I decided I should totally make  a separate chapter for this.

Am speechless but am going to try and make up my words.

it's 14-12-2015 not only am I turning 18 in 4 days; but also it's the last performance of the boys on xfactor before the break; which said to last for 18 months.

I  just wanna say thank you, thank you for making me smile when I was crying my heart out. Thank you for reminding me am beautiful from the inside and it's not looks that matter the most. Thank you for writing such good music. Thank you for being so generous and humble. Thank you for being who you are.

Oh am... so emotional right now xfactor night was truly a bless. History, the hug,Liam and his parents, Niall, Harry,Louis grabbing Liam for the group hug. THIS IS TOO MUCH FOR ME TO HANDLE.

True It's been 8 years aka 'monthes' ,you get what i mean, without Zayn but I will not let the 4 years he was in the group go to waste.

Plus if it was not for him I wouldn't have known the group.

And I have a soft spot for that Bradford boy. Friendly reminder I think I have a soft spot for the whole band.

Dips on the whole band ♥♥

Omggggggg

I love one direction to sum this up ♡♡♡

I of  course have  not been there since The Beginning, but definitely staying to The End, I am yes mad at him, but I still can't stop not loving him.

It physically impossible, after all he is the reason I know of One Direction, again, and he will always be my first real crush, I remember I was 15 years old , aka 11th grader at the beginning of the year, I started to fall for Zayn only last year for the rest.

Midnight Memories was the first thing I witnessed in front of me, best song ever was and will always be one of my obsessions, not in a bad away.

I can't believe time flew by so fast, I remember saying I don't like Harry, now, oh you don't want to know about NOW.

I FREAKING LOVE ALL FIVE OF THEM, I mean I swar I tried to stop or decrease The Love, but I can't.

I love you so much ❤❤❤

My beautiful Family I never met,

See how breathtaking the sight is, I am hopping One Day, one day to meet them.