All the things that happened below in the past were fictional! Please proceed at your own risk. The description is mild but these are not ideas! I am not giving you any ideas to kill someone! Please don't harm yourself, you are loved, remember that! I DONT PROMOTE ANY SELF-HARM!

Dedication : dharsshavarthinee , serendipitae95, sahilahezhil , destinyroberts375 , greygoul , JignaBrahmbhatt , Brie_Ella101 

Sophia's POV :

I licked the ice cream from my ice cone in my hand. "Thank you," I said smiling. He smiled back as he pulled me close by my shoulder giving me warmth. We just finished our dinner and he had a special ice-cream truck ready for us.

We talked, laughed, teased and ate. It was really fun. It was just us. It was beautiful. It was really shocking how far he went for this. I mean I love it. But still... "What's you cute little ass thinking?" he asked. I smiled at him.

"You?" I said. "That's what I thought your head, mind, heart and soul can only think about me. No other man." He said seriously. "Yes, Mr Grumpy," I said. "Whatever." He said. I finished my ice-cream and threw the tissue in the garbage can. "Oh, I forgot to ask you wanted to taste mine?" I said. How could I? It's very rude.

"Well...Yes," he said smirking. "Oh my God, I am so sorry. I know you didn't want to have one whole but you could have told me I could have to share it with you. I am so rude. You just did all this for me an-" I was interrupted with soft lips pressing against mine.

My eyes widened. But I closed them as soon as Edward wrapped his hand around me pulling me close. After a few seconds, he pulled apart. I stood there frozen. He licked his lips. "Mmm... It was good." He said. I looked at him eyes wide blushing profusely. "The ice-cream." He pointed out. I hit his chest.

"Cant you like a civilised person ever eat ice-cream?" I asked. He took off his coat as he wrapped it around me pulling me close. "You are freezing Sweetheart." He said frowning. "Well it's really cold at nights here," I said snuggling into him.

He hugged me as we entered the hotel. We waited by the elevator when the couple beside us gave a weird look. I eye the girl who looked like a prostitute and the man like a goon. I buried myself into Edward. "Don't worry baby girl. Nobody is going to hurt you when I am here." He whispered.

The girl glared at me. As I glared back. "I would really appreciate you stop looking at my wife like that unless you want to be thrown out of the hotel," Edward said in a really loud voice making the girl snap her gaze to him.

Wait-Hold up, WIFE??????

"You could do better." She said. "Like who? YOU?" Edward said with disgust. The man stepped forward ready to attack with a punch but Edward stopped him with ease. God bless Ed for going to the gym every day.

The manager came running in. "Sir I would have to ask you to leave." He said to the goon. "WHAT THE FUCK? HE STARTED IT." He shouted. "I'm sorry sir but I am pretty sure the owner of this place won't be rude to his customers for no reason. Please leave before I call the police." He said.

The goon's eyes widened and he just glared at us as he grabbed the girl's hand and walked out. Edward nodded at the manager and he left. The elevator opened and we got in. He kissed my forehead. I am really cold today. What's wrong with me?

I closed my eyes but I was picked up in a moment. I shrieked, "EDWARD!" I said. "You looked like you were about to pass out." He said. "Don't worry I am not leaving you so soon." I laughed. But he just looked at me. "Okay. Okay. I am sorry. I Won't joke about it." I said as I pulled his jacket over me in the form of a blanket. He walked to our suite.

"You ate a lot didn't you?" he chuckled. "Are you calling me FAT?!" I asked. "No baby. I was joking. You are hot." He said pecking me. "You better be joking," I said snuggling into him. Why am I so needy today. It's weird.

"Are you okay Sophia?" he asked concerned. He always used my name in serious situations. Nodded smiling. "Just happy and overwhelmed," I said smiling. He nodded as I grabbed the key from his pant pocket and unlocked the door. We walked in and to the bedroom, he placed me on the bed.

He was about to go but I pulled him back as he fell on top of me. "Where do you think you are going?" I asked. He looked at me smirking. "Sweetheart I love when you seduce me. But you are not well." He said as he got up. "Let me get you some comfortable clothes and turn up the heater." He said getting up.

I pulled him back. "Don't leave me," I said pouting. "Sophia? Are you okay? Do I need to call a doctor?" he asked. "I think it's the champagne," I said. As I grabbed my head. I am being way too needy today... WHY?

He came and hugged me. "No Sweetheart you aren't being needy. I am your fiancée. I am here to provide you with all your needs. Physical and Mental. Don't you ever think you are needy. I should be the one thinking that cause I am always the one to want your affection." He said lowering his head.

"Shut up. Don't you say that. You aren't needy! You are protective. And possessive. I don't blame you, Ed. I am also like you sometimes and that's okay. We are here for each other. And that matters more. You aren't the one actually. You just are able to show it let it be when we are alone or in public. But I cant." I said.

"Really? What about two weeks ago when you kissed me when someone girl was looking at me?" he chuckled. "Well shut up," I said. "I felt like a territory." He said. "You are. You are my territory." I said smiling. He hugged me tighter. "But seriously you are freezing let me get you something comfortable." He said.

"I would prefer your hoodies," I said as he got up. "Sweetheart we aren't teenagers." He said going through his bag. "And I don't care," I said starting to get under the covers. "Don't get under the covers, Sophia." I stopped but smirked and continued.

"Please Sweetheart once you are in there you don't want to come out. And then I have to change you and you won't even.." he turned around.

I smirked. "Too late," I said. "Sophia!" He groaned. "Please?" I said ready to make my puppy dog eyes. "Don't you dare start with your eyes." He said. "I'll change you just get out of the covers." He said sighing. I quickly got outstanding in front of him.

He sighed as his hands went around my back and he slowly pulled down the zipper his fingers brushing down the spinal cord. "I like this." He said. I pulled away. "You know what I'll do it myself," I said. He pulled me close as he slowly removed the sleeve from my shoulder. And put his shirt over me full sleeves covering my arms.

I smiled as I launched myself at him. "Thank you. This is so comfy." I said. "Your welcome. Now get in bed. I'll turn the heater up and change. I'll be right back" he said as he kissed my head. I smiled. I didn't need to be told twice.

I snuggled into the pillows. He came in soon in his sweat pants and as usual without a shirt. Shamelessly, I stare at his abs. I know it's been such a long time. But he is hot and I can't help it. "You know I don't understand... Always?" he asked smirking. Referring to me staring. I looked at him and pulled up my-his- shirt up to my neck. My chest on display. His eyes staring at me with lust. I pulled down the shirt.

"Always?" I asked. "Okay don't need to rub it in," he said as he got into the bed and pulled me on top of him. "Sophia. You are really behaving weird. Do you want us to go to the doctors?" he asked again. "If you ask me one more time you Mr. are sleeping on the couch," I said. "Okay. I will shut up." He said.

He started stroking my hair. I loved this. I was finally engaged to him. I couldn't contain my excitement. This was perfect. But I was still a bit worried.

"Edward?" I asked softly. "Yes, sweetheart?" he said. As he sat up with me on his lap. "If I ask you something will you get mad?" I asked turning around facing him. He circled his hands around my waist holding me up. "Obviously not." He said.

"The Broken tattoo...." I started cautiously. It was a touchy subject for me. I didn't like talking about a lot of things. So I didn't know if he was comfortable discussing it yet. His eyes widened. "Its okay Ed. I understand that some things are personal and you wouldn't want to share it just yet or at all." I said completely understanding. I wasn't hurt. I was just worried about him. I trusted him to take care of himself. If he wanted me I would always be there for him. But if he didn't want to share I would understand cause even I wouldn't want to share a tragic memory or some personal feeling.

I gave him a small smile. "I would always be there for you. I just hope you are still not haunted by it." I said. He took a deep breath before he said, "Sophia, you know how I was in high school. I was reckless. I was a bad boy and I had everything I wanted. It was all amazing for me. I had best friends, great parents and everything. You came along and we got over our beef form childhood. But there were a lot of things that I didn't know.

All of these pleasures which I had was because of mom and dad and when I found out that they weren't my real parents it hurt me a lot. All of the life I had led and all the richness. All the authority I had was not because of me. And I realised that. Girls liked me because of my body and not my personality. For my money which was not even mine.

And it was humiliating that my actual parents didn't want me. The fact that I trusted you so much and you just didn't tell me was just something that ticked me off more. I am not going to lie I liked you back then I just didn't realise it.

Then Amanda came along and it was all like she was someone that understood me. She was an orphan who was adopted. But I should have known better. By the time I realized I loved you, you had already left.

It was like the world came crashing down on me. The first time I found someone that would love me for me had left me. You proved the devil side of me right. I was furious. So I started escaping from everything.

I started ignoring my parents and friends. I went insane. I used to spend all my time in the gym, partying... I used to get angry at small things. Ticked off when someone provoked me.

I did try to find you. I know your letter said otherwise but I did. And I did find you. I knew you were in Australia within two months of you leaving. I went there. But I saw you with Cole and that was it. That was my breaking point. I felt like you replaced me so quickly and I convinced myself that you never loved me.

When I got back I was more closed off. At a point it was unbearable I locked myself up for a week and passed out. After that everyone started to keep an eye on me. It was irritating. Once I went to Oxford I was done with everything. I got the tattoo at the same tattoo place. It was a reminder that no one in this world is made for me. After that, I forgot about everything. I concentrated on my studies.

I used to talk to everyone but I never let my wall break. But you came back again and I was furious. The first few days I tried. I tried to stay away from you. To ruin you. But I just couldn't. It was like my love for you never died. It faded deep inside my heart but never left." He said.

I was already crying. I hugged him. "Why the hell did you do that? Do you not know how many people care about you? Love you? You asshole? If I would have known all of this I would have rushed back here that second. Why the fuck didn't anyone tell me this?" I asked. He put his head down not meeting my gaze.

"YOU TOLD THEM NOT TO?! WHY THE HELL WOULD YOU DO THAT?" I asked. "I'm sorry okay? I was convinced that I didn't want anything to do with you. But now I want you to be there with me every second of my life. I can't live without you." He replied his voice low our faces inched apart.

"I'm so sorry you had to go through that all alone. I am so sorry." I said repeating myself. I SHOULDN'T HAVE LEFT!

"Stop crying sweetheart. It was not just your fault okay? It wasn't my even. I shouldn't have lost control over myself. Okay, now I need to why in the world would decide to commit suicide? Were you freaking out of your mind? Did you ever think of other people? Shawn? Your mom and dad? What about the kids they look up to you so much? What about ME?" he asked his voice on the verge of breaking.

Looks like we both are spilling our secrets. I sighed. I don't really like talking about it. But if need us to work. We need to be truthful.

"Edward let me tell you this. I know you must have thought over before proposing to me today. But trust me after you hear this I wouldn't mind if you would want to leave me." I said not able to look him in the eye. I Don't want him to be with someone who comes with so much of problems. I can't handle mine sometimes how do I help him with his?

"Look at me." He said. I kept my head down as I started getting up from his lap. He tightened his hold on me. "I SAID FUCKING LOOK AT ME!" his voice dripping with anger. I slowly lifted my gaze to stare into his piercing blue eyes. His eyes held a lot of emotions- pain, anger, hurt even worry?

"Why in the world would you think that? I love you and I always will! I am not letting you go anywhere. YOU ARE MINE! I don't care whatever the fuck the reason is. Even if you have killed someone I wouldn't fucking care! You are MY SOPHIA! Stop getting these absurd thoughts. You and Me are forever. You better get that inside your pretty head." He said. Holding my face gently in his arms.

Every word registering in my mind. "Edward, don't you see it? I have caused you hurt? All the that you went through is because of me? Don't you see it? How can you still love me?!" I asked. "SHUT THE FUCK UP! JUST SHUT UP!" He said getting up as I sit on the bed.

He pulls his hair out. He turns around his hands clenched in a fist. He raises his fist to punch the wall but I quickly get up standing exactly there. I closed my eyes for impact but it never came. "ARE YOU FUCKING INSANE? WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING?" he asked. Examining my face gently.

"I am sorry," I said. "I know what you are trying to do. You trying to make me hate you. It's not working and it's never going to work. So shut up and sit down and tell me." He demanded. I hugged him. Sophia, he is not leaving you. You trust him with your life. You can trust him with this secret. You love him more than anyone. You need to tell him.

He rubbed my back. And I pulled away. Grabbing his hand we both sat on the bed. I stared at the wall. He pulled me close taking my hand in his. "I'm here. No matter what I am here." He said.

"I'm the reason Bella was in Coma," I said. There I said it. I looked at him. His face was devoid of emotion. I don't even know how he feels. "WHAT?" he asked. "When I went to Australia. Everything was a mess. I had shut down everyone except mom, dad and Shawn. I didn't talk to any new people I just kept to myself. It was like with you I had lost a part of myself.

Soon I slept less and I started becoming weak. Shawn forcefully took me to the doctor and turned out I had severe depression. I didn't even react to it when I found out. Then In the new school, I met Bella. She was this cheerful girl that everybody liked. She forcefully became my friend and I was glad for it. I WAS FINALLY RECOVERING. I mean that's what we all thought.

Soon I met her boyfriend Cole and he and Shawn became best friend." I smiled at our memories. "But happiness doesn't last in my life does it?"

He pulled me closer. My eyes became watery at the memory. "It was two years into everything. That's when Cole proposed to Bella it's the same day that she gave him the amazing good news. We all celebrated. I and she shopped for the baby, I helped her decorate her room. We had even decided names. She had told me to name him Jason if he was a boy and Jessabelle if she was a girl." Tears had pooled in my eyes.

"The day I went to visit her and she was in so much pain. She was trying to reach her phone. I rushed in and helped her. I got the bag and called Cole was going to take her to the hospital. I was helping her down the stairs. But I accidentally nudged her pushing her down and she stumbled down the stairs. It all happened so fast I couldn't even do anything.

I rushed towards her but she had already passed out I couldn't even her heartbeat. She was almost dead. And with her so was the unborn child." Tears started streaming down. "I was so scared. I collapsed onto the ground beside her trying to wake her up. Thank God Cole came in time that he called the ambulance. The baby was delivered but she..." my voice croaked.

"I couldn't go and see her. I could never. I then rushed off to the other side of the country. I was MIA for a month. The depression worsened. I didn't feel the need to live after that. I was going to jump off a cliff. I had decided. I had written a note to everyone. And I was ready to take the punishments of my sins. But then Cole and Shawn found me and stopped me. I was admitted into the hospital till my mental health got better. Then even after that, I was kept on the watch so I didn't kill myself again." He hugged me. I cried in his chest. Tears weren't going to stop.

"Sophia it was an accident. It was not your fault. Pleased don't blame yourself." He said soothing me. "No Edward it wasn't! A child could have died because of me. A family could have been destroyed before it was had even been formed. I took away a mother form a child. Bella couldn't see Jason because of me. It was my fault!" I said. I brought my knees to my chest. He got up and sat down on his knees in front of me.

"Sophia you have been through a lot. You can't blame yourself for IT. It was an accident. And you took care of Jason after that. You gave him the love and life he wanted and he deserved. You weren't being punished, love." He wiped away my tears and brought me closer hugging me. "Please don't think that." He whispered. "I am sorry," I said. "Its okay Sweetheart. We all have a past we all have made mistakes." He says.

I nodded. "After that when I was finally normal in two months I was ready to meet Jason. He was the cutest thing ever. When he held my finger. It was like hope for me. I wanted to be there for him." I said. He looked at me.

"I am so proud of you. Am glad that you found hope to live. Or else I could have lost you forever. But why didn't any of know?" he asked anger sipping in his voice. "Edward I wanted to go away I couldn't have come back," I explained. He got up and turned around pulling ta his hair. I stood up and hugged him. "I am sorry," I said but he didn't say anything. I walked in front of him to see him crying.

"Ed..." I whispered. "I could have lost you! I could have fucking lost you!" he said shaking me with my shoulder. "Shhh...Shhh," I said as he buried his head in my neck. "I wouldn't have even known." He said. Wow, I didn't know what to say. That made me speechless. "I am here now. And I am not going anywhere." I said. He hugged me for a while and then he pulled away slowly kissing me. I kissed back. He needed this and I wasn't going to deny.

Slowly the slow kiss turned into a hungry one. Our hands over each other. His tongue tasting my mouth. My hands around his neck. Him pulling me close. I jumped and circled my legs around his waist. He placed his hands supporting me. Slowly my back hit the bed and now I didn't want to start.

"Edward" I whispered. He stopped and looked at me. "As much as I want to ravish you and make love to you till you are sore. You aren't well and I don't want to take any risk." He said laying down beside me. I looked at him. No, you can't just do this to me! He just led me on and now doesn't want to. No mister.

I smirked. I got up sitting on his lap. He looked up at me raising his eyebrow. Let's see how much self-control you have. "What are you doing?" he asked. "You sure you don't want to do anything Ed?" I said my voice husky. His eyes widened. "You know on second thoughts I might just sleep on the sofa. He said getting up. I pushed him down my hand slowly running from his jaw to his chest and stopping at his pants.

"Sophia, please don't." he pleaded his voice hoarse. It's working. "But I want too," I said as I unbuttoned two buttons of my shirt. His hands tightly gripped my waist. I bent down slowly kissing his neck as my hands played with the waistband of his sweat pants. "Sophia." He moaned as almost put my hand in.

I stood up sitting exactly on his *umm* that. And adjusting myself. "SOPHIA!" he groaned. I pulled him up and crashed my lips to his. He immediately responded his hands immediately going inside my shirt. I gripped his hair. I SHOULDN'T HAVE PROVOKED HIM! He smirked in the kiss. "You had your fun now my turn." He whispered. As he slowly took off my hair tie. And then started kissing my neck.

I arched my back. He got up and turned us over. "I love you," he said as kissed me again. Pressing his soft lips to mine and I kissed back. "I love you too," I said kissing back. After sometimes are clothes were on the ground. And we were both panting. "But not today love." He grabbed his shirt and put it over me. I was tired. He was right. He pulled me closer to him. I rested my head on his chest. I immediately started drifting to dreamland.

"You are an angel. You deserve the world and I'll give it to you. I promise Sophia Salvatore." A small peck to my lips and that's all I wanted.

A/N :

Hey, sorry I haven't been updating lately but this is one long chapter so I hope it helps. I hope this makes your day a lot better. I will mostly go back to my posting schedule soon. Please bear with me. I have had a rough time. Sorry for all these weeks I hadn't posted and thank you for your concern.

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