I awoke in a bright white room surrounded by people I opened my eyes and softly groaned at the brightness of it all. The smell of disinfectant giving me a headache. I immediately felt the pain everywhere. Jumping up I pushed myself to the back of my hospital bed shaking like a leaf. one of the people slowly walked over with his hands up as if to show he was no harm. i flinched as he slowly put his hand out so he quickly drew his hand back "sorry" he said not meaning to scare me I smiled at the sincerity in his voice. "It's fine" I said with a soft smile "no it isn't after what you have been through i should have known that-" i cut him off giggling lightly " It is fine yes i was terrified and i want to catch this sicko but i am alive so yes i am fine as long as i get to help you catch this guy" i said pasting a fake smile on my face with a broken look in my green eyes. my eyes use to be so bright now they are dull lifeless and full of sadness. I am not okay actually I do not think i will ever be okay not after what had just happened my parents and my best friend are gone and it is my fault. im broken and torn there is nothing left in my eyes but i do know that i'm gonna catch this guy and make him pay even if i die in the process i don't care anymore "Can we have a minute chief?" the officer said still staring at me with an unplaceable look in his eyes. "Don't do anything stupid Aaron" the chief said. once the chief had left the man-Aaron looked back to me. " i know a fake smile when i see one. I know what your feeling I was going after this guy. i was to close to the case... his first kill was my little brother. my one job from my dad was to look out for my brother" he paused a haunted look in his chocolate brown eyes "I spent years going after that guy when ha was the same force as me...he was my partner i went home one day found him holding my mom and dad hostage i tried to talk him out of it it made him angrier he shot my parents and was going to shoot me to but the team ran off snipers got him not before he shot me in the leg and when push comes to shove you never forget the look in there faces or the last thing you said to them or the last thing they said to you." he finished his story with his eyes holding tears "did... did talking about it help you get over it in a way?" i asked " no but knowing other people have gone through similar situations and being able to help them saving people hunting down these criminals it helps" he said "knowing once one of them is gone there is one less to worry about one less bad guy on the streets it helps ya know." he cleared his throat and smiled i smiled lightly back. " so when do i get to start to help you guys with this case." he furrowed his eyebrows "i got to find my parents and Lucy's killer it is all i can think about and i know it isn't healthy and I don't want to waste time wondering what could have been changed or how i could of had a happy ending i want this guy behind bars.I said a fierce look in my eyes as he sighed. "obsessing isn't going to help you very much with getting over their deaths." he said a knowing look in his eyes i glared at the look "maybe i don't want to get over there death did you ever think of that hmm" i snapped instantly feeling bad "I'm so sorry i didn't mean to snap at you like that. I'm sorry" i said i'm just thinking... Why does everyone walk out of my life?" I asked tears glistening in my eyes. He got up out of the chair and came over to me slowly "Nadia not everyone has a choice but you cant live in a world with only sadness and anger" he said wiping my tears with his thumb "sadness and anger are a part of life Aaron sometimes you cant help it" i said more tears streaming don my cheeks " But if you only have sadness and anger are you ever truly living? I mean think about it if your gonna live like that then life is only a void of nothingness" Aaron said softly looking at me.