"Jimin, I'm Anorexic." I announce out of the blue.

Jimin looked up at me and raised an eyebrow, scoffing.

"So?" He asked, continuing to scroll on his phone.

All I want is your attention, your love.

~ The past ~

"Jimin, what does she have that I don't?" I ask, tears begging to escape my eyes without permission.

"She's skinnier, you pig." He laughs, beginning to walk away from me to be with her.

~ End ~

Lately I haven't been eating, more like starving myself.

And I'm happy with myself.

I eat a piece of fruit, like a banana for lunch or tea. And skip breakfast most of the time, I only eat once a day which I believe is healthy.

The scale used to hurt me, knowing the fact that I was WAY overweight for my age.

57 Kilograms at the age of 20?

Pathetic.

I wanted to lose weight.

I needed to.

For me to be loved, for me to have attention, for me to be perfect.

For Jimin.

The one who I will always love and is willing to do anything for.

When he asked 'So?' after I stated I was anorexic.

It broke my heart.

It meant I needed to lose more weight.

I needed to be skinnier.

Because he wanted that,

and whatever he wants, he gets.

Day 1

I didn't eat anything while Jimin was out, it only hurt for a while until I replaced the hunger with water. I just hope I don't get too much water weight. I'll have it planned out tomorrow anyways.

Day 2

Jimin was at work again and I skipped my three meals. I drank water at 12PM, and lastly 3PM,I want it gone by tonight. Tomorrow morning at the maximum. 

Day 3

I hope tonight distracts me from food. I could feel my stomach growling last night and I couldn't get to sleep. That night Jimin didn't come home. He didn't even message me to tell me where he was.

Day 4 

Jimin came home at 1PM, and yelled at me for not cleaning. I was weak and I couldn't move, so that's what I told him. He just said I was being lazy and forced me to clean whether I wanted to or not. So I did. It helped me to not eat anyway.

Day 5

My body was slimmer. My face was pale, I could see my bones in the mirror and I was very glad about that. 39 Kilograms! I squealed in delight, I was finally at my goal, but Jimin would like lesser, wouldn't he? My new goal, 27.

Day 6

I can't do this anymore.

Day 7

My stomach grumbled multiple times today but that didn't stop me from satisfying Jimin. He would want me to lose all this weight just for him and I would succeed for him.

Finally, a week had past.

"Jimin, am I skinny enough for you now?" I smiled widely, lifting my arms to reveal my stomach.

He would finally love me! 

Jimin suddenly burst into tears which confused me at most.

"I- I thought you- you were joking!" He yelled, tears pouring down his face.

"What? What's there to joke about? You wanted me to be skinny so, I became skinny. Do you love me now? I hope you do, I mean, I did this all for you Jimin." I begin to sniffle, did I need to lose even more weight for him to love me?

"I never wanted- this to happen. I never-"

"Do you want me to lose more weight? I can if you-"

"Y/N. Get out of my house." He screams.

"What? Why?" I ask.

"Just- leave."

"WHY? AM I NOT SKINNY ENOUGH? PLEASE JIMIN, I CAN LOSE MORE. I CAN! I WILL, PLEASE, JIMIN, I PROMISE YOU!" I start to scream back at him, no no no no no, it wasn't supposed to end up like this. He was supposed to love me not leave me.

"Please just go." He says, pushing me outside.

"Nonononono, don't-"

SLAM!