Arial P.O.V

" So you and Niall!!" Sophi said, I smiled to myself knowing she can see me in the mirror; as she straightenes' my hair.

Arial's outfit in the media ✌✌

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Two hours later we were fully ready, fully ready means dressed and photographed.

I kept thinking of what Niall said, I felt tingles in my hand, I smiled at the sight, Niall held my hand, whispering how beautiful I look.

"Omg you guys; I am excited " Perrie said

"Me too" Lou followed we took two cars; normally not all the boys would be at the same place, but obviously they had different plans on this particular evening plus we leave tomorrow night. Then everyone will go back to thier hometowns or catch up on some stuff. Generally relax.

Which is in no way my case; I have to clear a month of late homework / lessons / tests / projects / etc. for school, not to mention Niall.

Niall, are we a couple??
Doesn't he find it weird??
What will dad think??
How will we stay togather??
Does he really love me??

"Babe!! You keep zoning out are you okay??" Louis asked

"Yeah, I am " I gave him a polite smile

Felt Niall's hands on my thigh, I tensed a bit, because it became suddenly so hot.

"Where are we going??" I asked

"A night club" he said

"You look... worried!!" I told him

"I am fine, I just don't want to lose you Arial, please please don't let go of me" he said lacing up our fingers together.

He was behaving very strangly, but I can't say I didn't like it.

I held his hand tightly, as the car stopped.

The Place was okay I guess, not really my thing, but Liam and Louis's favourite place to be Zayn and Perrie disappeared only after a few minutes.

Louis and Liam+Sophi+Lottie+Lou+ headed to the bar leaving me with Harry and Niall.

"Harry are you going back to Holmes Chapel??" I asked

"Yes, Gemma just got back from Uni as well. So I will see her too"

"Gemma??" I asked not quite sure who is he talking about.

"Yeah, my older sister" he said

I am sure my mouth hung open, he is very tall to have an older sister "You never told me you have an older sister!!" I gasped

"I don't think you ever asked!" He said, I huffed asking him some more questions. Niall joined in our conversation and the three of us talked for like 2 hours.

"I will head back you guys. I need a massage I feel so dirty " Harry said; earning a laugh from both me and Niall.

"Okay Mr Styles, I will see you later" I said giving him a quick hug.

"Take care for yourselves" he said leaving, I saw him taking Lottie with him.

"Are you going back to Mullingar??" I asked Niall

"Yup, and I am taking you with me. And it's going to be a long ride cause the plan is not an option cause you obviously have no passport " he said smirking

"Ha. Ha." I mocked

"Why aren't you drinking like always??" I asked partly curious

"I am staying with you" he said, I felt a bit of redness creaping on my cheeks. I know he probably knows even though it was a little dark.

"Do you want to dance with me, on .. this .. song!!" Niall said

I smiled "yeah sure " I said getting up. He took my hand guiding me to the dance floor.

I quickly rewind what Harry taught me.

I kept my eyes fixed on his, unable to break from his gaze. I found myself melting, dazzled in his blue ocean crystal eyes.

I have never seen such beauty in one's eyes. I have never seen such beautiful smile. I have never seen a so beautiful person.

"I am quite hungry, do you want to get out of here??" Niall asked, as if it could be someone else. Lol

I giggled "Yeah, sure, I am hungry too" I said

Niall's bodyguard followed us, as we neared the gate Niall stopped me "I am going to carry you, it's too busy out there and I will not lose you whatever happens " He shouted

"What; love you okay!!!" I asked seriously worried he is acting very odd

"No. Ari please" he begged

"Okay; but I am going to worn you, I am heavy " I said throwing my hands up

He chuckled " It's not my first time carrying you Ari; remember. On Andy's anniversary " he said

"You!!" I said. He carried me running. I laughed; "Why are you running," "Trying to get to the car," as soon as we were out I got blinded by the amount of flashing cameras, and scared by the number of people, and worthless by the loud comments.

I didn't notice how my hands tightened around Niall's neck. As soon as we entered the van Niall asked if I was okay; muttered something I couldn't quite hear as well.

They don't know me to call me those names I am not even .... I am still a virgin. I would never use Niall for his money. I couldn't help but lay my head on his chest he kissed my forhead. My tears ran freely down my cheeks. I couldn't stop.

Somehow knowing he was there to hold me felt alot better.

I feel so vulnerable around him almost all the time.

***

"Bbe, I am sorry, just please don't listen to them. " I heard Niall's pleading voice as I sat on my bed crying. Crying for alot of reasons cause I baried it so deep.

For the past month I have been trying to push all my problems to the back of my mind. But how many days can I run.

I swiped all my issues somewhere I can't find.

But they surface in my dreams they come alive. Mom's spirit is still chasing me. I made promises I couldn't keep. Now the pain is hitting full force.

I deceived myself by the words Niall and the boys have been telling me I don't deserve any of this their kindness their help I don't deserve it I killed my mom I should have died that day.

Why can't I be strong and confront my fears. I felt strong earlier in Niall's arms. It's true and I can't lie about it.

'You shouldn't run away from your fears' Niall's words replying in my mind from the day at the camp.

Now the pain is hitting me full force, the voices speak so loud.

I hope you forgive me Niall Horan.

"Arial, can we please talk??" Niall spoke; not knowing I had already set my mind.

I tried to hide it away on top of a shelf; but it's just not working anymore.

It's just like Perrie said : some day you're going to hit rock bottom and it's my choice to get back up.

I am just not strong enough to fight it.

How can I walk with a smile, get on with my day. I am going back to everything painful tomorrow.

I let everyone down.

"Arial!! Speak to me please! " Niall begged

"I love you" he said for the hundredth time today,

" no you don't, " I cried out, "I don't matter to anyone, least of all you"

"Stop, " he whispered, almost painfully.

"Okay, sure the stars may not shine for you, and the moon may not light up the night sky just to catch a glimpse of you. But people smile because of you. People laugh because of you. You make people happy, and I think that is pretty special.
And for the record you matter. You're the moon and the sun and all the stars in the sky. You're my entire universe."

I moved closer to him hugging him, "I am leaving tomorrow, " I whispered.

"I am not to going to let you go Arial" he promised

"How can you love someone like me, I am a killer, I am a ...." I started, but he cut me off..

"A beautiful, strong girl, who went through alot at such a young age" he said.

I raised my head from his shoulder, looking at him.

I couldn't help but gracefully touch his cheek running my hands through his hair.

"Let me show you how much.." he said

My breathing uneven and heavy as I melted in his eyes. We were so close, I stole glances at his pink lips missing the lingering feeling I got at the pit of my stomach a few hours ago.

Flicking off my tears with his thumb, "Kiss me," I said

He looked at me a hint of desire and concern; "Please.." I spoke one more time getting even closer.

I felt the familiar feeling of completeness.

***

"Wake up beautiful" I heard, followed by a too familiar lips on my shoulder I couldn't help but smile as I got up stretching my arms blushing at the sight of this beautiful man next to me.

"Good morning princess " he said
"Good morning Niall " I spoke.

"Come on. Breakfast is ready" he said

I nodded. Walking to the bathroom.

***

"Hay" I walked into the kitchen seeing a shirtless Niall, and food.
Behave I had to remind myself.

***

"Would you please tell me where are we going, " I argued

"No. Not happening. Now come on its our last day here. I will make this a day you never forget" he said smiling

Zayn and Perrie left a few hours ago to London. They dropped by so Zayn could take his belongings and say bye. I will miss them so much.

Lottie and Louis went back to Doncaster as well. It was so hard saying goodbye to them too. Thou Louis, God bless him; insisted it wasn't for long and in fact it's see you later.

Harry just left with Lou and Lux straight to LAX. For some kind of formal meeting with a few friends. Lou had to literally drag Lux as she refused to leave without me. She's the little baby sister I never had.

Liam and Sophi headed to Wolverhampton only a few minutes ago. I will miss these cuties alot too.

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"Okayyy, don't peak!!" Niall warned

"Seriously, I am literally blind, your hands are too tight loosen up a bit please I promise I won't look" I told him as he had his hands firmly covering my eyes.

"Uhmmm. Let me think about that. " He said.

I fought him blinded unable to see. Hitting air instead.

"Impatient, I see" he chuckled; guiding my body where to walk.

I knew we entered a place because of the wind sudden change, "Huh you wish Horan " I spoke

"We'll see about that Anderson " he said, "Okay. okay almost there..... open up" he said removing his hands

I blinked a few times adjusting to the light... losing my breath. Looking around me.

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