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How it's feel like to experience the moment you decided to hang yourself but eventually, you cut off that thought and leave the rope. Can I ask why? Why did you want to end your life in that such age. Why did you want to put a stop to your own existance? Because your life and other people didn't treat you the way you expected? Nobody understand your feeling or just because they just simply don't care at all. The things you reveal in the conversation is everything they know about you. Your tone high and joyful, they will assume that there're no clouds in your head. Nobody could see through you if you let them know nothing. And when they accidentally feel it and understand your feeling, and they keep asking about it(they just don't want to leave you in the dark space alone), you start to feel irritating about it. Why? See, people don't want attention but also want to be notable. The fact is we just don't want to be alone, to fight by ourselves. The people who support us don't have to care about us, just let us know that they will be here.  A bit off topic? Anyway, the question is why did you want to kill yourself? You got a chance to live which mean you luckier than a millions of people. You can die from sickness, disaster but please not a rope. Do not let that piece of thing kill you. Do not let the idea of death dictates you. Life may not treat you properly but you must treat yourself with the best you could. But to be fair, if life didn't give to the time to breath how could you able to take care of yourself. And also how could you even sleep with all those pressure but still did. You overcome everything and leave rope. If you have the will to do it, you are tougher than anything. For the one who been struggling with your life and want to give up: "Life haven't end yet, so please do so. Live and keep going because you never know where you will reach".

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Be fighter and fight till the end.