42: Standing Up For Myself
Angel by the Wings - Sia
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Six bodies instantly formed a wall in front of the terrified, small boy as they see Damien and his posse walking up to them in this now empty hallway, his head held high with his whole chest puffed out in that familiar dominating aura; only intimidating Jimin to the point he's practically shrinking behind Jungkook, one hand fisting his shirt tightly while the other fists Yoongi's sweater from behind.
He can't do this.
He can't stand up to Damien.
Anyone but him, it's too soon.
"Move along Damien," Namjoon spoke up, his voice an octave lower with his eyes stone cold to Jimin's bully, "Jimin is with us, so don't even try anything grimy."
The taller male with the murderous hazel eyes only smirks smugly, especially when he meets Jimin terrified eyes, "Look at you little heathen, got yourself six body guards.... Or six sluts, hm?"
Jungkook was about to take a step forward, hands balled tightly to smash it against Damien's cocky face, but he stops by Jimin's hand grips on his shirt tight;;y, "You will respect Jimin you piece of shit! Get the fuck out of here before this really do start to get messy."
And that's when Jimin's horror only increased to Damien's now dark eyes filled with amusement, yet holds a mischievous dark gleam that is sickly familiar to the small church boy.
This is about to get worse.
"Oh? Did little chunky chimmy have a boyfriend now?" Damien taunts dauntingly, his eyes still trained on Jimin, "Last time I checked wasn't that against your little good boy hand book, hm?"
Now this triggered something in Seokjin, having this need to say something.
To not relive the moments of his past before his eyes once again.
He's not going to remain silent anymore.
"The bible was never specific whether or not being gay is a sin," Seokjin snaps, feeling a sense of nostalgia hit his senses with every need to speak on Jimin's behalf, "Don't twist God's words for your own personal game and use it in vain."
Yoongi furrows his eyebrows and cranes his head to look at him, seeing the passion and glow behind his eyes as he speaks his mind.
Was Seokjin religious too?
This a new side of him that not everyone has ever seen before, not even Namjoon who has known him the longest.
Damien perks an eyebrow up, "Is that so? Hm right, shall I name the verse, or should you?" He continues to taunt Jimin, only grinning widely when Jimin averts his gaze away from his eyes and down to the ground, knowing well which one he's talking about, "Leviticus 20:13, what does it state, Park Jimin."
By now tears leaked Jimin's eyes, his lips wobbling as he turns around, closes his eyes to only focus on himself as he begins to whisper a prayer underneath his breath, "The lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. He makes me lie down in green pastures. He leads me beside still waters. He restores my soul. He leads me in a path of righteousness for his name's sake-"
"Aw can't face your own sins huh?" Damien laughs with his icy cold eyes, "Let me remind it for you then," He sneers bitterly, "Leviticus 20:13, 'If a man lies with a male as one lies with a women-"
"Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; Your rod and your staff, they comfort me."
"-Both of them have committed an abomination!"
"You prepare a table before me, in the presence of my enemies," Jimin continues to pray, painfully and quiet with a quivering voice, letting the tears escape his closed eyelids in a massive water fall; Desperately clinging onto his faith for dear life. The soft whispers made Jungkook slightly crane his head back to stare at him, feeling his chest tug hard to the sight and he slowly interlaces their hands, showing he will stand right beside him. No matter if he's an atheist and Jimin is a Christian, he will defend and love the smaller boy's faithful heart unconditionally. And he will never stop loving him, even if their views are different.
If this makes Jimin happy, a guidance to who he is; Jungkook will be right there to support him.
Jimin squeezes his hand back, swallowing down his own sobs to the silent message Jungkook is displaying for him,"You anoint my head with oil; cup my overflows. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life-"
"-They shall be put to death!"
"And I shall dwell in the house of the lord."
"Their blood shall be upon them."
"Forever. Amen," Jimin finishes, feeling a new sense of comfort in his chest as Jungkook holds his hand while Yoongi holds his other hand. That weight, pain, fears just simply faded; filling his chest with hope. Hope that he's not alone. Hope that God sent these amazing friends he has now to be his pillar, his wall, his guardian angels.
Now Damien's words doesn't weigh a heavy burden in his heart.
He's free...
He's not afraid anymore- He shouldn't be afraid anymore.
God will protect me.... My friends will protect me.... I will protect me.
"So, little heathen," Damien mocks with a proud smirk, "Must be nice to a sinner as well, doesn't it? After all, this is your little God's words. Don't worry, I'm sure hell will welcome your ungrateful existence."
Jimin didn't say anything, only takes in his words just like takes in deep breathes. He let's his mind fall into a space of peace just like he feels inside himself as he stands up straight, moving past between Jungkook and Yoongi. Instinctively Jungkook grabs Jimin's wrist to hold him back, but Jimin only carefully removes his hold, his gaze steady and calm as he faces Damien.
He will not intimidate me anymore.
Believe in me.
Believe in me.
So Jimin thickly gulps somehow manages a weak smile through his tears, "I admire you for how you took the time to memorize God's words. Keep in mind that the bible has been interpreted and translated by many people for over many years in various languages and forms. If you're going to speak of him in regards of that verse, please do so with full understanding of it."
Keep going, he's doing well.
Keep going.
"It does appear that it's a straight target against homosexuality from one perspective. The raw definition is to not lay down/sleep on a women's bed with a male. In my perspective of studying it for so long and doing research on it, that verse could be referring to pedophilia due to the phrase of 'man' and 'male' being used in the verse. A 'male' is a term that was used to describe a minor back then in that time period, while a 'man' was used to describe someone older. Pedophilia of a man, an elder man, with a male, a minor, it's an abomination."
Finish it.
"However, as I said, one has their own way of viewing and studying the Bible and interpreting it in their own way, especially since the Bible has a very metaphorical and complex ways of phrasing certain things. I may be wrong or I may be right in my point of view, but I trust in God, and I trust that he loves me and wouldn't just hate me for being different. Now you can believe that or not, that's entirely up to you, but don't try to rip me of my own faith just because you don't believe in what I do, especially since not once have I said or done anything regarding your beliefs."
The silence is deafening by the time Jimin finished, everyone almost forgetting how to breath as they sink in what he just said. It struck everyone, in their own sense of way.
Most specifically a sensitive string in Taehyung's heart, and tears instantly leaked his eyes.
Jimin is thriving off this sense of tranquility and hope in his heart, and he began to feel bold. He takes a step closer in front of Damien, staring up to his unease eyes and did the unspeakable in of everyone around them.
He hugs him.
Jimin wraps his thin arms around Damien's torso, holding him tight with that comforting aura bleeding through.
Damien stands completely rigid, completely caught by surprise by the smaller boy's sudden act of kindness.
No one has.... Ever been nice to him before....
"I'm sorry you have this need to express yourself in that negative way towards me, and I hope you don't have to feel like this anymore," Jimin whispers kindly and slowly pulls away, his head held high with a genuine stare, "If you want the truth, okay..... I'm Park Jimin, not Chunky Chimmy or Little Heathen. I'm gay and also Christian. My lov-boyfriend is an atheist and we still love each other very much despite our differences. Majority of these boys, my friends, are also atheist, and they love and accept me just as much as I love and accept them. I suffer from suicide and depression for about four years now, and I'm still getting through it. So I am a sinner, and that's okay because it also makes me human, who makes mistakes or falls hard in life. I would never grow on many aspects of myself if I didn't suffer, in which transformed various of my weaknesses to becoming my greatest strengths. I live in an dysfunctional household, who views religion with their own different perspectives that are far different from mines, but not all Christians are like that. Some are like me, who is open to love and forgiveness.... And that's what I'm giving you.... Forgiveness."
By now everyone is awestruck to how the once shy, church boy has transformed into the true version of his voice and himself. They stare with lips slightly gapped in surprise except for Yoongi; who wears a proud smile on his lips.
He's finally spoke.
The angel spread his wings.
Damien didn't say anything at all, but surprisingly tears whelmed his eyes, especially to the delicate way Jimin is staring up at him, despite all the pain and torture he has caused onto him.
He is a good person... Too good for this cruel world.
Before anyone could even utter anything else, someone from Damien's posse, Ty, suddenly launches a punch across Jimin's face out of no where.
And time suddenly zoned back.
"You're a weak bastard that's what you are!" Ty barks with that rage behind his eyes, "You should just fucking die already-"
It didn't take long before Jungkook swings a punch across Ty's face, launching his face to the side with blood escaping his lips from the impact.
Jungkook is heaving in rage.
Jimin is trying to maintain peace and slowly escape his hard shell, and this fucker just decides to be a fucking dick!
"I'm going to fucking kill you!" Jungkook shouts angrily, being held back by Jimin and Hoseok, "You deserve to rot in the deepest parts of hell for even saying something like this to him!"
Ty snarls with a deep glare and was about to lunge at him, but an arm in front of him stops his intentions.
From Damien.
His hazel eyes are now emotionless as they stare at Jimin, staring at him for a moment and then tilts his head up, "Let's go," Was all he said to his group before turning around. The rest of his posse actually stare at him in surprise but regardlessly follow him, with Ty shouting ragingly after him as they walk farther down the hallway.
He did it.
Jimin...... He spoke...
He escaped.
He spread his wings.
Jimin smiles weakly to the overwhelming feeling bubbling inside his heart, his vision suddenly peppering with black spots and his legs slightly swayed side to side.
He feels free.
"Jimin?"
And that's when Jimin falls completely unconscious.
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A/N:
A lotttttt happened in this chapter!! Ahhh how are we feeling? What do you think happened to Jimin?
Well I will try to do another update today, but I have a paper due, so after I finish the paper I will sure update! <33
Thank you soooo much for reading lovelies!!
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