Author:*hides*
Happy: author-chan what are you doing?
Author: shhhh! I'm hiding from angry readers.
Angry readers: *starts chasing author*
Author: crap!! *runs away*
Happy: ...welp. author-chan doesn't own Fairy Tail or it's characters!
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Natsu

I wonder. Zeref comes here everyday and spends time with me. But he still doesn't touch me. And he always dissapears behind this door. With the others i didn't care much where they went. But for some reason i care about where he goes.

But i'm afraid. Somewhere outside is him. And i don't want to go there. No back there. Back? Back where? I can"t remember.... i'm always trying to remember but i can't.

In my mind there are four walls around me. I feel safe in them. But i also want to see what's behind them. i'm afraid to see though. I don't know what i should do.

Sometimes i feel something behind them. It pushes the walls and it feels bad. It makes me scared and wanting to curl to a ball wishing i would be so small i would dissapear. But i know this isn't possible.

So i'm happy i can be here in this infarmary. It feels more safe. I hold tightly on my scarf. After all this time i spent down there back then, it has become dirty. Covered in blood and mud and it looks more like a simple old cloth.

But i didn't mind. When i had it near me i felt like everything will be alright. I bring it closer to my chest as tears stream down my face as i try to remember what scares me so much and see through the walls i have built for myself.

But as soon as i tried i instantly regreted it. There was a man, the smell of alcohol coming from him really strong. He had a knife on his hand covered in something red. It was blood. But whose? As i try to remember more a sudden pain on my head stops me.

It hurted so much. It felt like my head was being cut in half. So i stopped trying to look behind the walls and curled to myself again.

As i stopped i heard the door open. I look around and see Zeref coming in. Once we make eye contact the look in his eyes changes to a worried one. In an instant he is sitting on the bed right next to me.

"Natsu what's wrong? Did something happen?" He asks the worry in his voice clear as day. I just nod weakly taking deep slow breathes as to try the tears from falling.

He sighed and locked eyes with me again. But this time his gaze was intence, piercing me. i sharply take a breath before holding it as his eyes look at me.

I felt like these eyes were looking right through me, looking at the me behind this facade i built. Like they could already tell i was afraid. And this broke me.

Without even thinking of it i wrap my arms around him and hide my face on his chest as if trying to hide from the world. The tears now freely falling off my eyes.

"I'm scared!" I yell as my cries become louder, letting all of my emotions go freely out. Pain, sorrow and fear. That's the only things i could feel.

I can feel his eyes on me. I don't know what he might feel right now but he didn't leave nor move. I could feel his hand near my hair and instantly i got a more defencive state, just in case.

I expected him to hit me, grab me from my hair and hit or kick me. But he didn't. Instead he ruffles with a gently touch my hair. I don't know why but it made me calm.

My consciousness flew away, everything around me dissapeared, along with the pain. It was the first time after a long long time that i felt in peace.

Sudenly i hear someone humming. I look up and see Zeref looking at me with a small smile while humming and caressing my hair. This feels nostalgic. I wonder why

I didn't give it much thought as my eyes start closing, getting lost in the feeling. I felt at peace after a long time and i didn"t want to lose this. Peace? I wonder was i ever really in peace?

Suddenly an image popped in my mind. It was pretty simple but confusing at the same time.

The image showed me and black haired boy sitting on a golden grass field. We were both little kids, him being some years older. The boy was humming the same song while petting my head and me hugging him. The memory came just for a brief moment before dissapearing again.

It made me feel strange. It looked like Zeref but i didn't know him till he came here one day. Maybe it was someone else? But they looked so much alike.

In the end not finding any solve to this riddle i shruged it off and closed my eyes enjoying the feeling of him petting me. Home...

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Happy: that's it mina-san! Author-chan hopes you like it. Also she can't talk to you as she is at the hospital after she was chased down xD

Please comment and review! so that's all for now! Till next time!

Bb😘