Arial P.O.V

We drove in a van to the building where the boys would be having their photo-shoot. It was the most boring thing ever, I also got my sketch in case thank goodness it came in handy.

Eleanor and I sat around waiting the boys to finish.

which I did not think would be any soon, and the director nearly started to pull out her and she was pregnant which was not helping at all. Twice I think she considered giving birth, cause the boys would not stop moving around none of the pictures came out the way it should.

Eleanor giggled about it all the time either that, or she would look at her phone.

She did not even offer a hallo since she came.

And I would not question her about that, news says her boyfriend is basically cheating on her with me whether its true or not.

I would not blame anyone but myself for that I have to leave, this is not me; but I really like having someone around to talk to, and these boys are more than fun to be around.

<they just pity you; you fool> my subconscious mind screamed at me.

I left my sketch and walked away, I am absolutely not gonna let that Eleanor see me cry.

When I came back Louis had his hands wrapped around his girlfriend's waist.

"Arial, let's go we finished" Niall called.

I took my sketch which was not in its right position where I left it!!! did that Eleanor look at it!!!

How could she??

I nodded my head at Niall

walking behind, to be greeted by 1000s of girls, at least it looked like it; I felt my head drope I hated crowded place like I hated my days at Rehab and maybe even more.

No...  no....  this is not where I want to be.

I was freaking out I felt someone holding my hand tightly "Don't let go of my hands and look down okay!" Harry told me

I did as I was told until we entered the van again. "You okay?" Paul asked I nodded

"Thank you" I mumbled to Harry.

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"Hay guys I have the biggest news!!" Liam shouted excitedly.

wow whatever he was on about was really something.

"Soph is coming tomorrow" he said happily.

Soph ??? I thought who is Soph??

"OMG that girl I missed her so much she just talked  to me 2 days ago saying she does not yet know!!" Eleanor said

"She did not; I just made planes today" Liam assured her.

Eleanor squealed happily; yes squealed she can squeal.

"Who is Soph??" I whispered/ asked Niall. he smiled kneeling towards me.

"Sophia is Liam's girlfriend" I nodded my head now Liam and Louis and Zayn have girlfriends.

What else am I yet to know about this boy band!!!

"Lads!! Let's have lunch at stick house" Eleanor said

"I don't mind" Harry said

You don't ever mind anything Harry, I doubt if someone asked to run over you by a bus you would agree. I smiled at my own thought.

"Me too" Niall added.

we stopped for food it went smooth ....  Other than the fact Eleanor gave me death glares when I stumbled on my stupid foot, on the stupid entrance and held into the person in front of me which happens to be Louis...

he pated my back saying "You okay love?" I nodded if looks could kill I would have been died 10 times now.

When we got back to the hotel I took some clothes and went to have a shower. Of course a shower is not a shower if I did not cut. Right!!

I sat in the bath tub crying silently why does she hate me??

I swear I don't like Louis like that, " I'm sorry" I said

adding another cut.

Somehow I see my classmates, bullies, in her eyes.

Someone knocked

"Arial you have been ages there, we are going out want to come?" Zayn asked

I rubbed my temple "No I am staying" I said

"Okay, suite yourself" he said

I got dressed and headed out to bed it was so quite I figured that all the boys and Eleanor left. I hugged my knees close to my chest; laying on bed.

"Hay Ari, you out finally" I heard thick Irish accent I jumped from my spot

"You" I said "Me" Niall said, laughing "Hay you okay?" Niall asked.

"I'm fine" I said

"Wanna help me on some song writing"

"I'm not interested in music, I am sorry I don't know how to help you" I said.

"Just need your opinion" he said

I could not knock him down "Sure" I said getting up; he already had his guitar in hand.

For about 2 hours Niall played beautifully he is really talented to say the least the whole band is to be honest.

My hand subconsciously reached for the bottle of water making me regret ever getting thirsty because: "What is that?" Niall asked holding my sliced wrist

"Nothing" I said yanking his arm away.

"Arial I thought I talked to you about this" he said

I did not say a ward "Why are you doing this to yourself you are so beautiful stop fucking hurting yourself" He shouted, making me back off afraid he might hurt me.

"What- did you think??- I am not going to hurt you Arial" He said placing  his guitar on the floor.

"Come here" He said, I hesitantly did.

Niall laid me on his chest, talk about pure comfort.

"Whenever you feel like doing it again Ari come to me and I will be more than happy to help you" Niall said

"Did you really mean that" I asked

"Every part of it" he said

I adjusted myself to set on his lap and hug him "Thank you Niall" I said; he pressed a soft kiss to my forehead.

"So what is this about?" Niall asked

"What is what about?" I asked

"You know exactly what I mean Ari" he said

"I really don't want to talk about it Niall" I said

he sighed, I got up from my position to face him.

"Are you going to come to me when you feel like hurting yourself?" he asked

I broke eye contact for a little while "ARI!!" "WHAT SORRY.. YES OKAY ALRIGHT I WILL" I said

"Good" I gave him a weak smile "I want you to know that the boys and I care about you" he said.

I gave him a another weak smile and laid down on his lap. Niall started gently rubbing my hair and twirling little pieces while singing I was quickly lulled to sleep.

"Hay I am just gonna put you on bed" I heard Niall I nodded wrapping my arms around his neck.

Niall P.O.V

I kissed Arial's hair and tucked the covers securely on her.

I stood up looking down at her I seriously needed to do something about this and it needs to be quick; only she does not want to tell me anything.

I had not told the boys about her self-harming of course; I get she did not want anyone to know, not even me....  if I did not accidentally see  it.

I was determined to help her thou, I will do whatever it takes.

What I can't seem to cope with is that she has been hurting herself for God knows how long, and yet I did not do anything about it!

This is going to change.

I sat around with my guitar in hand playing cords for a while, I heard Arial whining, I looked at her thinking she might be calling. She was still a sleep I thought that I might have been mistaken, "No mom I am sorry" I heard her this time I am sure I heard it right. I walked to her shaking her softly to wake her up.

"Ari, Ari wake up" I said she got up immediately hugging me and crying I rubbed her back for comfort.

"Hay it's alright you are safe it's just a dream" I said

"Don't leave please" she whispered.

I did not need to be asked twice, as I slipped beside her the smell of her distracting me for a moment. What is she wearing? she layed beside me taciturn and calm.

"It was my fault Niall it's all because of me" she said

"Shhsh! babe close your eyes and sleep" I said though I was really curious to know what was actually happening.

But I knew she will have to tell me someday no need to rush stuff.

The boys came only few minutes after that I motioned for them to shut it.

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