Let Me Down Slowly - Alec Benjamin

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Jimin frowns when Jungkook suddenly slides off the bed. His eyes follow how Jungkook runs a hand through his hair with an emotionless expression in his face.

What just happened?

The smaller sits up as Jungkook puts on his shoes, "Where are you going?"

"Leaving, I need to go."

Alarm bells rings Jimin's mind as he stands up, "But I just got here-"

"Yeah, exactly now I need to go," Jungkook mutters bitterly and pushes the window higher up.

Jimin felt a feeling of anxiety rise up in his chest and he walks forward and holds onto Jungkook's arm, forcing him around. Jimin wanted to burst out crying to the stone cold look behind Jungkook's eyes.

Why is he looking at him like this?

It feels so weird and so..... Painful?

"Lovely," Jimin whispers, stepping forward and placing his hands on either side of Jungkook's face, "What's the matter?"

He wants to understand why he's so upset. They were fine literally two minutes ago. Does Jungkook not want him to be with Yoongi?

Is that it?

What is going on?! Jimin isn't good with reading others emotions! People usually avoid him! So he doesn't know!

Jungkook bites down his bottom lip and blinks away, "Nothing. I'm just being selfish and I haven't been having the greatest day..... Or week.... Or month."

Jimin's heart felt heavy to this and he wraps his arms around him, providing some sort of comfort.

He didn't know Jungkook has been feeling so low. Whenever they talk, he seems fine.

But Jimin should know better to not believe a mask.

As Jimin holds him, Jungkook didn't want to feel that comfort.

He wanted to be mad.

He wanted to feel upset.

So he tears Jimin's hands off him, freezing when he sees tears that hurt look in Jimin's eyes.

Jimin felt like he couldn't breathe; his throat is clenching and he can't even stand properly to how weak his knees feel.

"I smell..... Women," Jimin hiccups, looking up at Jungkook with wobbly lips, "You were with a women?"

Jimin felt like he's been repeatedly stabbed on the chest and he doesn't even know why.

Jungkook was...... Having sex.... With someone...

Jimin would know the sex stench aftermath, he has two parents living in this same household. 

Sex is so intimate and a moment where two souls intertwine, at last, that's the fantasy Jimin has in his head. It's such a sacred moment to share with someone special. Perhaps now times have different perspectives, but Jimin always like to think his first time being with someone he loved. 

The thought continued to circulate Jimin's mind and he felt an odd wave of anger hit his senses.

Jungkook..... Was intimate with someone else?

Does this mean he loves her?

"Yeah I did, and? You're probably already fucking Yoongi-"

Jimin didn't know what came over him. All he knows is that he didn't have control over his hand when it made contact against Jungkook's cheek, echoing a loud slap in the room.

He was so angry and hurt that Jungkook would assume something like this.

With such a foul language.

"You know damn well I'm still a virgin and won't give it to just anyone, unlike you!" Jimin snaps, pushing the other back.

Jimin didn't even feel intimidated by the hard glare Jungkook is giving him, only fused by his own anger and adrenaline to feel the need to step it down a little.

He's absolutely livid.

"We aren't in a relationship and you shouldn't care whether I have sex with someone or not!" Jungkook sneers angrily, "Actually, you shouldn't care at all, especially since you found someone else to be your little toy."

Jimin gasps and frails his arms, "How dare you assume you mean any less to me than Yoongi!? Yeah, me and Yoongi are dating but you were never just a pass time thing to me!"

"Right," Jungkook sadistically laughs and shakes his head, "You know what? Let's just leave it at that then, but don't start acting like a crybaby now because I fucked a girl."

Jimin grits his teeth, fighting the thought of him with whoever that girl was, and he slowly shakes his head, "You're such a jerk! Why is it so hard for people like you to keep their dick in their pants?"

He didn't step back when Jungkook took a step closer to him, glowering down at him furiously, "People like me? Right. What about you huh? Your little gay ass would be burned alive if your parents found out you enjoy dick than vaginas. At least I embrace who I am, meanwhile you're trying to be someone else! You're not fucking Taehyung Jimin! And you never will be like Taehyung!"

Jimin felt like he's been punched on the stomach.

H-He will never be beautiful like Taehyung?

His parents..... They will hate him.....

That loneliness slowly consumed his mind and he angrily wipes his tears away, "Embrace who you are huh?" Jimin growls and glances down to Jungkook's hands, "Does the world know how their precious golden boy cuts his skin because of how miserable he actually is? Is that embracing who you are too?"

"Is throwing yourself off a bridge any better?"

Now that was a hard blow. Jimin felt it when his body went numb and his tears wouldn't stop streaming down his cheeks. He felt like he's been stripped down and beaten, with his biggest insecurities and his demons thrown against him. He isn't any better, he did the same to Jungkook, who's also fighting back the tears in his eyes but held that angry look to conceal it.

They really got to this level huh?

To hurt each other like this when they were each other's savior.

The thought only made Jimin want to sob out in pain.

He can't lose Jungkook, but what he said was so cruel, and he feels even more guilty because he said hurtful things too.

"I can't take this anymore," Jungkook whispers and suddenly storms into Jimin's bathroom.

Jimin's heart dropped.

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A/N:
Wait this isn't done yet!!!!