Year 22
11 April

The car stopped with a screech.
I'd been so deep in thought I hadn't seen
the traffic lights change.

Students stared at me through the car
window as they crossed the road.
Some were even pointing at me.
I gave as weak smile as I bowed my head.

I knew what I had to do.
But I was still afraid.
Would I really be able to end all this
misfortune and pain?

Don't repeated failures mean
you will never have success?
Shouldn't I just give up?
Isn't our happiness a vain hope?

Sold many thoughts passed through
my mind as I continued to drive.

Without noticing, I passed the petrol station
where Namjoon was working.
I breathed in deeply and exhaled slowly.

I thought of everyone's faces:
Jungkook
Jimin
Yoongi
Taehyung
Hoseok

I changed lanes and turned off to the petrol station.
I couldn't give up.
Even if there was only a 1% chance I wouldn't give up.

Behind my window, I saw Namjoon edge towards my car.