Jay.

Nandito ako ngayon sa rooftop ng school namin..

Just doing nothing..

Since that day,parang nawalan na ako ng gana sa lahat..

And also,Anne's been contacting me but I ignored her..

I don't wanna involve myself with her again and waste my chance with Jungwon again..

Speaking of Jungwon,he would never look at me whenever we meet..

It's like I'm invisible..

It's like he's ignoring my existence..

I don't even know if he still knows I exist..

But again,I can't blame him..

Fuck I just wanna be with him again..

Or atleast just see him smile..

I don't see him smiling so big eversince that day,he and that Geonu guy talked inside the classroom..

Fuck..

I felt a presence beside me..

Wrong timing bro..whoever you are please stay away from me..

I'm not in the mood..

I was about to shout at someone who disturbed my supposed to be alone time..

But when I looked at the person..it caught me off guard..

Why would he be with me?

Doesn't he hate me?

Is he here to throw hateful comments at me?

Not that I complaining coz If I was him,I would definitely do the same without a doubt..

Or punch myself in the face til I collapse..

I was having second thoughts..

Should I walk away?

Or just stay?

I should probably walk away right now,baka masaktan pa ako nito hahaha tahimik tahimik lang to baka bubugbogin ako nito hahaha.

I was about to stand up but he caught my wrist and made me sit again..

"Sit we need to talk" was his words..

This isn't my bestfriend..

This is a different person..

My bestfriend would smile and tease me but this person right here is so cold..

Noon,I wouldn't agree that he is an iceprince I mean yea he is a prince and freaking good at ice skating but he isn't cold..

He's the sweetest..

But now I don't know anymore..

He fits the "Ice Prince" title..

I totally agree that he is indeed an Ice Prince..

"I'm sorry" was my response to his words..

"Sorry won't solve anything " he still said coldly.

I looked at him..

"I know,I'm just sorry..I don't know how to fix this mess"

"I'll help you"

I looked at him with widened eyes..

He finally looked back at me..

"I-a-ah"

"Jay,I know you didn't do this on purpose..just..can you please explain to me what happened?" Sunghoon sighed.

"I'm sorry Hoon"

"Fuck it Jay! Just tell me what happened please? I know you,I trust you,bro...you're my bestfriend..please just..hindi mo ginusto yung ginawa mo sa kapatid ko diba? Jay tangena! sumagot ka please—-

I trust you Jay..alam kong there's something or someone who's making you do this...bro we've been friends for 3yrs..You wouldn't do that just because you felt like it..That's not you bro..And the fact na kapatid ko pa.." he furiously said.

"I'm sorry Hoon,sa ginawa ko sa kapatid mo,sayo at sa pagsira ng ating friendship"

"Jay..alam ko namang hindi mo yun magagawa sa kapatid ko diba? Sa akin diba? Please just tell me the truth..I want to help you..I don't wanna see my brother hurting again and same goes to you..."

"Do you really want me to explain everything?"

He nodded.

"I'm really really sorry Hoon"

"Just tell me everything"

You may ask what's stopping me from telling Sunghoon everything?

I don't know..

I just don't wanna see him disappointed at me..

I don't wanna make him feel that I failed as his friend..

But I badly wanna tell him everything..

This will maybe solve my problem..

If he just listen..

"I was so inlove back then with Anne..so inlove with her to the point that I would do anything for her..and when we broke up,it affected me so much..Remember those days when we hangout and I was so sad? I'm sorry I didn't tell you hoon,but we broke up at that time..I didn't wanna tell you because I don't wanna bother you and you don't seem to like her that much so I just hid it to myself..the day,I saw your brother face to face for the first time,he was making me feel butterflies in my stomach but I wouldn't admit that because I thought it was just because of Anne..That day..Anne's friends saw me with Jungwon..and...

Shit bro I'm so sorry..

"Why? Anong nangyari next?"

"they asked me if I still want Anne back..and of course,the idiot me agreed and they suggested that I should make her jealous so she will come back to me..I don't like the idea at first but eventually agreed because heck,I was so whipped for Anne..they...they suggested Jungwon as the victim...i—aa" i felt tears falling..

"I agreed na si Jungwon yung bibiktimahin because he seems the type who wouldnt fall for a guy like me..I thought na once babalik na si Anne sakin,maookay na ang lahat..But as me and Jungwon spend time with each other,the more we grew closer..Those days I was with him,I was actually falling for him which I didn't notice because I was focus on my goal which is Anne..it was going all so fine..not until Jungwon confesses too..I was still denying my feelings for him..and things happened..you already know what happened next hoon"

It was quiet for a minute until Sunghoon finally replied.

"But you like my brother right? Do you still like him?"

"Y-y-es.. and i was late to realize that"

"What happened the day you met him in the cafe?"

"I—i fucked up bro.."

"Hmm"

"Anne broke up with me because he found out that I have feelings for Jungwon" I heared him sighing when I said that.

"Your brother is so precious bro..he has the kindest heart..he gave me a chance to explain..yet i fucking wasted it..I didn't know what was going on inside my head that time,All I care is that,I was with Jungwon..I didn't know what I was saying..i—i....i asked him if i can use him again to make Anne come back.,fuck.."

"You're a jerk Jay"

"I know,I fucking know"

"But you don't mean that right?"

I looked at him with eyes full of sincerity.

"Hoon,i love your brother.,he's my baby..my only baby.."

"He loves you too" I felt my tears falling again because of what he said..

"I-im sorry hoon..I'm really sorry..."

I couldn't help but sob in my hands which are now wet because of the tears that were falling..

I felt a hand rubbed my back..

Bakit ang babait nila?

I don't deserve this kindness..

I feel bad for them..

When I was calming down...I felt his hands from my back disappearing..

"I'm sorry too Jay..for punching you..for not letting you explain and for not letting you meet him..i was just being protective over my brother...I don't wanna see him hurting..but I hurt you instead..shh..we will fix this mess okay?"

I nodded and he gave me a hug..

Never knew I needed this hug..

I just hope things will be okay..

Sorry talaga sa super duper late na update heheheh but I hope ma enjoy niyo!! And as you can see,malapit na matapos tong book na to kasi marami pang books ang gusto kong ipub hehehehehe stay safe everyone!!