Feeling alone is something you were afraid of but that nightmare came true. You lost your parents when you were younger and seeing it made you so afraid to even tell anyone how you really feel. Your family doesn't really care much about you. You had one person who actually cared for you which was your grandmother but she left a long time ago. You tried getting family members to answer your call but none have answered you. You called your auntie who she never picks up to you. You always had a personality that was always happy. You didn't want anyone to see how broken you felt and how you always had thoughts of harming yourself sometimes. You admit you didn't have such a sucky life. You had these seven amazing talented boys who you knew for years nowThey are the light of everything and are always happy. Sometimes you would think about them as your motivation. But there is one who you have developed deep feelings for.
" K-I-M N-A-M-J-O-O-N "
He was everything for you, he would always be there for you. You never told how your really felt. You were to afraid that if he found out about you he wouldn't like you anymore. You really had deep feelings for him. The boys invited you over today for a hang out because they had the day off.
PHONE CALL With namjoon
" hey namjoon "
" hey y/n, when are you coming we all really miss you "
You chuckled through the phone
" I'll be over in a bit okay "
" okay hurry "
END OF PHONE CALL
you arrived at their dorm, you rang the door bell and you could hear all the boys fighting to open the door. You were greeted by a beautiful Kim seokjin.
" hey y/n "
" hey JIN "
You hugged him and came inside and five other boys coming to hug you tightly. Your eyes found that way to namjoon and he walked over and hugged you so tightly
" I MISSED YOU "
You could feel your heart fluttering and you cheeks getting red.
" I missed you too "
Jin: " okay love birds let take it to the living room so we can all enjoy a movie "
You guys came to the living room and as always their fighting I've which movie we should all watch. But in the end yoongi always wins and we end up watching his movie. You sat next to namjoon and that can warm your heart. You were watching the movie when you had a call from an unknown caller. You excused yourself and stepped outside to answer the call.
PHONE CALL
" of this y/n "
" yes "
" we have been inform that you have to pay us for the money your parents borrowed "
" WHAT "
" yes they still owe us money but we never got it and if you don't pay us back we will be forced to take everything away from you "
" okay how much "
" 200,000 "
You nearly dropped your phone from your ear. Your felt your tears streaming down your face. You dropped to your knees.
" 2-200,000 "
You started crying feeling afraid bad things will happen to you. You didn't know here to find that kind of money. You work four jobs and still can't even support yourself. At this point you feel done and wanted to be gone forever. You felt someone touch your back. You lifted your head and saw Hoseok.
" what's wrong y/n "
You got up and quickly wiped your tears and smiled
" oh nothing I just heard my auntie was coming to visit me and I just felt happy "
" come on y/n tell me "
" nothing r-really "
Your voice cracked a bit from crying too much.
" no I know something's wrong tell me, maybe I can help "
You lost it and hugged him and cried while he ran his hand down your back. You patted your back trying to clam your cries down.
" Hoseok, I don't want to be here anymore I want to be gone forever "
He pulled away and looked at you
" don't you ever say that, so you know how much it would hurt us if you really did that, promise me right now that you won't do that ever "
" I just don't know what else to do "
" promise me first "
" I promise "
" whatever it is we're here to help you "
" I'm in debt Hoseok "
" okay, how much "
" 200,000 "
" how did such thing happen "
" because my parents own them money but they haven't paid them yet "
" okay, well just tell the boys also "
Hoseok was about to leave but you grabbed his arm to stop him
" no please don't "
" why not "
" I don't want anyone else to know "
" okay,  it don't worry I'll help you with all I can "
" thank you so much "
You hugged him and kissed the top of your head.
" can we sit out here for a bit "
" sure "
We sat down and I laid my head on his shoulders.
" sooo, tell me about your little crush on namjoon "
You lifted your head and looked at him
" how did you know "
" oh come on y/n as if we didn't know how you always look at him only "
You laughed a little
" see there's the smile I wanted to see "
" thanks Hoseok "
" anytime, now are you going too tell him "
" I want too but I'm afraid we won't like me "
" trust me he does "
" I don't believe you "
" okay just wait "
You both headed back inside and you hung out with them for while before heading home.
" I'll see you guys soon "
" wait y/n "
" yes "
" I'll walk you home "
You couldn't believe namjoon wanted to walk you home.
" it's okay I'll- "
" no buts y/n, no girl should be walking home alone at night "
" thanks "
You both started walking home together and it felt nice.
" so how's work going "
" hard, it's endless practice "
" I can see "
You kept looking at him and you really trying to get yourself to confess to him but it never came out. You guys walked for about 10min before reaching your house.
" I'll see you latter y/n, goodnight "
" goodnight "
He hugged you and you could smell his cologne.
" goodnight "
He smiled at you before walking back. For the past couple of days you really were so stress about this whole debt thing. You called your aunt and she finally picked up.
PHONE CALL
" hello "
" aunt Lisa "
" oh it's you "
" LOOK please listen to me, my parents own borrowed some money and I guess they never paid them back and I really need your help right now please help me "
" I'm sorry I have no Money to help you "
" please, I know you guys are filthy rich, just please just this once "
" no, I don't want to help out someone who I can't even call my family "
That really hurt you made a tear drop
" please "
" good day y/n "
She hung up and you really didn't know what else to do. You laid around and cried for hours. You finally got up and put on your shoes and went for a walk. You really missed your presents right now. You felt so alone. It was getting dark and you went home and you called hosoek. But he was busy and didn't answer so you left a voice mail.
You hung up the phone.
Namjoon POV
I was practicing with the boys and we all took a break.
Hoseok: " y/n called me and left a voice mail "
He played it and turned it on speaker and we were all listening.
" hey hosoek, your probably busy right now but I really want to say sorry to you. Sorry I couldn't keep my promise. I really hope you forgive me. you and the boys have gave me so much happiness. I really love you all.. and one more thing can you please let namjoon know that i really loved him a lot and I'm sorry I couldn't tell him in person. Thank you guys for being good fiends to me! But I guess this is it.
My tears running down my face
Jungkook: " WHAT DOES THIS MEAN "
Jin: " we better go check up on her right now "
Hosoek: " NO I CANT LET THIS HAPPEN "
I stopped Hoseok and looked at him
" tell me what she was talking about "
" okay, the other day she was crying and because she was stuck in debt because her parents didn't pay back any debt and she's been actually alone and feeling stress out "
" WHY DIDNT YOU TELL ME "
" because she didn't want you to know "
I quickly ran to y/n house to find her and I couldn't help but had many thoughts in my head. She can't do this if she was ever gone I'll be hurt forever and I'll feel regrets forever. I got to her house and luckily the door was unlock. I ran inside her house looking for her
" Y/N WHERE ARE YOU "
I ran to her room and sitting by her bed and I felt alittle but relived. She turned and looked at me. I ran towards her and pulled her in a tight hug.
" how dare you say that, and how dare you scare me "
" what are you doing here "
I pulled away and looked at her with tears in my eyes
" don't you ever say that, do you know how much you scared and hurt me when you sent that "
" I'm sorry namjoon "
" no don't be, why didn't you tell me you were going through such things "
" I didn't want to be a burden "
" you are never a burden if you need help and feel upset I'm always here and I don't want you to ever think about harming yourself again "
She smiled at he and that warmed my heart
" I love you y/n "
Her eyes widen
" I'm sorry I never told you but if we're to come in here to find you dead do you know how much that would hurt me "
" I'm sorry "
" don't be, I should be the one to say sorry, I love you y/n always please don't leave me like this "
" I won't "
I hugged her again and this felt much better.
" but my debt I still have to pay that back "
" don't worry, me and the boys and the company are helping you we all pitched in money to help "
" why, now I feel bad for doing this to you guys, because this was my problem "
" don't worry y/n "
I cupped her cheeks and wiped her tears away. I leaned down and kissed her chapped lips. I love the way her lips tasted. I pulled her closer to me making sure she doesn't go anywhere. I pulled away and looked at her in the eyes and made sure she knew I was sincere.
" I love you so much and I'll never ever leave your side and I'll never let you be alone or cry alone ever again "
She smiled at me and I really loved seeing her happy.
" I love you too namjoon "