I pour some vodka into my water bottle hoping nobody catches me. I look at the small bottle before deciding it's not enough and pouring two more. I grab a bottle of pills and throw them into my bag. "Leaving so soon?" The guy from last night asks.

"I got school," I sigh as I rummage through my bag of drugs grabbing the money I brought from Roxbury and stuffing it in my book bag.

"Looking like that?" He asks as he chuckles. "I'm John by the way."

"Lacey," I grab my book bag before throwing on sunglasses and a hat on my brushed hair. "I'll be back after school. That is if I'm welcomed."

He nods his head, "you're always welcomed here Lacey."

I bite mt lip, "thanks."

On my walk to school I chug a whole bottle of vodka hoping to get a buzz before I run into anybody from the gang. I also pop three pills. I walk into the small high school and walk over to Caleb, "I need stuff for today."

 He chuckles, "I'm missing some stuff from my house."

I roll my eyes, "I didn't take shit. Now do you got the stuff or not?"

He nod as he pulls me away and outside the school by a big tree. He grabs a small bag from his book bag, "what do you want?"

"Try this," Brian hands me a small bag of white powder. "It'll take the pain away Lace, but you can't do this everyday like weed, it has to be in small doses once in a while."

"I won't get carried away," I snatch it out  of his hand.

He chuckles, "gonna go get high."

"You now it," I storm into the bathroom. I look over to see a girl who looks innocent crying with white powder on her lip and around her nose. "You got some-"

She quickly wipes it away sniffling slightly, "oh, th-th-thanks"

"What's wrong?" I walk over to her. "I've lost people too and I know why your doing this. It started with a beer then it went downhill. You can talk to me."

"I just lost my parents," she sobs loudly.

I walk over to her and hug her tightly, "so you turned to drugs. I've lost everybody I truly care about. My dad even left when I little and never talked to me until last summer, but when I left early he didn't care and he stopped calling."

She sniffled, "I just don't know what to do and I want to make my parent's proud, but doing this wouldn't. It's just I'm fifteen and I don't know what to do without them. I was their prodigy child, their miracle. The doctors told my mom she couldn't get pregnant a few months later there I was."

I look down tears in my eyes, "that's cute."

"My name is Desiree, it's french and it means so long hoped for," she smiles at the floor. "What about you?"

"My name is Lacey. My mom went into labor on her wedding day while she was wearing a lace dress, so there's my name. It was supposed to be Minda. I would been little Minda Jane. Although I ended up being little Lacey Rose," I explain.

She smiles, "well it's nice to meet you Lacey Rose, I'm Desiree Ann."

I chuckle, "thanks for making a bad day a lot better."

She nods her head as she walks away, but before she leaves she turns around, "listen, I hope things get better for you and you're able to give up this life style. Good luck. You really helped me today. I hope I see you again one day Lacey."

"Me too," I mumble. As she disappears out of sighs. I rip open my small bag snorting it all as fast as I can then washing down the feeling with some scotch.

"A little bag of white stuff," I smirk.

He grabs two and hands them to me and a small bag of weed, "free of charge anything else you don't get free. That's what I used last night."

I stuff it into my bag, "do you have pain killers?"

He nods, "of course. Who do you think I am?"

"Five bottles," I speak.

"Pill addiction, that's rough," he pulls out five bottles handing them to me. "Continue."

"A pack of needles," I request.

He pulls out a larger bag with what looks like six needles in it, "there you go."

"That's all," I respond as I hand him twenty and run off.

"Thanks for the tip!" He screams after me chuckling. 

Not worrying I walk into the school leaning against a locker. My head pounds as I hear loud footsteps, "are you drunk?"

"No I'm Lacey," I shake my head before putting my hand on my forehead. "Wow! Ouch!"

"C'mon!" Jilly grabs me pulling me into a bathroom. "What the hell are you on?"

"Nothing," I lie. "I'm just tired."

She grabs my book bag off my shoulders, "what's in here?"

I go to rip my bag out of her hands, but she jerks it back, "hey give that back it's mine!"

She dumps out the products, "What the hell Lacey? Are you an addict?"

I shake my head, "I'm just holding it for a friend I met bet in Roxbury her name is Desiree and her parents died. She's coming down to Tulsa to make the ultimate deal and she sent me some money and I'm gonna send it back to her after I finish the deal."

"You just said she's coming down, so why are you making the deal?" Jilly asks.

I grab a bottle of pain killers, "these are mine though, I get head aches."

"Five bottles?" She asks. "Why would you carry around five bottles?"

"Because, I want to!" I scream.

"And what are you washing those down with?" She grabs a water bottle sipping it. "Vodka? Is this your idea of fun?"

"Soda was dying and I found a needle what was I supposed to do?" I scream at her. "I didn't think I was gonna get hooked again! I thought it would just numb the pain!"

Jilly's face softens, "you're done."

A few tears drip down my cheeks, "no, I need it to numb the pain of the past."

"What happened this year Lacey? It seems you came back to Tulsa with a load of baggage and a ton of secrets! I am your best friend, you can tell me! So what happened?" She yells at me as loud as she can.

I shutter as I look away from her, "you weren't there for me that year, so why should I tell you?"

"I'm here now," she says softly.

I nod my head as I grab my backpack, "well I'm not."

I snatch the pills, but nothing else and storm away from her flipping her off. 

"So this is it!" She screams at me.

Looks like Jilly and Lacey are slightly falling apart. That's so sad! Stay gold. Do it for Johnny!
-Beth