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(A.N i was wondering if you guys would like me to do two books at a time or just do this one because i could go faster if i just did this one but all on you guys)

(A.N TWO, i was at my cusins house sry. For the late update)

Evan POV

I wake up in a darkness filled room. The only light i see is a spotlight that is on me.

I then see me, me next to my mom as a child. I ask her to get something on the store.

"NO mom please don't go."

I then teleport to my mom driving a car i was sitting in the drivers seat. In the back is a bag of groceries. A car suddenly crashes into the side with my mom in it.

We were both on the floor, she she was covered in blood. She looks at me.

"I love you Evan."

Her voice filled my ears. Everything suddenly had turned back to darkness with a small darkness.

"I love you Evan im so sorry i should have never done this."

I heard another voice except not my moms.

"I love you Evan please come back to me the first time you payed for my starbucks I've loved you."

'JONATHAN?'

"I love you too." I say, knowing he would never hear me.

Darkness soon turns into light. The light blinds my eyes. My vision was very blurry.

My vision starts to clear up and i see myself in a hospital bed. I am too tired to sit up or even lift my head. I turn to my right and see Jon right there sitting.

He was in a chair next to the bed looking down. His head lifts up and his blue eyes meet mine, mask still on.

"Evan i am so fucking sorry its just delirious took over and i had no control over it."

I resist the urge to hug him on account of the pain my body would feel. A smile crept over my face.

"I forgive you Jon, the voice is the thing that pushed me towards well."

I pointed at the arm with all the scars on, from cutting. He nodded his head.

"Evan you have no idea of how sorry i am. If i could i would kill my voice for making me hurt you."

I smiled, forgiving him in my mind.

"Evan i need to tell you something but if i do please don't let it end our friendship."

"Nothing could ruin our friendship Jonny."

It was the very first time i called him Jonny, i can just tell he was smiling.

"Evan i love you, ever since we met you have been the nicest person to me ever. I love you so fuckcng much."

My heart was pounding fast.

"Jon... i have loved you for the longest time i love you so much."

He lifted his mask revealing his soft pink lips. He leaned down and kissed me except this time it wasn't an accident it was for real.

I lifted up my head to deepen the kiss, not minding that the cuts on my arm were burning with hurt.

I placed my hand on his cheek caressing it during our kiss.

My heart was pounding faster than usian bolt runs, i was having the time of my life.

Suddenly wildcat walks in. "Hey Evan i he- OH MAH FIVKN GASH!" He almost instantly see us making out. "P-please don't tell any of the crew, t-this stays between me, Jon, you, and maybe Marcel if he is out there." Jon stuttered. Tyler smirked, seeing that two of his friends were making out.

Tyler shook his head with a cheeky grin. I felt a hand grasp my hand, i look over to see Jon holding my hand.

"I love you so much sorry for all of this."

(A.N this is shorter than usual but heyyyyyyy LUUUUUV '3')