You might wondering how depression turns a the most joyful person into a death soul. How can that thing makes the purest and carefree person ended up on a rope, in a bathtub, or under the river. 

Why people want to kill themselves intensionally? It's that bad? It's worth to leave families behind?

It's for sure struggling to understand, simply because not everyone experienced those chains of complex feeling ever before. To say correctly, it's like dragging tons of weight when trying to get out of bed, it's like our bodies are incapable of doing anything, even the smallest task that we've been hanging for the past 3 years. And the worst thing is that you show that you don't want to communicate, you don't need help, however, your eyes speak the opposite thing. It's seem alike to sadness but false, sadness is just that you are not pleasant with yourself and after a few days, you are fully recover. But depression is that you are so tired of living, tired of existing, you are tired of the character that you've been playing, and deep inside you actually need help. You need to stop being that person every single day, don't say i'm fine when you know you're not, don't push your family away, stop telling lie to yourself.

"What if I have nothing left to lose?"

You are wrong, if nobody is with you, you still have yourself, you still have your passion. You've been fighting not to kill yourself, why now you stop. 

Only you can save yourself. If life treats you like a piece of garbage, don't treat yourself like it does.

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