Ugh... This is what happens when I always go downstairs in the morning.

I wake up.. Normal right? Then I check my phone.. Still normal right? We always do that.

I go downstairs because I want to watch tv there, even though there's a tv in my room.. I go downstairs at 10:30am or less. But I'm not hungry...

I ask them, "can I watch tv?" because I think that the show they're watching is already done but they left the channel there..

They say "no, maybe later, after the show..".. I brought my phone and charger downstairs, my charger was in the outlet, charging this very phone that I'm using to write this.. I was about to take off the charger from the outlet and go upstairs again to watch it on the other tv.

But my grandfather says that I should eat.. But im not hungry so I said no.

Then he started giving me a lecture by saying "What time is breakfast.." etc etc..

I hear that lecture so many times.

And before you start commenting 'but they just care about you' blah blah blah.. You know what?! I wish they could just care a bit less about me! If I don't want to eat, then I don't want to eat. Don't force me to something that I wanted to do yet!

This is why I always stay in my room.. This is also why I wanted my own room. Because I share my room with my grandparents.

You know.. I just want to die so I don't hear those lectures again.. Or run away from home, leave in my dreams and fandoms..

I'm crying so hard rn..

I want to do things my way in my life, this *points at myself* is NOT YOUR LIFE!

Fine then... If you want to break my phone into bits, do it! I don't care anymore!

I wish I could teleport to another place where there's no nagging.. Or just die and rot alone. Or with you guys.... You all help me so much... Even if you just read this.. No comment or vote.. Just read it.. Still.. Thank you..

... Thank you all so much...