Arial's P.O.V

I felt the cold rain droplets hitting every part of me; I was absolutely soaked, not that I cared.

I let my hand feel the water burning my fresh bloody wrist, I was standing at the same spot that day I could never forget, not even if I wanted to.

I closed my eyes until I heard a loud beep "MOVE OUT THE WAY FREAK!!" the guy said, I looked up but could not see his face, my eyes felt heavy, as I started walking back home.

I opened the door then turned the lights on, headed to my room.

I took off my clothes, and turned the water on filling the tub then settling in.

The eager coming back as the water hit my thighs, I took the blade metal.

I paint with silver but it comes out red.

I took a deep breath and went under water.

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"Mom I want to stay alone!!" I screamed in the middle of the street "Where will you go?! it's raining really hard!! come back let's talk about it" mom said running after me clutching my wrists and bringing me back I yanked her arm away from me, I walked a few steps forward until I heard mom's loud scream.

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I woke up still in the tub, I went to get dressed laying in bed awake.

Well, my name is Arial Anderson. I'm 17 years old and I live in Ireland, I am half Irish half californian, I have no siblings and I live with my dad, he's a doctor so he is away for at least 18 hours aday.

I like painting, reading, loneliness, and cutting.

How depressing, you might think. I won't judge because I feel the same way.

I looked at my night stand, 3am, couple of hours till I get up for school; my eyes dared to move to the right side where mom was standing giving me death glares. I cried until I couldn't feel a thing. Even after all this time my mind doesn't quit Playing dirty tricks on me.

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I got up heading to the bathroom to begin with my daily routine I got dressed and walked to school.

I got stumbled the minute my feet touched the school hall, Cursed I KNOW, I got up Helen and Rico laughing about me Calling me names.

I walked slowly with my head down to class.

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The bell rang indicating school is over, I went to the bathroom to wash my face. I looked in the mirror horrified by the horrible dark circles under my eyes, the whispers burning me up, the looks bringing me down.

I ran home, eager for alone time after all the studying and bullying I got threw today, like every other day.

I took a nap, woke up to do my home work, worked out and aet an apple.

I took a shower to freshen up, after getting dressed I heard shuffling of keys down stairs.

I went to see Dad. "Daddy " I called "Hay Arial how was school today?!"He asked.

Other than the fact that I get bullied everyday "Its good daddy" I said.

"I'm going to bed, I am really tired " he said.

"Do you--" I started.

"I am tired" dad repeated

"OK " I mumbled.

I went to sleep too after reading, which was about 4 hours cause I couldn't leave the book I got so caught in.

Same as the day before and the day before and everyday day.

I wake up, walk to school, get humiliated, walk back home, sleep, work out/ stretch. Stand under the rain for a good 30 minutes until I cannot open my eyes I head home to take a shower and paint or read something as always.

Because Gi you were the first to believe in my stories I will always have a special place for you in my heart lots of <3