despite the distance, you always checked on him, their social medias, vlives, and everything else. But he never got to talk to you again. You deleted all your contacts to stop the temptation to call him. You were probably just a distraction.

It's already been two years, two more months until you can come back to Seoul.

You were tapping your pen on the table, with your feet up on your chair, bored inside the empty office that your parents gave you.

You didn't ask for it but it was given to you. They sometimes gave you some work to do but today, you had nothing to do.

You scrolled through twitter and you saw somethig that caught your eye.

BTS Love Yourself Tour in Osaka
October 28, 2019

That's a week away.

You decided to buy a ticket, thinking it was an opportunity to see him in person. Fortunately, the tickets weren't sold out yet.

You bought the VIP ticket, which was the closest distance to the stage.

You waited for a long week, eating time by asking your parents for workload.

And finally, it was already tonight.

You wore simple clothes, just a blouse and some jeans, with a coat over it.

You took a cab to the concert venue, feeling a little pressure on you. How does he look in person now?

The concert started in an hour and the boys came out, performing their song Fake Love. He lost a little bit of weight, but his broad shoulders barely changed. And his face was handsome as ever.

You cheered with the fans, trying to fit in.

The next song was The Truth Untold.
Four of them stood on a platform, with their own mic stands.

You haven't heard this song before but it was seriously amazing.

And I still want you..

Jimin's sang the last line, before the fans clapped their hands in awe.

You were unconsciously watching Jin through the whole performance. You couldn't take your eyes off him, in fact, it's been a while since you saw him in person.

Your eyes met for a second but of course he wouldn't notice you. There were too many fans and you weren't even sure if he was intentionally staring at you.

The concert went on as you kept your eyes on Jin.

You didn't even know how he looked at you a few more times.

It took almost two hours, and they were now saying their goodbyes.

Taehyung mentioned that his girlfriend was there with him, as the members teased him. How could they be in peace with so many fans?

Simple. Because they don't care about anything else but them, their relationship.

"Oh, me too! My girlfriend is here too.." Jin raised his hand up with a grin.

The members gave him a confused look.

"Oh, ami?" Namjoon reffered to the fans as Jin's "girlfriend".

Jin shook his head, before the other boys spoke. You noticed that he was stepping away, and he barely looked at the fans.

He was covering his eyes whenever he looked away.

"Waaah, Jin are you crying?" One of the fans shouted.

Jin waved his hand, symbolizing a "no" but he didn't look, his back still faced the crowd.

The concert ended with the joyful cheering of fans.

You left the concert, feeling a little relieved.

It's good to see him after a long time. After all, you can still love him from afar.

And he can be your bias, and you can be just a fan from now on.

But still, the feeling of being "in a relationship" with him... it was something you missed so much.

In the morning, you were already in your office, typing in some tasks. It was quiet and lonely, you didn't want anyone inside too. You felt better off alone.

You heard a knock on your door and found your mother's secretary.

"Miss Jiyan?" she came in with a polite smile.

"Hai?" you smiled back.
(Yes in Japanese ahuehue)

"Someone wants to talk to you.." she stepped aside and a guy in black sunglasses showed up.

You heard the door close, leaving the two of you.

"Hey." He took off his sunglasses.

"Sorry" was the first word you could think of.

But you couldn't even speak.

a/n: the requests are still being made :) pleajeu waiteuuuu

and 20k, finally. thank you readers!
nobody asked for a special sumthing to do, so i'm not gonna do anything then HAHA i already asked you but you didn't answer hihi and i'm already good with the 20k.