Lovely- Billie Eilish and Khalid

*Self harm trigger, I will provide warnings*
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Jungkook's hand is shaking as he attends Jimin's wounds in his bathroom. The taller is silent, not even looking at Jimin as he stands between his legs as he aids him. The smaller boy is changed from his initial tattered clothes and into one of Jungkook's shirts and sweatpants, feeling comfortable even if he won't say it.

After the event that happened at school, Jungkook couldn't have Jimin being there. He wouldn't be in the right mental state to take in new information at all. So with a few contacts, he was able to excuse both him and Jimin for the rest of the day. Jimin didn't complain, Jungkook knows the older would much rather be in this bathroom than walking around school limping.

Those fuckers.

They will pay for what they did to Jimin.

Actually, they're paying for it right now.

You see, Jungkook wasn't exactly alone when he saw Jimin being beaten up. He had his whole group of friends with him.

So, they're taking care of it without any questions asked.

They hate bullying as much as Jungkook does.

Especially if it's towards Jimin.

What is concerning Jungkook to the core at the moment is how emotionless Jimin's expression is. Not a glint of light behind his eyes. It's almost as if the life was just sucked right out of him.

And that thought only made Jungkook's urge for his blade much more stronger.

He can't stand to see Jimin so upset.

"Does it hurt?" Jungkook whispers as he gently dabs the wet cloth onto Jimin's busted lip, noticing how it's not as bad as Jungkook expected it to be.

Jimin doesn't say anything at first, but finally lets out a sigh, "It always does."

That struck a pain in Jungkook's chest. Seeing the boy he began to grow a bond for so broken and upset before his eyes is never a sight he ever wanted to see.

He wants to see the younger happy, like how he was last night.

Jungkook puts the cloth down and places his hands on Jimin's waist, sliding him closer to the edge of the counter. Jimin still doesn't look up or move, not even when Jungkook wrapped his arms around his waist.

How far can someone go to make another person feel so empty? So..... Emotionless?

Hopeless.

Jungkook doesn't understand why these people target Jimin. Why they just shove him aside as if he's nothing but a puppet? Or brutally beat him up until he's an emotionless doll on the floor?

Why?

How can humans be so cruel?

Jungkook's rushing thoughts dwindled when he feels Jimin's small fingers thread through his hair, clutching gently as he leans his face against the crock of Jungkook's neck.

He doesn't cry, or make any noises.

More so just lays there, with that emptiness circulating his chest.

Jungkook hold him for a while longer, drawing designs on his back as Jimin instantly relaxes against him. Both of them falling into a spiral of tranquility.

And for that moment, Jungkook's urges for that blade vanished.

Now he just wants to hold Jimin like this forever.

To feel that comfort and tranquility run his blood all day, every day.

Not just sometimes.

But sadly that wasn't the case and Jimin needs rest.

So Jungkook pulls back slightly and scoops up Jimin's legs, carrying the boy like he did the first day they officially met.

When Jungkook saved him.

He lays the smaller boy on his bed and pulls the blanket over him, "Get some rest okay? Your wounds need to heal."

Jimin opens his lips for a moment but closes them, slowly nodding instead as he lays comfortably on the bed, closing his eyes softly.

Jungkook stares at the small man softly, feeling an odd swirl circulate his chest as he watches Jimin sleep. Something about how peaceful he looks just makes Jungkook want to join him.

So they can be in their peaceful bubble together.

His phone buzzing against his pocket catches Jungkook's attention and he takes it out, seeing it's Taehyung calling. He sends one last glance at Jimin and quietly goes to the bathroom, closing the door behind him and answers the call.

"What happened?" Jungkook asks instantly.

He heard Taehyung's breathing from the other side and more voices.

"Don't worry Kookie, we gave them a good beating. Those boys won't be bothering anyone anymore," Taehyung huffs, making Jungkook sigh in relief and slowly nod.

They better.

"Thank you."

"Yeah they deserve it. Besides, no one hurts one our own."

Jungkook furrows his eyebrows, "What do you mean?"

Taehyung giggles from the other line, "I'm not stupid Kookie, it offends me when you think I am. That boy means something to you, and what means something to you, means something to us. Introduce him to us someday, yeah?"

Jungkook's cheeks blushes red as he bites back a smile, "Right whatever, talk to you later Tae. Once again, thank you. Love you."

"No problem Kookie. Love you."

And they hanged up. Taehyung's words circulate Jungkook's mind and he couldn't stop smiling.

He really does have good friends doesn't he?

And now.... Maybe if Jimin meets them, he will have good friends too.

All those thoughts suddenly vanished when Jungkook fixes his eyes to stare at himself in the mirror.

The mirror.

The reflection of the male perfection. To everyone's eyes. Always trying to be perfect, to be handsome. Be seen and taken as an object.

*Trigger*

No one loves you.

They just love what you have.

They don't care.

The words began to grow and grow over Jungkook's bead, tears starting to beam his eyes as he reaches to the cabinet below; his hands suddenly twitching with the urges.

So pathetic, go get your blade and end it all already.

Nobody will care.

They will only care that the money isn't gone.

They care about beauty, not you.

Jungkook bites back a sob to the thoughts as he sees his familiar friend hidden underneath towels and takes it out.

Perfect doll.

Just like Jimin.

Only thing is he doesn't let people toy with him.

He isn't as stupid as you.

Jungkook breathes deeply as he presses the blade on his wrist, finding a spot from the many scars already there.

More, draw blood.

Lots of blood.

One cut became three in which turned to seven.

More.

Cute mo-

*Trigger ends*

"Jungkook?"

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A/N:
Oh!! Will Jimin find out about Jungkook's urges? Will be one day be able to stop them? Who knows.

I hope you guys are enjoying this Jikook story! Honestly what I like about this is how slow and soft this is going. Nothing being rushed but the comfort they give each other is just so precious.

I really love writing this story, so thank you so much for reading!!

I PURPLE YOU GUYS <33