Do you know what it feels like to have your heart tear and shred itself? Into billions of pieces? And fall like glass from window onto your skin? Into your skin? Maybe even laying across the ground being blown around my the grieve winds that slash and whisper all the things you never want to hear.

I knew. I knew more then I should. I had the love of my life, or what I thought was the love of my life. He's the reason for that pain. But what brings the sprinkles is that he never loved me. He was using me. Playing with me. Like I was a toy to be played with and dumped on the side of the road.

And I had let him.

I swore to the almighty above and below, that I'd never love again, cause he wasn't the only one that had scared the heart that kept beating even if it felt like it was in pieces. He was just the worst.

And never loving another person sounded good. I could focus on my work, maybe even get a cat or two?

But I never did get those cats, instead I met another guy.

At first he was just my new boss but soon became a friend, even if I never really told him much and he didn't care. He liked being around me he says. Though he sleeps with every pair of legs that walk in to become his secretary.

I fell in love not because he's a total dork, but because he's that strong, the thin nearly not there string of web that holds me together.

My soulmate.

I only survived through my last relationship because as much as I didn't want to accept it, that's guy wasn't my soulmate.

I could have died. I wanted to. And I would have if the gates didn't pull one last string, and told me.

And I wouldn't have figured it out if the stupid fates hadn't told me that he has a weird shaped birthmark on his rib cage which I stared at whenever he took his shirt off.

I hated the fates.

Hated them so much.

Cause they knew, that I'd never pull a human into my life. Not by choice, and I would never let the fates pull him into it.

Ugh, I hate my life.

Why'd I have to fall in love again?

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