Hold on- Chord Overstreet

Warning:
Suicide attempt

If you guys thought last chapter was sad, get some tissues

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Jimin's hands began to shake in fear when Jungkook punched the mirror, a flood of tiny pieces of glass falls into the sink. It all happened to fast as Jungkook throws all he bracelets down and grabs a large piece of the mirror, pinning it against the skin on his wrist.

Without hesitation Jimin lunges towards him and holds Jungkook's wrists, "Don't you dare! You promised.... You said you wouldn't do it!"

Jungkook cries to this, bowing his head before shaking his head, "I said I would try," he whispers and looks up, "I'm done trying."

And he pushed Jimin back with one hand and sliced his wrist. The smaller screams as he sees Jungkook create multiple fresh scars on his wrists, the blood slowly streaming down his arm. Through Jimin's tears and shaking body once again grabs Jungkook's hand and slaps the glass away, but suddenly he's pinned against the wall, meeting with Jungkook's angry eyes.

"Don't stop me! Why do you want me alive, huh? Why?" Jungkook shouts, his voice quivering as he shackles Jimin's body against the wall, "I'm so done Jimin..... I don't want to live... I'm tired of walking around so empty and hallow... I don't want to be alive."

Jimin couldn't stop himself from crying, he places a hand on his mouth as Jungkook slowly drops to his knees, hugging himself as he uncontrollably sobs. At first Jimin didn't know how to process this whole situation in general. He has never seen Jungkook like this.

Be this broken....

So slowly he sits down on the tile floor and brings Jungkook into his arms, letting the other cry on his chest. He didn't care if his vest was now stained with blood, or how Jungkook's previous words left a hanging ache in his chest.

All he cares about is Jungkook.

And Jungkook alone.

So carefully he reaches to the cabinet below the sink and pulls out a towel, carefully wiping Jungkook's blood while the other still holds onto him for dear life.

"I need you Jungkook," Jimin whimpers, still gently dabbing against his scars that isn't bleeding anymore, "Please don't push me away..... I want you to be alive."

Jungkook's hand grips tighter against Jimin's shirt, heaving out his breathe into silent cries. Jimin wishes Jungkook could see through his eyes, see how perfect and amazing he is.

See how much of a difference he has caused to Jimin's life.

Guilt began to consume Jimin's mind to the thought that he has made Jungkook feel so.... Lonely.

When Jimin didn't want anyone around, Jungkook was always there to pull him out of that darkness.

Jungkook was always there.

And he wasn't.

"I still want you," Jimin shutters and presses a firm kiss on the crown of Jungkook's head, sending Jungkook to let out a weak sob and slowly sit up.

The two stare into each other's eyes, communicating the words that laid deep down in their hearts.

Feelings that they are never were going to admit.

Communicating their pain, their apology, their sadness.....

Communicating the love that flows through their veins, growing with every lasting second they are together.

Jungkook suddenly leans, pressing his forehead against Jimin's and closes his eyes, "I'm sorry.... About everything I said to you, I..... I was just angry, I didn't mean it."

Jimin holds Jungkook's hand, interlacing their hands together, "I'm sorry too."

They didn't say anything, only stayed in the silence with the sound of their faint hearts beating in the same rhythm.

Beating the same song that only they knew. The secret song that their hearts dance to in delight; casting all of the darkness away and fulfilling it with the hope of light.

A light that is slowly starting to peak through their souls

Jimin fell for the tender moment and the song of their hearts, slowly leaning to press a kiss against Jungkook's cheek.

Well, his aim was for Jungkook's cheek.

But his lips ended up kissing the corner of Jungkook's lips.

His body froze, not avoiding that skip of his heart beat or the rushing of his blood circulating his body, or the flutter at the bottom pit of his stomach.

He felt..... As if electric bolts was digging in his body, making him feel this rush of adrenaline.

The rush of.... Something.

Something... Pleasing.

"I'm sorry! I was aiming for your cheek an-"

Jungkook cuts him of by placing a sweet kiss against the corner of his lips, making him tense up from the sudden jolt of electricity once again. It shivers down his spine and exploded into his stomach, only spiraling more when Jungkook pulls back and stares into his eyes, still incredibly close to him.

The urge to lean and kiss his lips was too tempting for Jimin. He wanted nothing more but to kiss his lips, feel them move against his and get lost to the feeling that is Jungkook.

For Jungkook to be his first kiss.

But he can't do it.

If there's anything Jimin knows about relationships, it's being loyal to your partner.

Now he's with Yoongi, and he can't do something like this to him.

"Jungkook," Jimin whispers, running a hand to his neck, "We...... You know.... we..."

Jimin felt embarrassed saying the words out loud. He doesn't know if Jungkook was even feeling that same type of way he is at this very moment.

"I know Jimin," Jungkook mumbles and breathes against his lips, "Don't worry, I'm not going to force you to do this."

Jimin bites down his lips, "Is it bad that I want to?"

Jungkook doesn't say anything, only moves to press a kiss against Jimin's forehead and brings him to his chest.

They stay like this for a while longer, just being in each other's arms and taking in the sweet silence around them.

Feeling more comfortable, with a slight tenderness filling the environment. It didn't feel as tense as before.

Especially now that they know the hidden desires that lays in their hearts.

"Oh and by the way, I promise I will buy you a new mirror."

Jimin laughs.

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A/N:
If you guys were sad about the last chapter, this one had to be worse.

Well, it was a wild roller coaster but it was a very meaningful chapter!

I hope you guys really enjoy this book! This book really means a lot to me in many ways than one, so thank you so much for voting and commenting <3

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