That picture was my reaction when I finished rereading this chapter hehe you'll see why :))

Training Wheels- Melanie Martinez

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Everything in Jimin's body feels heavy when he gained consciousness once again. Every limb, bone and cell in his body falls for the temptation of gravity, dragging down Jimin's body to feel ultimately weak. It even felt strained to breath properly.

What happened?

Jimin's mind is fuzzed with faint flashes of memory of what happened; Damien, his bible versus, fighting his demons, forgiveness.... And then it all went black from there. It almost felt like it was just some dream but Jimin knew better.

It all happened.

And he got punched across the face, so that may explain that small ache on his cheek bone.

What a regular day of Jimin's life.

Slowly Jimin peers his eyes open, adjusting to the light around and the blurred environment surrounding his vision. The first thing he sees is a plain white ceiling, following with the stench of how a hospital would smell like.

Blood, medicine and cleaning supplies.

Wait is he in the hospital?

No it doesn't look like the hospital-

"Jimin?"

The smaller's attention is suddenly averted to a stressed Jungkook, who's sitting on the bed beside him while holding his hand. Jimin would feel happy or a burst of joyful energy to seeing him if he didn't look like he's on the blink of having a mental break down.

Is he okay?

What happened?

Why is he so...... Upset?

"Lovely," Jimin murmurs weakly and then looks around his surroundings once again, noticing he's in the nurses office, "What happened?"

Jungkook's frown deepens and his grip tightens on Jimin's hand. Jimin's pulses suddenly accelerated when Jungkook's other hand suddenly raised the bracelets from his wrists, revealing fresh new cuts that Jimin did to himself this morning.

Deep cuts, unlike the light ones he use to do to himself.

Jimin's heart dropped.

H-How did he know?

He made sure to cover it up well enough for no one to notice!!

"You fainted due dehydration, lack of nutrients in your body, and blood loss from these fresh cuts you did to yourself this morning, clearly," Jungkook says broken-heartedly, his voice nearly cracking towards the end before moving his eyes to look at Jimin with tears gleaming behind them, "You told me you were doing better.... This isn't better Jimin."

Jimin didn't know what to say. He didn't want to admit that he still has these urges to cut from time to time, no matter how happy he is with Jungkook. He didn't want to talk about the fights that has dangerously progressed between him and his parents for the past weeks, making him lose appetite all together in which explains the lack of nutrients and calories in his body.

Last night just happened to be Jimin's breaking point.

It's not even the fact that they hit him for punishment at all, more so they argued with him; attacking his emotions, mind manipulating him into making him feel like absolute shit about himself. About being a Christian. About being good in God's eyes. Into believing maybe he isn't all those beautiful things Jungkook always tells him he is. So he broke. He started with not eating at all.

Completely starving himself.

He felt like a disappointment to God, and he couldn't exactly reach out to anyone for a one to one talk about the love of God since they're mostly atheist.

Jimin didn't think they would understand.

He couldn't count on Jungkook on this one, to be his guidance back to his faith. So he tried doing it alone, and it only felt even more painful since he felt weak, especially since he  didn't think God would care listen to him since he was thinking about hurting himself again..

This morning those dark thoughts came again, and he gave into the urges complete and sliced his skin. He didn't cut as many how he use to do, but they're deeper, taking a while for them to stop once he finished.

He wasn't strong enough.

He was spiritually so weak and numb and it pained him, he felt broken.

Jimin turns his head away from Jungkook to face the ceiling instead, the life escaping his eyes slowly as he recalls those moments, "I know this isn't better Jungkook, let it be."

That was all he said and it was enough to get Jungkook to start panicking and growing hysterical. Jimin isn't usually this closed off with him.

Something is happening and Jimin can't keep it dwelled inside like that.

So Jungkook slides Jimin further more to the other side of the bed so he can lay down on it beside him. Obviously this bed isn't meant for two people so Jungkook grabs Jimin and  brings him as close to his chest as he possibly could, giving him a comforting hug.

Jimin didn't resist.

"Don't forget that you matter to me angel," Jungkook quivers sternly and places a gentle kiss in his head, "I don't want you to feel like you can't talk to me about certain things.... I want you to feel free to count on me.... For anything. Please Jimin don't just push me away like that, after everything we've been through."

Jungkook is right, of course he is. When has Jungkook pushed any of Jimin's problems aside - Not counting Jimin's relationship with Yoongi? From time and time again, Jungkook has proved to Jimin that he's there to understand and be his support system and backbone whenever he needs it

Will he understand this?

This spiritual emptiness Jimin feels inside?

He won't know unless he tries...

Jimin only chews on his bottom lips and exhales a deep breath, "It's just the same thing happening..... With my parents and just.... I was doing okay, I promise you I was.... It just became too much and I needed..... I needed to reconnect with God," He whimpers lowly towards the end, burying his face in Jungkook's neck, "I'm sorry I didn't go to you, and I don't want you to think that I can't-"

"Isaiah 41:10," Jungkook suddenly says calmly, running his fingers up and down Jimin's arm to calm him down, "So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand."

He knows about the Bible?

He knows verses an-

Why did he not mention this before?

Jimin blinks to Jungkook's words in surprise and slowly raises his head to face him, "You..... How do you-"

"There's a lot you still don't know about me baby," Jungkook chuckles and raises a hand to caress Jimin's cheek, avoiding the small bruise on his cheekbone and his smile slowly falls serious to a frown, "I want you to be happy and content with yourself Jimin.... If I have to phrase some bible verses, even if I still don't believe in God, in order to make you feel spiritually stable and at peace as you grasp onto your faith, I'll do it. I'll do anything for you."

He would do that..... For me?

It's not necessary to...... He doesn't need to do any of this.

Yet.... He wants to do it just to make sure I'm happy with myself and remain firm with my faith. To be mentally, emotionally, physically and spiritually stable.

What type of angel did I get myself blessed with?

The smaller boy takes in Jungkook's beautiful features and sincere eyes, practically bleeding of his pure emotions, and Jimin feels his heart only warm up even more in need and appreciation. For a moment he glances at the door of the room to see it closed, only them in the room with no cameras. He debates his thought over his head but then risks it as he leans up and presses his lips against Jungkook's.

Jimin's heart practically bursted into flames. No matter how many times they have kissed before, it always feels like it's his first kiss all over again.

What Jungkook expected to be just a simple peck only sparked his surprise when the brunette moved his lips against his, pouring more meaning and sincierty into the meaningful kiss. Jimin suddenly climbs over to straddle his lap, leaning down with a hand pressed against the bed beside Jungkook's head to keep himself from collapsing down onto him.

Jungkook's hands roam's Jimin's thin torso and down his hip, gripping tightly as he runs on his lustful urges for the small male. No words or explanations will be enough to describe how they feel whenever they strip down the barrier of their hearts, showing that raw emotion of vulnerability and love for each other. It's a desperate grasp for the other, to only fill in that void that they have never once felt in their lives.

And it's beautiful, it's sincerely beautiful.

But sadly, Jungkook has to be the one to break it.

"Angel," Jungkook bums and pulls away, "We are in a nurses office. This isn't exactly a perfect scenery for a make out session."

The brunette only laughs giddily to the taller's playful words and stares down at the ravenette, so much love and heart warming emotions filling his eyes as he caresses Jungkook's cheek with his thumb tenderly.

When was it the day he fell completely in love with him?

Was it the day of their first kiss?

After breaking up with Yoongi?

The day they fought?

Or maybe when Jungkook saved him from killing himself over the bridge?

Did he love him then?

That's the thing with love, one can't pin point the exact date or time that it happened. It's almost like a flower; it's just a small seed at first, but after taking care of it and giving it your time and effort and sincere love. It grows into something beautiful.

Love is time, consistency, respect, compassion and loyalty in a huge bundle together. It's about bending but not breaking apart. To be each other's pillar, encouragement and a friend.

It's about going over the obstacles of life but leaning on each other to go over it together.

It's patient..... Kindness......

It's..... Love.

Jimin loves being like this.

He never thought he would ever find this type of happiness in his life.

And he doesn't want to let it go.

"You are the love of my life Jungkook," Jimin whispers, seeing how Jungkook's playful smirk drops to a sincere small smile, "I love you so much."

That strummed every single nerve and delicate emotion in Jungkook's body, finally feeling wanted and needed by someone.

Someone wants him.

Not the persona he portrays, but who he really is.

Someone accepts him, trust him, cares about him and loves him. Not because he's one of the faces of the school, but because of his heart.

All Jimin loves his heart.

And he loves Jimin's soul.

The ravenette blinks back the tears and leans over  to clasps their lips together once again, pouring his heart out to the smaller male as they get lost into their own world.

A world that's only there's.

Only meant to be there's.

It took so long of a road of pain to finally find this happiness.

They love it.

"I'm in love with you Jimin," Jungkook mumbles in between kisses and cups his face, pulling away to nuzzle their foreheads together, "And I will continue to tell you how proud and in love I am with you."

The warm emotions only kept bubbling inside Jimin's chest and he smiles softly, feeling his heart slowly start to accelerate as he prepares himself to say his next words.

His words that he had been ready to say for a while.

"Jungkook, I need to tell you something, that I think you should know about."

Jungkook slowly guides Jimin's face back, staring into Jimin's stern yet glittering brown eyes, not helping himself but to smile fondly at him, "That is?"

For a moment the brunette doesn't say anything, but then he slowly licks his lips and mentally nods to himself.

"I'm ready."

Jungkook for a moment doesn't say anything, only falls completely confused to what Jimin could've meant by that and it shows by how he tilts his head to the side with furrowed eyebrows, "For what?"

The smaller only grows slightly more nervous and decided to lower his hips against Jungkook's pelvis as a statement instead.

Right to where his still hard dick is underneath his pants.

Jungkook's suddenly eyes widen.

Jimin smiles innocently and leans to his ear, "I'm ready for you to take my virginity."

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