Chapter 4: Where did she go?

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CHAPTER 4

WHERE DID SHE GO?

Helga ran outside, and hid behind the schools Dumpster she took out her pink notebook she didn't feel like writing poetry this time she used the last pages of her book as a place to just write out her painful feelings

Oh Arnold, why do I torment you, why can't I just show you how much I love you, you mean everything to me and yet I hurt you so"

All these years you've put up with me, and now you have finally decided that it was time to just let me go, and yes I'm to blame. I can't show you the real me, I try but I fail, and just end up hiding even deeper in the shadows, why?, why? can something that seems so simple be so difficult

I wish that I would never feel love anymore because it hurts, I boss Phoebe around, and I torture you because I can never let anyone in.

Oh, Arnold my love for you is stronger than anything in the world, so strong that I gave up my Nancy Spumoni boots that I so highly desired, Stronger than all riches in the world, Stronger than anything beyond this universe, Oh Why? Why? can't I just show you how much you mean to me? How much I love you, Why?

Yet, still even if I were the main cause of your childhood dilemmas, I would never give up those moments that I saw you smile, oh how my heart filled with joy. I really don't deserve you, oh why do I have to torment you to hide.

Why? Why? Why? Why am I so... afraid

Phoebe deserves the best, Arnold deserves the best. I don't belong here, I don't think I ever had

Poor Gerald, why am I so stupid? I had no right to hurt him, I have no right to hurt anyone even Brainy, even if he gets on my nerves no one deserves to be punched just because the breathe on your back.

Am I a coward?, maybe I AM worthless, and nobody has or never will care about me... I'm nothing special, I'm just Helga.

A tear fell in the letter A of HelgA's name and it dripped down the page, with a deep painful gasp Helga weakly lied down and slowly fell asleep.

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Arnold helped Gerald up, he got some water for him and he made sure that he was ok, after that he headed for the bathroom to clean up Gerald's blood from his hands.

As soon as Arnold left the bathroom, he heard someone giggling in the hallway, he didn't pay much attention to it until he heard the word "Helga", so he froze and hid in the corner

"This wasn't the plan, what happend to just putting a rat in her desk? You've gone too far?" said Nadine in an angry tone

"Oh darling, rats are disgusting! She deserves it after all, she is the one who started it" said Rhonda

"Helga looked like she was going to cry, Gerald got physically hurt, Arnold actually yelled, and Phoebe said she was worthless"

"Yeah, that's what revenge is supposed to be like," said Rhonda nonchalantly

"Oh Rhonda saying that she said that Arnold has a crazy Wako grandma who eats garbage out of the city dumpsters, and that Gerald wears his sisters make up and dresses, and even worse saying that Phoebe farted on their sleepovers? You know how sensitive Phoebe is about that, don't you think that it was out of line?

"Uh no" said an irritated Rhonda, whom was crossing her arms

"And the worst one was that you said Eugene was...?

Rhonda just shushed her "oh you're just saying that because you have a crush on him"

"No Sheena does, stop it Rhonda I'm not doing this anymore, and I'm going tell everybody the truth" said Nadine

Rhonda grabbed her "but you can't..."

Arnold heard everything, he came out of his hiding spot filled with rage, he growled so loud that Rhonda and Nadine heard it

And with a shaky voice Rhonda said "Arnold - what are you u doing here?."

"No Rhonda, I heard everything, and YOU better tell everybody what you did and apologize to Helga" he started to realize that he was shouting but he didn't care.

"But Arnold she ruined my coat!"

"That's it" spat a disgusted Arnold "you did all of this because of a coat? You better tell Helga what you did"

Rhonda was beginning to get a bit worried, she has never seen Arnold like this "but she will beat me up" said the Dark-Haired girl

Arnold stepped up to her, face to face "just do it"

Rhonda looked at him she has never seen this side of him before "ok ok, I will tell her"

"When?" said Arnold

"After school"

"No I want you to tell her now!"

"ok ok, I'll tell her now," said Rhonda

The three spent the rest of lunch looking for her, but they couldn't find her, the bell rang and Rhonda promised Arnold to tell her after school.

When the bell rang everyone was in his or her seat except Helga. The Substitute Teacher didn't notice and with Phoebe trying to ignore her, no one else noticed that she was missing either.

The only person who actually did notice was Arnold, he kept looking at the door hoping that she will come in "any second now" he kept whispering to himself but then 10, 20, and 30 minutes passed and still no sign of her.

He didn't want to get her in trouble either so he didn't say anything and kept asking to go to the bathroom to look for her, but she was nowhere to be seen, by this point he began to worry

Arnold sat down at his chair after once again checking around the school, he was growing even more angry at himself "what was I thinking? I should have known, I know Helga better than that, I was just mad because everybody was laughing at my Grandma this morning" he put his head down and thought "Rhonda went too far talking about my family like that, she went to far for hurting Helga like that!"

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