Boxes

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Jin ended up giving me his bed. It feels weird, laying here, in someone else's bed. I'm oddly cold even though I'm under a fairly heavy blanket. My thoughts drift to some unpleasant memories I'd rather forget, and the ceiling turns into a deep white abyss that scares me more now than it did when I was little. I pick up my phone to hopefully distract myself from everything. A name, that I remember all too well, pops up on my screen. I hurry out of the bed, doing my best not to disturb the other person in the room. I quickly tiptoe out of the room and answer the call while still making my way to the kitchen, "Hey bud" I found a little spot by the end of the counters on the other side of the room. "I can't sleep"  the soft whimpers that I hear through the phone tug at my heartstrings. "Hey, it's alright. I'm right here, don't worry " he sniffles a  bit but he's calmer. "How are you and your sister doing?" " he breathes out an okay, his voice quivering. 

"Mom hasn't done anything has she?" 

"No," He says,

"Good, you know, if she touches you or Min, call me and I'll be right over okay?" He replies with a simple hum.

"You should get some rest, I'll call you in-" 

"Sis"

"Yeah?"

"Can you sing me a song?" 

"Sure bud" 

I pull my legs in closer to my chest and rest my phone on my knees. I let my voice come out in a soft tone, so close to a whisper that it'd be hard to hear through the phone. I sing the lyrics to my brothers' favorite song that always put him to sleep when he was little. I can hear the phone fall out of his hand and onto the bed sheets as he slowly drifts off into a deep sleep. 

"Goodnight" I whisper before ending the call. I let my head lull back and rest against the wall behind me. Reluctantly, I stand up and am about to head back to the room when a tall dark silhouette leers around the kitchen entryway, "Oh shirt!" I quickly cover my mouth, the pounding of my heart beats like a drum in my ears. The lights turn on quickly, revealing Jin as the leering figure. "Oh geez, I didn't mean to scare you" 

"How long were you standing there?" 

"What?" I let my hands drop, I know my face is probably flaring up, but I'm so tired and I don't have the energy to be shy. I repeat my self carefully as to not sound like I'm as shaken as I really am. "Not long. Are you okay? You look like you're about to cry" Right now is the first time I had realized that I've been holding back tears.

"It's nothing, just can't sleep that's all" I do my best to hold back the tears, but I know  I'm probably failing miserably. "I can make you some tea if you'd like" I don't say anything But he starts immediately. It doesn't take him long to boil the water and brew the tea. He hands me a mug that says I'm a pretty princess "It's Jimin's" I chuckle a bit. The ceiling light creates a warped ball of light in the reflection on the sweet smelling tea. 

I slowly begin my descent back onto the floor, leaning against a wall for support. Jin groans as he slides to the floor. "I know it's not your fault" I'm still captivated by my tea that I don't see him staring at me. "You probably didn't choose to be part of our group" I look to him, "What makes you think that I didn't? What if I did and I'm one of those crazy fans of yours"  His eyes are watching mine. They're very kind looking. "Well when we met you, you looked very.."

"Angry? Pissed? Disappointed? Upset?" 

"Lost" He finally says

"Hmm" I nod

"I'm sorry for what you must've heard earlier.  We're not used to this" I keep quiet, unsure of what to say. 

"It's probably harder for you. Having to live somewhere else, not debuting properly. You must have a lot of high expectations" I look up at him, he's watching his hands fiddle with the rim of the mug, "By the way. If you need anyone to talk to, there's always me" I smile, but this time it's genuine. It's been a while since I could say that. "Thanks" We drift into a comfortable silence. I shuffle closer to him, my legs cool from the tile beneath us, and slowly rest my head on his shoulder. At first, he's very tense and I'm afraid that I shouldn't have done that, but he slowly loosens up and eventually rests his own head on mine. 

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It's warm, comfortable, like a hug. A thin beam of light strikes right across my eyes. Slowly my eyes open. My back is a little sore. It might be from how I was sitting last night. I sit up quickly and look around frantically. I'm wrapped up in Jin's bed, the pillows a bit messed up. The windows on my right side are covered by sheer white curtains that drape to the floor. The sunlight shines through and adds a soft glow to the room. No one is in the room with me. It feels lonely and deserted. Feeling uncomfortable, I stand up and quickly eave through the door. My chest feels tight and my breathing has quickened. I try to distract myself with focusing on the voices in the kitchen.

"When's the CEO coming?'

"Sometime this morning"

"Jimin"

"Hmm?"

"Is Y|n up?"

"She wasn't when I woke up" Throughout their conversation I had made my way to the kitchen, my legs still feeling wobbly from just waking up. My stomach aches with hunger and my eyes still feel droopy. Jin gives me a smile when I enter the room. The smell of eggs and bacon surrounds me. "How are you feeling this morning?" 

I shrug and glance to Jimin. He's watching me, but not in the resentful way I thought he would. It's almost like he felt guilty. He gives me a small wave and an almost non-existent smile before he leaves. And then there were two. "The CEO is coming this morning. Probably to talk about your training" Oh how I wish I could say that's what he's coming for. I hear the front door open and I realize that I didn't hear the buzzer "Hello again PD-nim" "We should probably go greet him" Maybe I did do something wrong. My uncle bows to me before he sits. "I have some things I'd like to tell you" 

Everyone has gathered around, a worried look on their faces. "As you know, Y|n is going to be your new member, however, she will not be able to go through training like all of you did" he takes a breath and crosses his leg over the other, "So because of that, I would like it if each of you could help her and be her mentors" 

"Obviously it won't be forever" He continued

"When would you like us to start?" Rm speaks up, he sounds just like the leader he is. 

"As soon as possible" he shares a nod with Rm before moving on, "I'd like to address the sleeping issue" 

"Because there's now going to be eight of you in one dorm, this place will be too small to fit all of you comfortably" I feel myself become queasy. 

"So that's why your managers and I have decided to move you all into a new dorm" The bewilderment on everyone's face makes me feel like I have to throw up. They're going to blame me. 

"You'll have to pack up and move out within the next three days" No one looks happy about the news. Everyone is quiet, even as my uncle says his goodbyes and leaves through the front door.

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After news like this, normal people tend to get agitated and stubborn, doing their best to change things but these guys stay quiet, some leave to go pack, others leave it till later, but either way, I'm left alone in the room  "Y|N, mind helping me pack?" I nod absently and move sluggishly up the stairs. Inside Jin's shared room he walks back and forth from his dresser to a suitcase that sits on his bed. I sit down in front of the two cages on the floor where his Sugargliders are scrambling around. 

"So, are you excited?" I look up to Jin. He's folding a pink sweater, well, trying to. 

"What do you mean?" 

"Well, you are basically starting a new life. You're moving, and becoming part of a group, and not to mention you get to see my beautiful face every day"

He flips his hair jokingly and finally just gives up on the sweater, stuffing it in the suitcase. 

"I guess, but I don't know how I'm going to deal with see your annoying face every day"

I chuckle and he huffs, sending me a smile that lets me know he understood that it was a joke. 

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Oh my gosh, I finally got this chapter out. It took me so long and I feel so bad about that.