Roman Pov

Just as the late bell rang I slipped into my U.S History class. I breathed a sigh of relief. I wasn't late. The teacher glared at me for interrupting her but I didn't care. I only had one year left of the hell they call high school.  I noticed I was still standing by the door so I quickly took my seat in the back corner of the room by the open window. I sat down and got my books. The teacher continued talking in a monotonous  voice. I hated this class. It always put me to sleep. This was the only class where I didn't know any one. I didn't want to know anyone but for some reason they all wanted to know me. In all of my other classes, my best friend and wrestling teammate sat by my side. Seth was one of the best friends a guy could ever ask for. Loyal. Smart. Courageous. Caring.  He didn't give me shit about my past like most people who knew. I don't regret it. I chose it but I will never be proud of what I did. Because deep down as hard as it is to admit, hes better off without me. He deserves more than I could ever give him.

He didn't deserve how I hurt him. I'm a selfish asshole. He was an innocent adorable boy. I probably fucked up his whole view on love. I should have treated him better. I realize now what i lost.  How much more of a stupid idiot could I have been?...... 

I'm pulled from my thoughts as the bell rang.  Is class over already? I spring from my seat and quickly get to the door trying to catch up to Renee. A girl I knew had paid attention in class. "Renee!" I shouted. When she heard my voice she stopped to wait for me. "Roman" she said as I approached her. " Do we have homework? I wasn't paying attention. I zoned out..." I asked her. "No. no homework." Renee told me and before I could say another word, she turned her back and ran in the opposite direction. As far away from me as she could get. I cant say I blame her but sometimes I wish people would take the chance and get to know me the way Seth did. The way he did.

I shook my head to rid myself of those thoughts. I need to stop thinking about him. I need to stop thinking about the way he made me feel. I need to stop thinking about whatever the us was. Its never going to work. He probably hates me. I moved so he could be happy. Happy away from me. I left for him.

I began to walk towards the cafeteria to meet Seth for lunch, when I saw him. No. I corrected myself.  Its not him. It cant be. He doesn't go to this school. But before I could make up my mind, Someone shoved me into the row of lockers in the hall.  I glared at the person's back as they walked down the hall, not knowing who it was. "Watch where the fuck you're going or next time I wont be as nice." I spat at him.  I muscled my way through the crowd that had formed and continued to the cafeteria.

A few minutes later I entered into the cafeteria and went to the table where me and Seth sat everyday. To my surprise Seth was talking to someone else. Nobody else ever sat at our table and that was the way Seth and I liked it. Anger rose from within me. 'relax.' I told myself. He's probably just talking to Seth about school work. I walked up to the table and put my bag on the floor next to my seat. 

"Hey Ro!" Seth greeted me as he looked up. "Sethieeee!" I left the table and went to get food. when I came back that guy was still there. He seemed familiar but I decided to ignore it. I sat down as Seth continued  telling this person about our school, the bell schedule and layout. I guess he's new. I don't care. I have a question for Seth and whoever this person is can wait. 

"Seth", I interrupt. Seth stopped talking mid sentence and looked over at me. "Yah?" he responded. "Do you know what we are doing in gym?" I asked. Seth shook his head no. As I talked I noticed the new person flinch at the sound of my voice out of my peripherals. That's weird. I looked at the guy and his eyes locked onto my mine. 

The two of us held our stares a few more seconds before I looked away. I focused on my food instead. Why is he here? I asked myself over and over. I have the worst luck in the world.

Seth had watched our exchange with an amused but smug look. 

"Oh shit. I forgot to introduce you guys." Seth laughed. "he's new and in my classes so I thought I'd show him around and welcome him and be friends." Seth continued. He's adorable with his wanting to help and make new friends. He's like a puppy. I rolled my eyes at Seth but smiled. 

"This is Dean Ambrose." he told me.