Iridescent - Linkin Park

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Everything hurts.

His chest, his body, his...... Soul.

Everything inside Jimin hurt.

The second he stepped inside his home, he crashed to his knees and clasped his hands together, weeping quietly only praying that his emotions won't spill on this cold hard wood floor.

He can't feel anything, he refuses to, but he did.

"Forgive me father, for I have sinned," Jimin whimpers shakingly as he bites back his sobs the second he hears footsteps approach him, "I saw him today and I almost felt something. I'm disgusting as you said I am, I'm sorry, I tried but I still love him!"

At first nothing happened as Jimin shakes on the ground with strangled tears and sobs, until he felt arms around him and he's suddenly lifted from the ground. He whimpers to the touch as he continues to cry.

"I don't want to sin. He touched me. It..... It hurts to be touched now. I can't.... I can't feel-"

And suddenly Jimin is completely engulfed in water. His whole body drenched as he reaches the surface and gasps for air, coughing heavily.

Pool of holy water in the basement. He's back here again.

Oh no...

"That demon is still inside you. We must do more procedures," His father murmurs conflicted and Jimin instantly begins to shake his head, swimming to the edge of the pool of holy water to his father.

"No father no. I'm doing better, I promise. I won't feel anything-"

Mr. Park raised his hand to silence him, "Go to your room, undress, wear your robe and come down. Our brothers and sisters will be here so don't fear of being alone," he says and squats down, staring down at Jimin, "Jungkook is a parasite in your life, and you will become worthless in the eyes of God if you feel anything. Do you want that?"

"N-No father."

"Then we shall start procedure, don't worry son.... Remember, we are only saving you from your sins."

Jimin blinks back his tears, "But I haven't been bad-"

"Yes you have, you have sinned. You're a sinner, and now you must be cleansed," And just like that Jimin is dragged out of the water and thrown to the ground, "Don't worry, this will all end soon. You won't feel anything anymore, and then God will love you."

"G-God will love me?"

Mr. Park smiles, "Of course he will, but now.... You must be punished and be removed of that demon inside you."

Jimin looks up at his father, lips wobbling to the utter confusion and pain in his body.

He's a sinner.

He's a disgusting being.

Heathen.

He deserves this.

He deserves pain for feeling, just like they said he does.

So Jimin nods slowly and rolls to the water, letting himself float to the surface with tears beaming his eyes.

"Who is Jeon Jungkook?"

Jimin gulps thickly, remembering Jungkook's pleading eyes in his mind.

I can't feel this way.

I can't feel anything.

"I...... I-"

Jimin didn't get to finish because he's suddenly struck with electric bolts around his body, shivering his small insides uncontrollably.

And that's when Jimin remembered.

Pain.

Jungkook equals pain.

Loving Jungkook..... Means pain.

Jimin I raised up from the water by rubber chains, dangling him up in the air while his mind fumbles to many thoughts at once before it all falls blank.

Loving Jungkook is a sin..

I'm a sinner.

"You are a disgusting and worthless human being for feeling anything for him," Mr. Park reminded with that familiar hatred growl, "Say it."

Jimin's chest began to ache painfully and he lets out a whimper, "My feelings.... I still feel-"

And he's suddenly yanked back into the water, his body being electrocuted with the harsh currents, more intensity than before.

I can't be gay anymore.

Gay means pain.

Gay means they will hurt me.

I'm so scared to be gay....

I'm a disgrace. They never fail to remind me, I'm a disgrace and loving someone as Jungkook means pain.

Jimin suddenly is lifted from the ground again, "Say it."

Jimin shivers painfully and lays limply on the rubber chains holding him up, "I..... I am a disgusting and worthless human being for feeling something for him."

"Do you still love him?"

The answer to that only caused fear in Jimin's body. He fiercely shakes his head in panic, "Loving him means pain.... I don't want to love him."

Mr. Park grins softly, "Good, now we shall proceed."

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A/N:
Ahhhh small chapter but this is Jimin's perspective. What do you guys think? Any thoughts?

Alrighty I'm go get something to eat since I'm very hungry ahhh I hope you guys ate today and had a good day/night!!

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